I Am Me

2008-08-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

NEWS

2008-08-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

Omg its been pretty darn long since i ever enter this site...sheeshh!

i hope everyone's doin fine..
iv been totally busy lately,i didnt even realise
i almost forgot abt my blog!jees!
haha..alot has been goin on lately..alot has changed..
alot has been happening,i dont even know where to start,mymy!!

First of all,iv made my decision with regards to my education,
i decided that its best that i retake my O's cuz without it,im nowhere
i know...its not like i failed all the damn papers,it only freakin math!
hurrhhh...the thought of it drives me up the wall..

i also recently join a modelling company..im just so psyched abt it!
not like im really commited to it,i just do it for fun,freelancing!
at this point of my life,im just so honoured to know that im doing gd!
im feeling greater than ever..my birthday has just passed,it was
fantabulous!errghhh yeah thats a new word to me...

Anyway fasting month is also comin,i cant wait to lose all those building
up pounds...sheeshh!!!i needa lose em.......haha..alot of things are comin up
i just hope i can handle em all well..im also goin for a holiday after raya..
so its gonna be fantastic!!!!i hope they're all gonna happen all as planned,
but u know..things dont always happen as planned..but oh well..lets just pray
for the best!im gonna bounce now..at the mean time,here's some snippets
of my portfolio..enjoy your time!lataaaaa!!

Love,
HannahBanana

oh babe

2008-06-01T16:04:00.003+08:00

Oh hmmm...hi again!

havent got the time to hog on the comp these days..
been too busy with work..its getting tougher and tougher..
but oh well..gotta keep on surviving..
iv been pretty good lately..not that im totally enjoying it
but getting along with it....

alright now let's talk abt my current intimate life.
hurrrr....i dont know if i should call it a torture..
yes i have never been a patient person..
that i gotta admit it...
but really i dont know where im heading..
don't know where i should move on next?
okay..and so..iv been thinkin alot abt it
maybe im just being so overeacting..

Maybe yes!i am.......
ok i dont even know what im talkin abt!
maybe i should rephrase it again,
i'm on the verge of telling him...
but NO!i cant..cuz then it'll be equivellent
to me creating a murder suicide...
uhhhhhhhh...this is getting
dramatic...............boobooo.....

ok shut hannah shut upppp....!

Okay maybe due to previous past past past
is makin me feelin like this...but why?
scared of losing?oh bullshit hannah....
maybe?oh yeah.....hurrrrr....

this is insane....only people who frequent read my blog
would understand what the hell on earth im talkin about?
oh yeah.....uhuh!

im im im im im im im......uhhhhhhh.......

i think i'm....

Inlove,
HannahBanana

Empty lonely

2008-05-16T20:25:00.002+08:00

Well sometimes deep inside i feel like im empty.
just missing something..something that i long to have
but really what is it?

i can't be another person now can i?
i can't do things correctly these days.
i feel like more and more people in my life
are counting on me...im no super woman..
im just a normal girl who just wants to lead
a simple life..

Sometimes i feel like i wanna have a companion.
someone who holds me and say its alright to make mistakes.
i just feel like no one ever understands me these days.
im not tryna be selfish or rude or offend anyone.
its just that my close people are not getting me.

and so i met this particular guy..he seems nice..
he's funny..polite..simple..nothing complicated..
at least not for now..something in him that i feel
like i connect in him...i felt comfortable with him
even though it was the first time that i met him.

i could be myself when im with him..thats so unlike
ME especially around a guy..its fun just talkin to him.
he makes me feel special inside..as he told me abt his life
bit by bit i could understand how he feels..
i felt the connection..cliche u call it but i just know it!

Before this i could have never looked into a guy's eyes.
especially The someone..you know..
but as i did..my heart just started to race..
and i just know it he felt the same way..
i dunnoe..maybe i just imagine too much
but..hey,it could be true..

call me smitten..infatuated..
i dunnoe...but somehow i know what i feel.
i dont wanna be wrong again..
he's someone iv been talkin alot to..
someone whom iv been telling stories to.
stories which iv never told anyone in a long time
or maybe even none..deep inside im slowly trying to
know him,believe him,show him what my
true feelings are all about..

But i'm not gonna open totally..
it takes alot to gain my trust
it's gonna take a whole lotta time..
before anything can happen...
but i promise..some day..it will.

Love,
HannahBanana

Ps: I'm slowly falling for him.. =)

could it be..

2008-05-13T19:43:00.004+08:00

Could it be?

i'm about to float..im about to dream!
but i dont know what im gonna dream..
tell me how i'm gonna figure this thing out called
confusion..fear?

There's light that i see
but i cant seem to cross the line
i just don't think that its the right time
to find somebody so kind

so hard,
so rare..pure
but there you are standing across the doorway

I see kindness in your eyes
could it be an illusion?
could it be another expression,impression?
i'm confused,im lacking of air..

Where's all the perfection that i searched for?
the imperfections that i seek now..
only then i knew what kind of person that's inside
i freeze a moment,to feel what you are
to know the true you..

the truth in your eyes,
could it be for real?

i wanna know.....

Hannah

loved ones make me whole

2008-05-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

AS u guys can see..i post pictures which are super random.

i didnt know what to post.its been so crazy lately!
life has been nuthin but tiring and at the same time fun.
you know ups and downs but..its great.

my family and friends are super wonderful.
they're like my oxygen tank,without them im nothing really!
haha..my crazy bff's have been there for me all through out thick n thin!
i cant thank them more.when i felt like im stuck in somewhere i cant figure,
i turn to them for a route back home.

Syafiq wrote sumthin in his blog the other time and had this song playing
on his blog,it made me freakin CRY!i felt like im a total loser at first,
but knowing they're always there for me,im just truly blessed and im
thankful for that!

Chelsea and syafiq are people whom i know i can fully trust,no one else can!
i love you guys..

Oh not forgetting my family,yesterday my dad bought me a super cool
watch!its SEIKO watch,a very cool auto watch iv been yearning.
im like one nut head,didnt know that the watch was auto,checked out
the watch it was 9.40am,but it was actually already 2.45pm!hurrrr...
blurr cock!didnt know i had to adjust the time first...like i said blurr cock!

im enjoying life right now..all i know is that nuthin matters other than
HAPPINESS,like what my beloved aunt from down unda has told me
repeatedly: self content,satisfaction,security and HAPPINESS is what matters
the most in life. without them,you're nuthin!

true enough,iv learned that and its been well said.im glad she told me that or
i'd still be stuck in somewhere..i dunnoe..a rut maybe..i can understand now
how important it is to be self content and truly appreciate in what ur doing
at the moment.do what you wanna do..you know..do what you gotta do! ;)

i'm sick of tears,cuz its pointless..you might just dry em up in the end
and by the time when you finally needa cry them out,you might have
left with none.hah.so take it easy,life's nuthin but challenges and life's
nuthin without it.

I'm gonna find new memories now.

Cyah lata!

Lotsa LOVE,
HannahBanana =)

RANDOM

2008-05-04T02:03:00.002+08:00

RANDOMMMMMM!!!

2008-04-15T23:43:00.003+08:00

RANDOM-NESS

im abt to crack

2008-04-15T23:08:00.003+08:00

Another day,another shit huh!
Sometimes life can be such a bitch..

i dont know if im born clumsy or i dunnoe..its just a bitch!
i broke a glass table yesterday at work..yeah i did..
no bullshit..no nuthin,im serious...i kinda think that it happened
really fast..its like i didnt think it would happen so soon..
cuz i knew sooner or later the glass will break upon me..
just that i didnt see it comin so fast..a matter of time!

oh god..it was the most embarrassing thing iv ever done in my entire
work experience..its like errrghhhh...oh god!seeing splatter of glasses
right infront of me..knowing everyone was all around me..
and to make matters worst..the new CEO of robinsons was there
along with the rest of his big man..i was so ridiculed..didnt know
what on earth was i thinkin..thank god my manager,aisyah,was
there to bring me in...everyone was askin if i was okayy..jeeee..

the next thing i knew,all those kpo ding dongs were at my counter
asking and wondering what did happen..erghhh..wth!and now
everwhere i go at work,i cant help but to hear whispers and stares,
it just simply makes me feel weird,its like i broke their glass instead
of mine,i broke my own glass table at work,thats all that mattered to
me but nooo...not to them...they're like some psycho on my ass..

"that's the girl luh,that's the girl!" oh fuck u bitches...thats the thing
i hate about women's department...women are just full of bullshit
gossips....why cant they just lay off me!!seriously!im a woman too
but i dont go around chasing and wanting to know other people's ass!

hurrrr...its so sickening..work is just another bitch really...!!!!!i still am
traumatised about it..and this morning,i couldnt get up inspite the fact
that i set my alarm..i had this very important meeting at the office.
i didnt attend...uhhhhhh...what could get any worst?yikes...so in the end
i just told jolyn to go ahead w/o me.im super sorry lady!

to top that off,wendy my manager called me to ask where was i..
i said i was in bed!screw her!full of crap!

i gotta go..im really beat man..laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

oh oh

2008-04-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

life...its the funniest thing i can say right now..
its funny,why?

well firstly becuz i cant find a reason why iv been pondering
over this super major stupid situation.

ummm..my friends are all in poly..they're either having fun in there
or dying due to the lack of relations with ppl..either which,hey..
just kidding!

on the other hand,im not..cuz im currently waiting to go overseas and study
but i dont know when..seriously..its a pending thing for me right now.
its brutally killing me..i wanna study again,i wanna see books.learn.
get to meet new people,gain more knowledge.get smarter~

hurrrrr......i cant stand it any longer..im currently still working my ass off!
its not a pleasureable thing i should say..i mean im not saying they're not
nice people,as a matter of fact they are..its only the freakin management.
so screwed up and everything...hurrr...

you can call me deprived,in need,the lack of,whatever..i just wanna go to
sch again...........lalalalala.........i hate working........boohooooo....

but hey on the other hand,im waiting to go for an interview with SIA.
how ironic is that...my family and friends have been so supportive of me.
i cant thank them even more....i dont know,i just think im not confident enough.
maybe becuz im just too scared to fail anyone..anyone that i care for..

they're like rooting on me..
i just cant imagine myself letting them down.
its not a nice feeling..it sucksss...bad bad..

anyway,im just thankful i have my loved ones backing my arse..
thats the most they can do for me right now..i love them.i cant ask for more.
i wanna improvise myself.i just dont wanna be down and frowned up anymore.
im through with it..from now on,im gonna find hope..create somethin fresh
in life..so that i can look forward to something new.

love?urrghhh,dont mention abt it..its horrible..i saw him the other day..
was told that he's with a new girl...can u believe that guy?oh goose!
whateverrrrr...guess man are just never satisfied with what they have.
right chels darl?right!totally...........

to syafiq,please get someone whos mentally sane..emotionally
stable.cute but not minah who thinks she's all that drama mama.
not those whom u think she can dance..cuz this is not
'so you think you can dance' reality tv show..its REALITY for god's sake..
i just wanna see my BFFs have a great time.

to chels,i wanna see u happy and bubbly again..get the perks up.
im sure u'll find someone in nyp...its a huge sch..so go get em girl!
oh and pass me the stuff so that i can shove it into his face.
i can hardly wait. :D

and as for me.....im gonna find something to cheer me up.
maybe a glass or two...of..oh u know what...haha,nahh im kidding!

im good.. ;)

lata!

Loves,
HannahBanana

weeeeee

2008-03-23T18:35:00.005+08:00

hey hey...watsup,

seems like its been ages since i last blogged..
too much has been happening lately.i lose the ability to describe already.
but anyhoos im gonna try explaining anyways.

its amazing how things change so fast in a few months.
i still cant believe im sitting here right now.
hurrr lame i know..but really iv gone through alot these days.
however it is,i try as much as i can to stay grounded.

firstly,the most shocking news was my dearest bestfriend
has gone off to aussie,she's trying to get away from this lion
painful city..be by herself for awhile..boy i wish i can FOLLOW!
but but...i have work and other stuff..so yeah.
no matter what,i know tat she's safe there cuz she's with her
relatives and all,im glad..

the morning that we sent her off to the airport,i couldnt stop
tearing cuz its just too painful,what happened behind?i cant spill,
its something i dont wish to storytell,just too heartbreaking.

the moment we were at the departing gate,i felt so fucking
sad..so super sad for her that we cried and cried............
the last words that i said to her was "i love you,chels"
and she said the same..the most amazing n powerful words.
i couldnt stop crying even after she left..boohoohoo!

thank god there were syafiq tab and jolyn by my side..or else i would
have chased all the way in..haha..okok drama!but reallyyy...
after that we went up to the place where we see all those planes
that took off,i cant remember the place's name..what uh?hurrr..

we took pictures..but i can upload it yet..not with me..
straight after we went off to get the train,jolyn ng lost her mp3
n ezlink!!!!hurrrr....see luh!!!that woman!!!but anyways it didnt
seem to matter much,did it jolyn?haha..we trained back to town.
had lunch and then i was off to work.at work,another sad story.

this is another heartbreaking part,i found out that the guy iv been
having this huge crush with has had a girlfriend...how fucking stupid!
hurrrr...gosshh..wtf ...however,i just kept my cool luh.
no point being sad over it cuz he doesnt even know what and how im
feeling..i dont even know if he knows that i fucking exist..jee..

i get so really angry when people thinks im a snob when they
dont even fucking know meeeeeee....WHAT DO THEY expect?
smile and smile like a clown when i walk past?thats effing stupidddd!!
a bunch of losers...seriously..get it right first people..dont anyhow WHACK!
its not the right way to get people to notice you..boys especially....ass!

hokayy enough drama...im about to gag thinkin abt all those nonsence.
as its obviously shown,im off today,nuthin happened,woke up late
lunch and then slept again,i smelled like sheep..haha..kambing whatever.
but im all fresh and smelling goodddd..i feel like eating now..

tmrw OFF...wuhooo..i wish im not working already luh,it just pains me
everyday goin to work..shit shit!

oh btw,im still waiting for POLY..i pray i will get it!seriously!

anyway im goin off luh,so boring here!ciao!

Loves,
HannahBanana =)

fun

2008-02-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was uber fuuunnn.

went out to bbq,turned out to be our class bbq luh!
so syafiq j,dont be upset.

the boys were super fun.it was only me and ain who turned up.
the only girls there.but it was a blast.

the beach was great.the day was nice.
everything were fantastic.i collected shells but
in the end i forgot to bring them back home.
what an idiot am i!

hurrrrr....

we cabbed home at around 1 am.
mum was super annoying on the phone.
haha...in the end i crept home quietly.
in the morning everything was fine.
phewww...thank goodness..

i almost didnt wanna go home..haha!
but no hannah,cant do!

i miss the bunch alot..
farhan and ubai was there..
all of them never changed..same old same old!

farhan brought his cousin along,he was something!
i never thought i'd know anyone like him.
he's this loud crazy guy whos never shy to express himself.
in a way its good but other ways..i dont know.

at first his tattoos freaked me out but as i got to knw him,
he's just another plain guy only with tattoos on.
nice knowing him thou.

Ryan.his name.

oh and yeah we went cycling,so fun.
but the creepiest thing i ever encountered was
lookin at sumthin i shouldnt have looked at.
sheeeshhh....hair raiser!goosebumper!
seriously..i saw that THING!oh u knw what!

ok enough.

i gtg now.work tmrw.laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

outz with cousinz

2008-02-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

Eyyyy...

Finally here comes my off days.
iv been workin my ass off..had no time for myself.
hurrr...so tiring,sips up my energy..physically mentally.

i hate my new incharge..fcked up!i love my job but the
person im workin with fck everything up,which brings me
to consider of whether i should resign and find a new job,
it sucks dont it?

i hate bossing around..
especially when its me whos bein bossed around.
urrrghhh...asshole!ok enough abt it.
shall not debate on it.

Ok so today i went out with my cousins.they're clownheads.
it was so funny the things that happened today.
in the train,we(andy,dee & me) were standing
infront of Ira who were apparently
too heavy to stand(teehee),that she sat down.

ok so the train went to a halt,that it made us all lose our balance
and not to mention me wearing high heels,i couldnt reach a
very good position to balance myself that i actually almost fell
and so to avoid it,in the spur of the moment i unintentionally grabbed
Ira's hair which was the closest in the reach of my hand.

HAHA..my god it was so funny,that everyone was laughin.
thank god it wasnt a wig or it would have been an ugly sight.
hehe..sorry darling..not intentional..its purposely..weee..
ehh nono,really it was an accident.promise it wont happen again.
believe it or not,im actually laughin at myself right now as i type.

well basically the day was fun,we shopped for our little cousin's
birthday present,Emilia.what's it?well its a secret btwn us cousins.
heee.we shopped quite alot.shopping and eating,
supposedly catch a movie too but none that
was interesting so we decided to chill at coffeebean.
VANILLA CHOCOLATE DREAM!yum!

we talked abt alot of things there,basically abt our lives.
and we actually called our grandma to wish her happy birthday!!
its her birthday today..awww..we love u so much nenek!
may god bless your soul with full of bliss and happiness.
long live my dear grandma!amin!

yeeahhh...im goin off to sleep..not workin tmrwww!!!
can SLEEEEPPP!!!alrighty..gdnite! ;)

LOVE,
HannahBanana

SENTOSA

2008-02-03T15:54:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA

been pretty hectic

2008-02-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

Hey ho..im back again..

yes been pretty hectic,been workin alot lately.
shitty things happened but i could get through it.
tough enough.

Anyways,i kinda miss the good old schooling days.
i just cant wait for sch to start over again.
but its all gonna be new,adjusting will definitely
be abit hard but oh well i know i'll be able to.

Lately too we've been catching up with one another.
Ain,jolyn,junjie,jien zhou,weibin..and who else?
i also met khairiyah.

Syafiq,chels,jolyn and me went sentosa just abt a week ago too.
like finally we got to go..had so much fun luh.theres pictures that we took
but iv been to lazy to upload..shall do it soon.

Work for me has been shitty,new in-charge like fcked up ass.
Jolyn never fails to remind me that i have a BF=bitch fit.
how lame luh u jolyn!i cannot stand people bossing others around
when they themselves are not doin any.wheres the responsibility here?

Hahaha..other than that,theres this crazy joke made up by me
when i was quite oblivious to it,maybe i was too tired.

Jien zhou: There's this woman who wrote a comment that says "i saw a waiter TOUCH his DICK and then DIG his NOSE"

Me: You mean it was you who DIG your DICK and TOUCH your NOSE?

Hope u guys get it.cyah.

nervous

2008-01-24T00:31:00.000+08:00

As normal as i may seem right abt now,deep way deep inside i feel like im a ship ready to sink and get wrecked..by now im sure everything seems really obvious that we're gonna get our O's result tmrw.i pray day and night that i'd better damn well get those flying colours..oh god,plese guide me..by now,im sure everything has been clarified and verified or whatever fied that my result has been stated n confirmed,makes me seriously wonder how i'll do..oh my god..the nerves inside me feels like they're gonna explode anytime soon..omg omg omg!

RELAX HANNAH!!

CHILL!!

DEEP BREATH IN,

DEEP BREATH OUT.

now focus about your future..think what ur gonna do next?

oH dear god,the thought of that gives me flutters in my tummy..its like its building up,i dont know til when it can contain..but for one thing i know for sure,it will eventually spring up tmrw at 2pm!omg,im so nervous sared anxious excited..all of them combine mix into one;ME!

i really pray and hope highly that im gonna get things the way iv always pictured..happy and smiley,all jumping around in the lite of enjoyment after getting the cert..its an amazing thing to face..and i am really looking forward to that..so pls dear god..iv given my best shot and have put my strength and faith in everything i did during O's,give me the blessings in order for me to pass..PLS!amin!

Love,
HannahBanana

fruits

2008-01-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

One day in the forest, 3 guys were just hiking along a trail when all of a sudden,a huge pack of indians attacked them and knocked them out.When they woke up, they were at the leader of the tribe's throne.The chief then said "All of your lives may be spared if you can find ten of one fruit and bring them back to me."

So after a while the first man returned with 10 apples.The cheif then ordered him to stick all ten of them up his butt without making any expression at all on his face.He had a little bit of trouble with the first one and started crying while trying to put the next one in.He was soon killed.

Later, the next guy came in with 10 grapes.The cheif soon ordered him to do the same as the first guy.After to the 9th grape, the man started laughing so hard for no apperant reason, and was killed.

The first two guys soon met in heaven and the first guy ask the second,"Why did you start laughing? You only needed one more grape and you'd have gotten away!"

The second guy answered while still laughing,"I couldn't help it. I saw the third guy walking in with pineapples."

work

2008-01-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

Phewww..been a long time since i last posted..
well thats due to my crazy work schedule..its been pretty hectic!!
obviously,today is my off day..still feelin tired..
but thank god im workin with nice people..especially jolyn..my good friend and also ifa!!!!!
weeee...thats a load off..i love workin with them,thou i can get really stressed,
they lighten it!!thanks women!i love u for that.

oh incase u guys been wondering where im workin,to my bffs and other friends:
im currently workin at Orchard,Forum shopping mall Paint 8 level 3..come visit some time!
well basically my work is to handle customers,its a kids clothing line..kinda laid back at times but theres other times when i get really busy and stressed..however,so far its been pretty good,besides the boredem casually,others are pretty alright..

I usually read a book when theres no customers..haha..thats how boring i can get sometimes!
well thats abt it..nuthin much to describe..im gonna sleep nowww..tired still!!laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

New year

2008-01-01T21:02:00.000+08:00

Well,what else can i say..HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I hope in this 2008,everything will go on as smooth as Honey!
For people to get good grades,meet new people,get hooked up,get involved,get married,have babies,lose weight,accomplish great stuff,and so on and so forth..

It's gonna be a wonderful year ahead i suppose..they usually say that if u start the year good,then you would have a wonderful sail throughout..i hope its gonna be true..haha..well as for me,i started 2008 by having to taste my first sip of alcohol..haha..how weird..i never thought i'd do sucha thing..but oh well..nuthing harmful in having to try something new and well,interesting ey.

I guess i pretty much ended 2007 quite well and nice..nuthin bad or foul abt it..its good there wasnt any bad memories to end the year..its all just good and pleasant..me and my family actually had family dinner at a restaurant and then as typical as any family would do after that was we sat down and sipped down coffee until midnight..it was nice..took silly pictures,chat and stuff..my dad did somethin really cool..he bought me the perfume iv always wanted!!VERSACE!!ahhhhhhh...

That afternoon,i actually had my first experience in bowling..and guess what?I SURPRISINGLY WON OVER THE REST OF THEM!sorry dudes..!bowling was fun..we were actually suppose to go boulder gym..but wtf it closed on new years eve!!sad shit!i was already so enthu and semangat to go..boohoo..anyways we actually had quite alot of fun..zubaidah was there too!missed her so pretty much!!

Anyhoos,im sure most of us have our own resolution for the new year?as for me,i would like to lose alil weight,exercise as much to have my tummy flat and gain abs..i would like to be a better person,help others within my abilities,make the people around me proud and happy,lose my bad perceptions towards relationships(apparently iv been in such bad and messy relationships in the past),meet new interesting people,get hooked?bleah!i swear i don't know abt that!

All i wanna be in 2008 is a HAPPY GIRL!!i guess that'll make others happy too eyy?haha..alright,awesome.....until then!

Have a merry and happy new year in 2008!!PEACE!

Love,
HannahBanana

saturday night out

2007-12-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

And when finally our families gather around for a dinner reunion,chaotic dramatic moments are never missed..how simply i love that atmosphere we had yesterday at Seoul Garden,when theres too much food,there can never be enough to talk abt old times..the food was unconditionally glorious.i loved the satay..mymy!phew!i was too excited to eat that i burnt my finger at the burning pot..how "*&^* up" can i get..?!!lol!

Anyways,the dinner was overall fun fun..not all of my family members came thou..some were out of town..but still it was merry!well the reason theres this celebration was uncle and aunty had their 12th anniversary,which my uncle claimed that this is their 12 persevering years,god damn right!way to go..and so we got them a very special present..my mum insisted on buying them bed covers..jeez!what does she expect?make love on it?hah!ok lets end that topic..

We took pictures..but i cant upload it yet..i havent receive any from Andy..after the dinner last night,we went to chill with starbucks..i would never buy chocolate cream chip again..it made my tummy damn bloated and made me feel like puking..however,i thank kak Nadia for the treat..oh and i cant wait for the baby arrival..im happy for my cousins; Didi,Kak Nadia..i wonder how he'll look like..hmmm meaning,im gonna be an AUNTY..goodness!me turning an aunty?..a young and gorgeous aunty perhaps?lol..righty..too much credit hannah..NOT GOOD!

Hopefully there'll be another family gathering soon..when?i wouldnt know..

So far i havent met any of my BFF since last week..not even on christmas..i hope soon!!

we havent even swap christmas gifts..oh man..SOON!!i miss chels!syafiq!where have u guys been?boohoo..

ok,I'm gonna go shower now......weeehheee..laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

jwt pics

2007-12-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

JWT TREATS

MEMORIES

My darling kaitlin

Roisin,baby n charlotte

its just me dreaming!

teacher kaitlin

funny patrick

handsome u!

Pretty women

darlings!

Charrrr,chubby!

sweet isnt it!

oh man!help me!

hey u,give that back to me!

aha!

paige n kait!

awww...

smile for me james!

chubby-much!

yo!

What with their eyes?

Thats betta!

I was wondering when to go home..lol!

Trampolin!!!

Make us to be kids again

Bleah!!!

Charlotte!

ahhh..how sweet

Crazy trainers

Weeee..

Patrick n Nick

Aryan!

The sweet sweet bunch!

The all-time princess

The angel indisguise

Its love!

They'll grow up to be beautiful angels

The most memorable kids

James was strangling me!

ohhh..isnt she pretty!i mean the kid.

JWT n merry xmas

2007-12-24T19:45:00.001+08:00

Hey ho!

First of all,i would like to wish a very merry christmas to all of the people out there.my friends n family.

And i know i havent been blogging much lately,cuz apparently iv been working for 2 straight weeks,and now im finally free again..stress n work free..so weeeeeee...haha,iv been shopping alot too,but most of them i spent on my family and friends,mostly presents and treats..im kind i know..haha..nahh,i just simply love them!

JWT(my workplace) has taught me alot of things..its patience,understanding!the kids have made me realise how much i love working in such an environment..it builds my inner character as a loving and caring mother..i never thought that i can connect with children and bond with them so well.i feel like i can be a good mother when i finally become one.haha..still too early to predict?yeah well..i can just feel n taste it.

I miss the kids at the gym.they're such cute adorable bunch...i really really miss kaitlin,charlotte,patrick,olivia,miji,james..they're all lovable..wish i can see them again..unfortunately!!oh well...now that work has ended and theres nothing left to be busy abt..im left with chillin out..go out,shop,slack,movie,party..etc.

Christmas is here and all i wanna do is spend time with family n friends..give n take presents!!!awesome things to do!weeeeeeeeee............not forgetting the food n drinks!!!!!oh what a treat!

Oh aunt's n uncles's formal anniversary reception's comin up too...awesome!!i gotta pick stuff to wear................!!

Gotta bounce now!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

HOPE U GUYS HAVE

A LOTTA FUN THIS SEASON...

Love,

HannahBanana

spending time with BFF

2007-12-08T23:37:00.001+08:00

Today in the morning,dad dragged us out of bed to dine out..since mum didnt cook..we had Thai cuisine today..awesome!!!i couldnt finish mine thou...and so my rubbish-truck brother finished it all..thank god or it would have been wasted...and then syafiq called to ask out..

Before that,me n dad grabbed some donuts..my dad is crazy abt donuts...im startin to get irked upon donuts..like im sick of it..haha..its nice but after awhile it gets sickening..kk and so i met chels n syafiq at the busstop..Bff's day out..we hit town..went starbucks but it was too damn packed and so we decided to go to Spinelli's(or however its spelled)..the drinks n cakes there taste awesome..should go there again..the lemon greentea cheesecake was superb!!

Chels had to leave early..to meet kal..and so was left with me n syafiq..we wanted to watch movie but upon reaching Cineleisure,we decided to go Bugis instead..haiyaaaaa...i wanted to watch The tattooist so much...mood killer!anyways,so when we reached Bugis..it was like fuckin packed..Bugis street was like wet market..hurrrrr...went around to look for my favoured colour cardigan..but the colour didnt seem to have..how infuriating..!!!!!thanks syafiq,for bein so patient following me everywhere...haha..

Now that i realise the clothes and other stuff there are cheap,im gonna go there again soon..!!!and find that cardigan...hurrr..oh and the accessories there are fab!shoes there are like superrrrrrr CHEAP..haha im not tryna say that im cheapskate or what but seriously..who doesnt love cheap stuff right!!bleah!weeeee....

And i really cant wait to start work on monday..i hope the kids there are super angels..or i'll torture them!(kidding) haha.....we're goin to the ZOO!horse stable as well!!!how cool is that man..and working with my two bestfriends in the world...whoah!simply love the thought of it!

Bouncing now to rest my super tired legs...been walking the whole day today..so ciao!

Love,
HannahBanana

lil india

2007-12-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

Today was raining like fuck...!!

i'm so hating the weather these days..it keeps pouring n pouring..plans had to be cancelled countless times..but for today,i couldnt care less..i walked out of the house without umbrella despite the heavy pour.

And to make it worst,at the busstop,cars kept speeding like its their father's road,theres like a pool of water at the sides of the road and SPLASH!..there goes my new top..!wet wet wet...hurrrrr...what a day man..could it get any worst than that..stupid cars!not considerate at all..

After it happened,i got so pissed that i climbed up the seat and stood there til the bus came..everyone was looking at me like as thou i was retarded or sumthin!idiot much!get real people,u guys wanna get wet then go aheaddddd...but not meee..

And then i was off to the bank to replace my atm...the funny thing was i had to keep signing the document cuz my signature and the previous didnt match..so i had to repeat and repeat until i got the similar one..what chore.........hurrr...

Today,for the first time i went all the way to little India to get my eyebrows threading done..not bad at all..at least i remember the place..i love my eyebrows now..not too thick,not too thin..cool!but i must say..it fucking hurts..seriously..i was tearing all the way..but thank god the lady was gentle cuz normally when i go there,i'd get that 'rough' lady for service...chelsea,u know what i mean..haha..

And so today,was a sappy wet day..very boring..come on!i wanna see the sun agaiiinnn...boohoo!

Sunny with Love,
HannahBanana

i got JOB

2007-12-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

Finally!!

After what seems so long,i land myself with a job..sumthin which possibly could occupy my time..Thanks to Kal..without him,i don't think i'd find any other job..all the job interviews i went to didnt respond back to me..what joke man..hurrr...but fret not,at least now i know i have a job..patience is a key..i waited n waited n waited n....waited..and finally i have a job..god!!!

And i bet the job is gonna be interesting especially when it involves working with kids..yes! The place is called JWT kids gym or sumthin..and whats spectacular is that i'll be working with my 2 wonderful bestfriends,Syafiq n Chels...what more can i ask..Kal will be there too..so i bet its gonna be a fun ride..its temporary thou..lasts for 2 weeks and then im back to slacking...haha..but oh well..at least im gonna be doing stuff in that 2 weeks...starts nxt monday..

Oh and i cant wait for Christmas..thou i dont celebrate it,i got invited to afew celebrations,parties n etc..its cool..oh and i have to get afew presents..i have no idea what to get thou..hmmm...gotta start shopping as soon as i get my pay cheque..haha..i simply cant wait for Christmas...YES!!!oh and not forgetting the food..!!yumyum..im already sucking on candy cane now..haha..my favourite..

And all this time,i just realised how time can really fly..in a blink of an eye..its reaching the end of year..soon its gonna be new year...how cool..finally we'll all be leaving 2007..and its 2008!!mymy..how fast is that.im sure as hell we'll be going for count down celebration..that im not gonna miss..im so gonna parttyyy...cant wait!

Well im gonna continue sucking my candy cane now..Laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

Babies

2007-12-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

Well have you ever been puked at recently?

If ever,tell me about it......haha...well the thing is i was lookin after 4 rascals today...oops i mean 4 very young decent kids...haha..they are vverrryyy 'decent'...HAHA...okok i shall stop being mean now..truth is,they are lovely kids actually..different ranges of age..from a tiny pute of 6 months old to as old as 5..2 girls n 2 boys..theres 1 who almost made me vomit blood...a 1 yr old..her name's Putri..i call her 'poot poot'...haha..cuz simply she's too adorable to be called her real name..i tell u,she's a pain in the &^*..haha..yes she is..she cries for nuthin..she gets irritated for nuthin as well..she wants personal attention..she wants what she wants and irritate the fuck out of me when she's annoyed..im not tryna be mean but simply she is!

However,i love all 4 kids..i especially love Aidil,he's sucha sweetheart..when my older cousin laughed at him for wearing a girl's sleeve top today(my other cousin's),he cried..and asked me to beat my cousin,Andy..haha..and so i did..i really adore the kids' cuteness..the feeling is nice..yeah i know i sound too motherly but thats how i am,n today Someone told me that i can be a good mother,awww thank you...i get really soft n mellow looking at kids as adorable as my cousins..hmmmm sometimes i wish i can be a kid again..cuz all they do is PLAY,EAT,SLEEP!thats it there is to life man..like u dont care about anythin except that..u knowww??i wanna be happy and do nuthin but play all day long,and at the end of the day u get really tired,u just drink up ur milk and go to sleep!!!goshh how nice life can get right!

Unfortunately,things cant be rewinded..life has to keep moving on whether u like it or not,its like take it or leave it u know...alright back to my babysitting affair..haha..and so today while me and the kids were at the playground playing,quite a few mishaps occured...thank god i handled it with much care and calmness..they're such naughty bunch sometimes luh,never listen to instructions..haha...i got kinda fed-up that i finally scolded one of them..and they stared at me n then out of nowhere started laughing...!!!can u believe them??when adults scold young kids,they're suppose to cry!..come on kids,give me some sense of fierceness in me..CRY luh..i was expecting that...haha but all i received was an air of giggling and laughter..thanks annoying bunch..i appreciate that!haha..drama much!

And can u believe,one of them pooped and his face went totally red,me oblivious to it thought that he was gonna cry or sumthin..but later i found out he smelled like cow dung!then i realised he actually pooped haha...and so off we went home..got cleaned up n stuff (not me,i didnt do the cleaning of shit) *Grins*

And we suddenly felt like having some desserts,so me and Andy went down to get sumthin to eat..and i actually met his gf(sorry,i forgot her name)..finally..she looked really diff from the pics i saw..make up does wonder,i know..but really..and she needs to eat more im tellin u...Andy!bring your gf to macdonald or sumthin..feed her as much..so that she wont turn anorexic..haha..sorry,im mean..eh,seriously..EAT EAT!!speakin abt eating,iv been eating alot lately..without exercising..shits!i needa start hitting the gym soon man...really!uhhh...and im startin to think that im gaining bloody weight..hurhur...thats the thing i hate abt holidays..nono,im not complaining abt anything..its just that i gotta lead healthy..chels,im not anorexic..im average..im average,im cool..haha..i still eat..i ate a tub of chocolate walnut ice cream last night..how fatening is that huh!!jeez!!and today i ate like brownies,chendol,nasi lemak,wanton...hmm what else..many many..lost count..eh im getting hungry now.....

Alrightyy i'll bounce for more ice-cream..laters!

Love,
HannahBanana

2007-11-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

CrushCrushCrush - Paramore

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah,
I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies

CrushCrushCrushCrush,
crush(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies

CrushCrushCrushCrush,
crush(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

wait

2007-11-30T18:32:00.000+08:00

My current mood?

Well let me tell u......

I fucking am despondent....

I hate waiting.

I hate this current feeling of mine.

No matter what i try to do,i'll keep thinkin of the unnecessary.

Hence,i decided to cook today...

Surprisingly,it worked for me...

Though,it wasnt as nice as mum's,i was glad..

Haisss.....i really want that job..

But they're not callin...so what the hell...

I'll just sit around and heck it...

I guess in the mean empty time,i'll just wait around..

Wait for?

Hmmmm...i dunnoe...

Wait for luck to befall on me

Yes,waiting can be excrutiating...

But what to do?

Patience is only i can consume..

"And Now I Let My Dreams Consume Me, But What Am I Dreaming Of?"

love sick

2007-11-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

Well,can u tell if someone whom ur having a close communication system with is silently keeping a feeling,a strong feeling long to be known..but somehow pushing it back,scared being disappointed again,scared being in a devastating crushed situation once more..the feeling is indescribable,at the same time,its sensation to be thinkin abt how ur having that strange but yet adrenalin-rush kind of feeling is exciting..haha i know,like what the hell is hannah thinking,talkin gibberishly abt something no one barely understands half the words she's saying..truth is i have someone currently going back n fro in my mind..someone in the past,evolving back into the present,perhaps into the future too..but i wouldnt know if this is just temporary or for long..

See the thing with me is,i tend to be emotional,confused,painly annoying when it comes to the matters of the 'heart',a pessimist in this wise..so i guess this is partly why it is hard for me to easily fall 'in love'..righty..i'm just simply saying that its not easy for me,neither for 'him' (anywho)..i guess when i wanna be emotionally involved with someone,there has to be commitment n mutuality..something very special possessed between us two..perhaps all those while,when i had 'someone',i wasnt really lookin at it deep,not far-looking,not going anywhere i guess..nothing significant abt it,nothing to look forward to..i guess i wasnt really ready or serious abt anything other than my books..hmm perhaps i just dont know how to juggle things altogether at the same ultimate time..making everything fumblingly ridiculous,hilarious,and all the rest of the 'ous' anyone could find in the dictionary..

Its funny how after i analyse and theoretically put everything in words abt how i feel,in the midst and in all throughout this time,'he' constantly keeps sitting on my dazing mind..weird..but oh well..that shows how....uhh...wierd feelings can turn out to be sometimes..at times...alright maybe all the time i suppose..hmmm...feelings are meant to be kept?told?revealed?whatever..i cannot fathom what im blabbering about myself..so go figure what iv been blabbering abt..dont bother asking me,cuz i wont tell..weeee..laters!

Who's the 'he'?

Go figure..

Love,
HannahBanana

Chalet

2007-11-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hellluuuu....

i'm finally back from chalet..for 3 straight looooonnnnng days..when i say lonnnngggg..i mean looooonnnnnngggg....the reason?haha..well the chalet wasnt what i was expecting..i thought its gonna be whole lotta fun..as in very fun especially with classmates n all..but it turned out to be plainly boring..all we did was just some simple stuff like eat,sight see and ROC(relak-one-corner) a new word i learnt from wei bin..haha..funny..anyways yeah i did nuthin but that..couldnt swim cuz i didnt bring any swimming costume..stupid right..hurhur..we also played uno..a silly game but yeah i guess thats the most thing which filled up my time during the chalet..haha..fun game i should say but apparently none found it fun at all..haha..i shouldnt mention names now,should i?weeee...

On top of that,we also went to scary places at night..places which i hadnt been before..first night was Redhouse..n the second was OCH-old changi hospital..it was a freaky place but i didnt feel anything heavy or uneasy..just normal thou there were times they made it sound scary..haha..but i felt perfectly fine..were there really ghost?i really wonder ya know..credits to wei bin..he brought us to those places..if it wasnt for him,i dont think my chalet experience would be the least exciting..oh well!what to do right,most of them left early and not spontaneous or sporting enough to stay for full 3 days..sick asses..losers..sucker blurgh..etc etc..hurhur..they should know who they are...

Also,the bbq was quite disasterous..had to go shopping for the stuff and had to be bloody budget..i couldnt fork out much money cuz apparently my atm card was stalled,i dunnoe what happened,how come i forgot my password..wtf!but ATLEAST,i contributed thou not much..unlike some..but forget it..it wasnt their fault anyway..and its over so lets just simply let bygone be bygone..haha...sheesh..a whole lotta drama but in the end the bbq was nice..it rained in the midst of the bbq..crap right..tsk tsk tsk..so my umbrella was a true saviour..haha..thanks to me,the chicken was safe..hehe..and oh did i ever mention that bbq-ed marshmellow is NICE!!melts in the mouth..i love it but too bad i only managed to eat 3 pathetic pieces..sheeshh..that was first time u know!hurrr....thanks dude! :)

Since it was raining..we decided to go up and chill....n nothin beats uno especially when u win in 3 straight rows..haha..the feeling was marvellous!thanks again!wei bin,u should gain more luck cuz it seemed u didnt have any with me... :( i feel for u.

And then after that,abt 12,we were off to OCH..so much of a cab ride,we had to walk a while before flagging one..boohoo..and the taxi driver was female..she sounded like man luh..sheesh!and she sounded pretty cool thou she's old..she acts like total teenage..my gawd..cool stuff!!and then after walking up n down och,we decided to chill and along the way,we saw freakin bunch of faggots..haha the sight was simply interesting n attention seeking..they looked damn PRETTY luh..and when i say pretty,i mean pretty...they got sexy long slender legs ok..beats me!damn them gays!haha..some looked terribly ugly upclose and some looked pretty..sheesh and thats what i call changi road at 2 am in the morning!

After all that,we got back and after showering n stuff,i couldnt sleep cuz my tummy was kicking a fuss so i decided to stay up n read a book..haha..i know,chalet?book?oookkayyy..but yeah i kept reading all throughout chalet..so can imagine how boring the time i had there..so yeah thats abt it i guess..that morning,while waiting for everyone to wake n checkout,we played a short uno game,yet again...haha..this time i lost alot!fag!oh well..thats the closing of it all..and thats abt it..chalet overall=OK LUH!HURR...

2 nights passed by and i didnt sleep at all so otw back,i slept all the way and upon reaching home at noon,i chucked my bag and plonk myself in bed and snored all the way till the next morning..haha i was really beat..to the point that i was almost dead,truth was i had fever and flue so that explains..i was not used to these kinda not sleeping thing..

I guess this is the end of my chalet experience story,and if there happen to be any reunion again that involves classmates,i dont think i would ever wanna go again!serious..so,ppl,pls count me out next time...but i wonder if there will be any?hmmmm....let that be resolved on its own...

Love n kisses,
HannahBanana

2007-11-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

OCH Trip - Not So Freaky Afterall

more pics

2007-11-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

Hey,ready for some fun?

Me & Syafiq

Hello,guys!

Oh goshh..freak moment

I was in a total daze

I'm gonna miss them so much!

I was nervous!!

Awwww..the baby's so cute!

That's Suzy,the little puppy

Hey Syafiq!

Haha...Goofs!

Me & Chels

Me,Syafiq & Chels

The Cliques

So Proud To Be Graduants

2007-11-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

Our Little Performance

2007-11-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

The Graduants

From left: Syafiq,me,Mdm Laila,Chels and Jolyn

The famous almost retired HOD beloved FNN teacher

I love my nails!HOT!

Yet again...

Thats my get-the-camera-away-from me look!hah!

Thats the BFF in formal

And the BFF sings their hearts out for LOVE

Mdm Lim,a long lost grandma of mine..haha

And that's the tyrant feminista AKA our English Teacher

Grad High Tea

2007-11-15T22:30:00.001+08:00

Alrighty alright..hello again people...

it was Graduation Day today..the high tea was quite awesome considering that i didnt even mess anything during our performance...it was seriously nerve wrecking..when they called out our names to present our piece..whoah..i felt really shaky...but but i managed to pull it off smoothly and chels was fabulouso with the piano..love yuh girl..phew..im glad everythin is over..everyone said we sang really well..we're really pleased when we heard that...thanks again!

I really thought that i would mess our piece..even chels thought that i would.however,i didnt okaayy..i even made my own speech..somehow i felt the speech really strongly..haha..i wanted to cry halfway but i held it down..hehe..smooth one!practically throughout the whole performance my heart was thumping against my chest so violently..i thought the audience could hear..haha..okay thats abit exagerating..but seriously..really a nerve wreck..my hand was shaking and hence i had to occasionally hold the microphone firmly so that my shakiness wouldnt be that obvious..haha..so yeah..the performance was heart-wrenching for me..the last few words which i delivered made me swell with tears but i held it back..i wouldnt wanna be a drama infront of the whole graduants..haha i seriousy love the performance..im glad..

i love the fact that me n chels actually did our first live piece together infront of our badge..credits to chels for the amazing piano-playing..i love everyone today..they looked extremely FAB im tellin u..and we took gazillion of pics..with the teachers and most of our friends..however,i was really upset when i learnt that everyone in 5N didnt come except for ME,Chelsea,Syafiq and Jolyn..HURRR what bunch of unsporting people,dont mean to be rude..but seriously thats how i really felt..n im sure so does the rest felt the same way,cuz the teachers kept asking..not sentimental at all in terms of sentiments wise cuz i was really expecting all my classmates and the rest of 5N to come...but hey,no hard feelings ey..im cool..and though this wasnt a PROM..which seriously what we expected for,high tea overall was a fab..i hope there'll be an allumni gathering next year or in years to come..haha..cool!

Finally,today was the official day for me to be entering Canberra for the last time ever..other than results day that is..hurhur...im so glad..no more nagging from teachers,no more arguments with the security guards or whatever shits!hahaha..its all good..im lovin life so much..

Oh and not to mention we'll be havin ur CLASS CHALET soon!!awesome stuff isnt it!!!weeeeeee...lets party all night long babeh!!haha..it'll be fun im sure..hopefully no nonsence would occur..anyway,today after graduation ended we headed chel's to collect stuff..chelsea was in a rush..so we had to quickly get out,she's off to tita's birthday thing..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TITA..i forgot to wish her..ho man..buuuuut its ok..i was a wreck when i saw her..im sure she wouldnt blame..haha..and then in the evening i hopped to the library to get some interesting books to read..and then met syafiq to cycle..WHOAH...hmmm...

Overall,the day was really really really TIRING!!!!!!like really!!!!my whole body is literally ACHING big time..and not forgetting my swelling fingers..what a doom..oh well..i just realised and reminded that IM NOT ALLOWED TO EAT PRAWNS..but who could blame me u see,i was very hungry and theres nuthin to eat with rice except for sambal prawns..u see..so..haha..i was courageous enough to spill my guts and ate 3 pieces of voluptuous prawns..thanks for the swelling of my fingers in the morning..hummmphh!!

Alrighty now gotta rest my body..ciao people!

Loves,
HannahBanana

Ps: Pictures will be up soon!

graduation its not goodbye

2007-11-09T21:45:00.000+08:00

As We Go On,We Remember All The Times We Had Together

And As Our Lives Change From Whatever, We Will Still Be Friends Forever

As We Go On,We Remember All The Times We Had Together

And As Our Lives Change From Whatever, We Will Still Be Friends Forever

history of my own

2007-11-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah people,O's is over and once again im left with nothin to do..its funny how i kept wishing so hard to be done with O's afew weeks ago..but now when the time to be free finally came stumbling down infront of me,im wasting it away with just simply lazing around at home...theres nuthin much to do..its such a BORE..sheeshh....theres so many things planned out before O's were over and now its just all said than done..hurrrrr...i guess ima figure what to do soon..mum n dad told me not to work..said they can still afford to support me..hah..but thats not the thing..i wanna have fun adventure..some experience out there..out on m own two feet instead on depending on my folks..haiss...i feel so sick being at home all day long..

Hmmm these days..iv been such an emotional brat..i keep thinking bout my friends back in school..we're super close..and now it comes to an end already..the thought of no more school irks me..totally,i wish im in school now..hahaha..i know im silly..but i just cant help it..i cant wait to get out and have FUN with my girl friends..im gonna have this chalet soon..i bet its gonna be a blast..and what more being away from home for complete 3 days..weeeeeeeeee......im so gonna go wild..hah!not to mention for the first time of my life..im gonna make history..history of my own..

Soon i gotta hit the gym..im so gonna turn into a pile of lard soon if i dont hit the gym..i'll look ridiculous..all those studying for O's had barely spared me time to go to the gym..its sickening cuz i kept munching on junks and indulging myself with crappy food..jeez i couldnt believe i actually did that..GYM GYM GYM...soon..soon..flat belly babey!

Anyhoos..about the job thingy..i dont think im gonna find any soon cuz i still wanna chill n enjoy life in the moment..folks are there for me so gotta love them for that..u know what i mean..haha..alrighty..hokay i gotta bounce for a movie or two now..catcha! ;)

Love,
HannahBanana

finally free

2007-11-06T15:46:00.001+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeehoooooooo..........life is certainly picking up right now..no more worries abt whatever things relating studies..im free..like so finally..iv been mugging my ass off all these while..for many months i put my brains on the plate..i squeeze every single energy off my body to work for O's but now...no more such thing..i am so so so so glad...phewww...now i can like sleep all day..wake up whatever time i want..fun fun fun..i hope it would last..i just want everything to be back to where it was suppose to be..like old times..no more sickening books..no more stress abt science or math or when to hand up english homework..they're all finally put to a halt!like finally...i am soooo happy...only god knows how happy i am immediately after the last paper today,i was smilling like a mad person..to know that O level is over..the feeling is tremendously satisfying..relieving..n amazing..

YEAH!so now..all im gonna do is sit back,relax and serenade the moment of joy...the moment of freedom,the moment of peace..oh how i love it!!!soon,there'll be a get together function,high tea..the graduation stuff..thou its very unlike prom..im still going cuz that will be the last time i'll be entering school other than the day we collect our result..so for a sentiment,i need to attend that...and i cant wait for this tiny secret of ours to burst..i really wanna tell my close friends so bad....ok luh maybe a bit..tiny winney bit..its somethin abt GOODBYE!!haha...sorry chelsea dear..i need to spill abit only..abit.hehe..not much..

Alright but i have no idea what to wear for the graduation day..awww man..fret not,theres a thing called shopping....sheesh...i can believe time flew past so fast....the last time i knew was takin N level but today it seems like everything happened in a blink of an eye..and then O level is now over for me..5 years in sch had been amazing..it was like a very long journey...but fun indeed..iv met many true friends..been ups n downs together..its all worth it!im so gonna miss my teachers and friends..bestfriends have been amazing..they're all so kind n gentle..been there when i need a hug or two..its just purely heart warming and today i cried cuz syafiq apparently made us all so sad n touched..he made this very beautiful video for me n chels..its abt our friendship..its just damn...so sad...im really gonna miss them alot..

And also,im gonna miss my classmates..they're already like my family..they're very dearly..especially people like Tabitha,Jolyn,Ain,Riyah,Syafiq,Azmi,Yazid,Cheng teck,Soon liang,Junjie,Afena and even Wei Bin..and the rest whom i am friends with in class..they're cool n nice people..i hope we'll remember one another..friends for life..haha that sounds cheezy but hey its true..i treasure friendships k!

Anyway,i hope anyone from my cohort sec 4/5 who is reading my post,will all turn up for the graduation day along with the high tea...im really sure it'll be a memorable one.. *wink*

Till then..

Love,
HannahBanana

times of need

2007-10-18T15:12:00.000+08:00

There are times to be happy,super cheery,super fun..but there's just times when i feel like laying down and cry,pour out my sadness over myself,just simply be alone..in my room or in the shower with the water running,hoping it can wash away my heavy sorrows..i feel locked up somewere in a world of my own..sometimes life i feel is cruel and cold..because theres no freedom..to do or say and even think when feel like it..the truth is always concealed behind closed doors..while mistakes linger pretentiously and people are too quick to succumb whatever that comes their way,at a glance or just by observing..over-reacting and over-estimating..little did they know the unforseen circumstances over their lack of intelligence and understanding in their actions..i cant make them understand me can i?i cant make them to..its up to them to listen or not..they can push me as far away from them as possible but i know i've made a courageous attempt to stand up for myself and not make them look at me like a fool..

On top of that,I gravitate sensitivity as well but i dun see much coming from the people i love..what more seeking their understanding..iv been goin through shit lately..however,im trying as hard as possible not to let them see how i bleed inside when they say things which are not worth considering..in times like these,O'level examination and stuff..problems n etc,i seek mutual understanding,concern...but too bad..i only have my parents to run to and sometimes sadly they're not there..i can see crystal clear now that i can depend on no one but myself..yes happy times can be sweet with pals and favourite significant ones but in times of need only few can taste my bitterness..sad to say yes in life,we need to learn how to be dependent on ourselves..only then when everythin else all break down upon u,u know you're strong enough to stand alone in the storm on your own.

I especially feel that trust and respect is the key to all friendship..however,i feel that sometimes it just isn't there..thus,i seek for a point and try to fathom what went wrong..the feeling of not being trusted,the feeling of no longer cared,no longer wanna be heard,no longer wanna be inetrested in..it bites right down to the core..bleeds and sips through the veins,making it feel more sore..the feeling is just not right altogether..it hurts my soul!yes its unbearable..i feel like my thoughts have not been spared even for a bit..no matter how im feeling,i guess its alright,...right?cuz probably im immune to it already..keeping it to myself,thinking it wud soon go away?that's what i usually thought..haiss...oh why..just why..??Please,im already down on my knees...

I need to walk away from certain things in life..and yeah iv been sayin that upteenth times already..but sometimes i just couldnt seem to..so sad but its true..

Getting Nothin In Return

What Did I Do To Deserve The Pain Of This Slow Burn?

Sincerely,

Hannah

answer

2007-10-04T16:00:00.000+08:00

"Answer"

When tomorrow seems like it's the last,

i stand up again,pick up fast.

Don't wanna lose to useless hopes,

Don't wanna think i can't cope.

They say life,you can't turn back.

Never regret,just relax.

But how can i be?

There's so much to see

Will i ever be free?

Answer out my questions,

snap me out when i'm feeling down.

No, i can't contain this patience,

how am i suppose to be found?

Just answer,answer me.

The little things i utter,

do you even know the meaning of suffer?

Make it go away,

i can't be okay,i can't say the words.

And you said i need to move forward,

take my time,just relax.
But how can i be?
There's so much to see
Will i ever be free?

Answer me..

Sincerely,

Hannah

Aly & Aj

2007-09-30T03:34:00.000+08:00

ALY & AJ

family

2007-09-30T02:54:00.000+08:00

The family outing today was great fun..Amelia n aidil..they're so adorable..andy,he's sucha heavy ass..he literally sat on top of me in the car..made me whine so much on the way..my cousins are all so adorable..i simply love them..oh and kak nadia's tummy is getting rounder and cuter.haha..its a BOY!!!cant wait to see another baby in the family..its gonna be so much fun..gosh the meal we had was superbly delicious and fulfilling..after a long day of fasting..

i love family gathering..it brings so much joy..from the food to the talking to the great laughter..the atmosphere is an amazing feeling..nuthin beats it..and in the midst of enjoying all the lotsa talkin,mak ojik kept asking me about whether i have a BF..of all the qns..what the toot..haha..MAK OJIK,i do not have a bf..its so obvious right?is it?lol..whatever..but i know her son does have one..shooo..ANDY..ur so gonna be dead..

I love for the fact that my family bond so well with one another..i think so far,the one cousin whom i can trust and open up to is andy..he's sucha joker..and pls..andy and me are like brothers n sisters..theres no way we can ever be together..as in u know what i mean..i mean come on,he's my cousin for god's sakes..his family are like nice people..they're really lovely people..i've known them ever since i was born..

The geylang trip today was alright..did some shopping..i felt so hot..that i didnt realise,i actually grew this tiny pathetic pimple..god dammit!so ugly..yeah yeah typical me to whine right..and so today was nice fun..we were practically out the whole day..i didnt do any studying..but i did my homework earlier on..good enough..english drives me nuts,the hw that is..dammit!

I havent been blogging much..exams are near,concentration n focusing is a must..setting my priorities right..no more bullshittings in whatsoever not..only strictly studying..i gravitate POLY..must!!!!will!!!!soon!!!!yes!!!!!

Alright now,its late..tmrw gotta do more shopping,hence,i need the total rest..so,ciao people!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

the visit

2007-09-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

It's been more than a week now since fasting started..so far so good...except for those tummy cramps iv been havin every afternoon..it kills but oh well..during these times of fasting month..it has brought great meaning to my life..for certain reasons..i just find more peace and serenity..like i learn how to deal things in a more relax way..no pressure.. feelin less tense..i love the feeling..i relate more to god these days..like i can speak to him..i know that sounds ridiculous but somehow i know and i can sense,He's always there guiding me to the right path..

Today,me,my dad and cousin and relatives..we visited our grandparents' graves..we cleaned up the areas..makin it more neat and pretty...thinkin back abt times we had with the losT ones make me feel sore inside..i just hope they're happy up above..rest in peace..haha and the trip today was great hilarious and fun..Andy,ur sucha joker..and can u believe it,he drove his dad's car today..my heart almost popped on the thought of him driving with me in it..gooshhh..and when he really sat at the front driver seat..i almost freaked..he really drove..a 16 year old nut ass drove a camri car!jeez...he's brave..hands down on him..wooooohoo...someday i will too!!

Alright O's is now officially in less than a month..and im here doin nuthin but blogging yet again,lol..hey..everyone deserves a break righht...hurrr...alright im'ma sign out nowww..
OUTZ!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

less complex,only life

2007-09-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

BOOOOOOO!!!!!

TrYnA PeRK THinGS uP ABiT!

Taking things in a

more less complex way..

~!!!!!!!

Always,

HannahBanana

"It's Only Life"

2007-09-18T02:41:00.000+08:00

It's Only Life

Tears are forming in your eyes,

a storm is warning in the skies,

the end of the world it seems,

you bend down and you fall on your knees,

well get back on your feet,

yeah,don't look away,

don't run away,baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith,don't run away,it's only life.

you were always playing hard,

never could let down your guard,you can't win,

if you never give in,to that voice within,

saying pick up your chin, baby let go of it ,

yeah,don't look away, don't run away ,

baby, it's only life.don't lose your faith,

don't run away,baby it's only life.

take your hesitance, and your self defense,

leave them behind, it's only life,

don't be so afraid of facing every day,

just take your time, it's only life,

i'll be your stepping stone, don't be so alone,

just hold on tight,it's only life,

oh..don't look away, don't run away,

baby it's only life,don't lose your faith,

don't run away, baby, it's only life,

it's only life, it's only life,don't look away...

its only life

2007-09-18T02:10:00.000+08:00

Just like my current display song right here in my blog.."IT'S ONLY LIFE"....here i am 2am in the wee cold morning,im blogging..it seems so hard for me to shut my eyes to sleep..i had a rough day today..but i figured its only life..i was so mad at myself for bein such a stupid ass..i couldnt even fix a darn circuit..people thinks its like godamn easy but i tried so hard to fix the electric circuit for the entire 45 mins given..i was struggling so bad that i just gave up in the end..

I looked around to see if everyone had finished..yes they did...and what was i still doing?struggling to get the circuit together..sheeshh...whats so hard abt that electricity circuit..its only a circuit..well let me tell u..i was given a tray of ameter,batteries,rheostat,resistor and whatnots..not fogetting the red/black wires....they were all in a big pile of mess..they look so mygod..messy..i dunnoe what to say..the guy next to me actually finished it in less than half an hr..u tell me how am i not suppose to feel deprived knowin that my other classmates are all done right before me..gosshhh..i felt so doomed..i didnt know what else to do but to just give it up!

The teacher kept walkin around and givin me those stares..feelin utterly annoyed,i simply shot back with a snobbish fucked up face..what else was i suppose to do?smile at her hoping for some merciful compassionate help?are u kidding me?sheeshhh....how retarded..seriously..at that point of time,i felt like im the most retarded and silly person in the whole entire chemistry lab..what more,the room felt so dead..so quiet and creepy..dammit..i hate that feeling..a feeling like i know im so gonna be trapped and drop dead in my very own gravehole..sooo sooo weird....further on,the fans were shut off to prevent it blowing the bunsen burner..hence,my whole body was soaked with my disgusting perspiration..my palms sweaty..knees heavy..practically my whole being was a dread..sadness!

All i could ever think at that moment of time,was to run away from the lab,what i thought was a total nightmare..i cudnt think straight,i lost focus the moment i knew i couldnt make it..the whole exam paper was practially a blank..for phys only that is..thank god theres no problem for my chemistry..or else,i dunnoe what else to do with my life..such nightmare!god god!help!

But oh well,its over and done now..prelims are officially over..i can rest for abit now..after this no more intentions of resting cuz time to get my butt up n study like fuck..yes like fuck..i know i can be quite vulgar at the moment but just bear with it,it will pass..weeehooo....im gonna crash now for the night,till another post..TC!laters! :)

Beat,

HannahBanana

BFF

2007-09-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

My Nature Of Randomness...This Is A Poem I Made Ages Ago For One Of My GirlFriends...The Words May Be Simple But It Means Alot To Me.Haha.Enjoy The Silliness Of This Poem.

-you are as sweet as the honey i mix in my tea

-you are as soft as the silk that wraps around my body

-you heart is as pure as a little baby who's just been born

-your gentleness is as gentle as a swift of wind blown through my hair

-your sparkled eyes are as sparkling as the star thats shown in the dark night

-your words of sayin are as wise as a preacher

-your mood is as chirpy as a happy bird can be

N most of all,your beautiful face is as beautiful as the heaven up above can ever find.

Be strong n may heaven glow a light of hope n peace to your life.

Always remember He is always there for you!

B.F.F One Love,

HannahBanana!

suddenly i see - KT tunstel

2007-09-14T03:44:00.000+08:00

"Suddenly I See"

Her face is a map of the world

Is a map of the world

You can see she's a beautiful girl

She's a beautiful girl

And everything around her is a silver pool of light

The people who surround her feel the benefit of it

It makes you calm

She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see

(Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world

Like walking the world

You can hear she's a beautiful girl

She's a beautiful girl

She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white

Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember

What you heard

She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most

And she's looking at me

I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine

Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower

A big strong tower

She got the power to be

The power to give

The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

the GAME

2007-09-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

The Tag Game.
Sabrina Sulaiman apparently tagged me..

1. (the person who tagged you is) - Sabrina Sulaiman

2. (your relationship with him/her is) - my good friend

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - nice,retarded,sweet,joyous n physically adorable!!

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - she beat me!!!! :(

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - DIAM UH KAU!haha..i dun mind anyway..crazy..

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - yucks..even if im a guy..i wudnt date herrrrr.lol

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - eat lesser babe!

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) - will not mind..haha..im cool luh..i doubt it will happen thou..im too lovable...hehe

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - she ate MY WAFFLE!!!

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - have a nice talk with her

11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - ACTION!

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - sucha byatch!arrogant!

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) - strongwilled,determined,confident

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - hot headed

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - me ofcourse,who else then?hurrrr...

1)Chels
2)Syafiq
3)Jolyn
4)Ain
5)Tab
6)Vigs
7)Sheila
8)Ferza
9)Khairiyah
10)Nadrah

(Who is no.6 having a relationship with?) - no one

(Is no.9 a male or female?) - female

(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) - noooo...she's taken,they're both girls

(What is no.2 studying?) - what i study,he's studying it..

(What kind of music does no.8 like?) - i have no idea..?rock?metal?i wudnt know

(Will you woo no.3?) - yes i willllllllll.....ofcourse..she does it too

(How about no.7?) - nahh...im straight..totally

(Is no.4 single?) - yessss

(What’s the surname of no.5?) - SUBRAMANIAM!!

(What’s the hobby of no.4?) - oggle on boys..haha

(Where is no.2 studying at?) - sch n home i guess

(Say something casual about no.1) - she is my BESTFRIEND..always there for me

(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) - huh?!?!what sortta silly qn is that??hmmm..

(Where does no.9 live?) - sembawang

(What colour does no.4 like?) - hmmmm..black?white?

(Does no.7 like no.2?) - noo..

(Does no.1 have any pets?) - yess..suzie the baby doggie

(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) - guess she IS!

-----People who are tagged!

CHELS

JOLYN

ZUBAIDAH

FERZA

RIYAH

NADRAH

SHEILA

CRISTY

Mr perfect,hello?

2007-09-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

Everybody knows im at the current moment single and unavailable...why am i unavailable?well simply this is because apparently too many guys have been tryin to intrude into my indeliberately miserable life..tell me..why is it miserable?is it because i do it on purpose?or is it just a coincident that my life have been such a dread all year round!why havent i gotten over certain intense things which has happened in my life lately n that im suppose to be sooo through it and moved on?its just been such a freakin heartache just thinkin abt it all over again..i mean why cant i just be HAPPY both inside out..i cant be happy for a second whenever i am happy?do u get it?NO..guess not..well try to!cuz im sick n tired of tryin to make people understand what iv gone through all these times..insane!

I've always been delirious abt so many things but nowadays when it comes to boys..i'll go all dull and blue..like im never interested or whatever..hideous feeling i know but i just cant help it..sucks dont it?sheeshhh....i guess im better off without..better than with?uhhhhhh..totally understandable,and reason because?im soooooo over heartbreak..i dun wanna let it repeat again,not through my eyes..never again..now i sound like MISS KELLY CLARKSON!gosshh...somebody slap me twice and say im gonna find mr.right someway someday..(not now thou!) i'm miss.independant!hurrrrhhh...right hannah right!

Ok so here's the thing...lately theres a few complications...supposed to be but im cool with it..i just need time to understand..why are they wasting their time??not that i mean to break their hearts..but excuse me..im so not your type..underline my words..IM NOT YOUR TYPE..god!why is it so hard..im not talkin abt any particular person..im sayin it in general..u like the girl and the girl dont give it back to u in return frm what u expect,feelings,then MOVE ON!as simple as ABC n D..i think every girl deserves the every respect from a guy..true enough??

---------------------------------------------------------------------->

I need a breather...see i have a friend..he's a guy obviously..he's nice,not handsome,too much smoke in my face,not my kinda guy but totally nice n gentleman,mannered..sweet i must say BUT im just not into him..

NEXT,he is a friend of mine,good looking..tall i suppose..quite charming looking but no sense of humour..he doesnt understand nuts what i say half the time..he'll go yeah uhuh ok!wtf is that?!?!hello,little miss brainy is talkin to a charming dumb dumb??wtf?!?!uhhhh...dweeb much..sometimes i feel like im talkin to a boring dumb sucker bleep!no wonder his ex left him..sheeshh nightmare!!poor guy..burrrrghh...

NEXT,he is another friend of mine..not that cute,not really my kinda guy but funny,gentle and kind..haisss...see what i mean...?

The dude is either chinese,malay or a mix..i feel guilty for lookin at the physical being..but i have eyes..i look at looks too ya know..like every other girl.however i respect every single one of them as the way they really are..if u wanna say im superficial n yaduh yaduh yaduh then go ahead say it but im standing still on my perspectives and principals here.not bein disrespectful or anythin but seriously im open..

Oh and another bugger is my stupid ex..why cant he just freakin leave me alone?move over dimwit...who does he think he is?mr charmer?MR.oh-i-can-get-back-my-exfg-again?MR.oh-im-so-confident?well then fck u!irritant..errghh!irks me!

Last but not the least,he is an ex too..he is really different from all the rest iv dated..he speaks like he knows it all..he's at the same time weird..he's someone whom people dont think we'd be such a match..but is that a sin??he looks at me and thinks of me in a very different way..however,things didnt work out between us,the feeling wasnt right...but we're still talkin at least..thats a friend after a relationship..!hmmmmm...so so...urrghh..nvrm!

My point is..so far all the guys iv gotten to know n dated is so-not-me..i need someone who is secure abt what he does,what he says,what he feels..knows how to touch me in a way i can think or feel that UHAH he is the right one for me..if u know what i mean..but so far there is none..im sure there is gonna be one day..i'll just sit and NOT wait..NOT search but to obseeeeerve...hah!am i right or am i right?!haha..yeah so thats how exactly im thinkin..before sayin or thinkin abt whatever..i'll have to say this; i am not DESPERATE..this is just how i feel at the current moment..thinkin tat every guy coming my way is not meeting my criteria..hurhur..how miserable..but thats OOOKKKAYY..i can live with it until ic found one! :D

HAPPY N NOT WAITING JUST OBSERVING,

HANNAHBANANA

ouch!

2007-09-09T15:17:00.000+08:00

And soo....its been a week now since we last started the holidays..and now its finally gonna be over...haiisss...sad sad..spent my entire holidays watching movie..both at home n cinema..how boring..not forgetting studying...so lame huh!hahahaha...theres nuthin much to talk abt anyway..been feelin so lame lately..haha..lame..my my...

lately i've been having very terrible physical changes...from swollen fingers to swollen foot now..yes yes...hannah been such klutsy ass...but whatever..its not like i want it to happen right..sheesh..ok and soo i have swollen toe now..why?i freakin HIT THE BED FRAME!which apparently happens to be SOLID WOOD..fuck!it hurts like hell...i thought i broke my tiny toe bones...damn!this is just my luck...tmrw is sch day and im goin to sch with a pair of slippers..sheeshh..how bad can this turn out..sucks man....hurhur!!! :(

Now my toe is as BLUE as the sky can be..blue black luhhh...hurhur.....and its not straight in place..its slunting to the side..omg!!!!!im so gonna look like a handicap dweeb...ahhaaaaaaa...but whatever..thank god its only my tiny toe n not my fingers..or i'd be bonkers by now..exams are around the corner n i cant possibly afford to have slunted fingers or worst,broken fingers..hoho..sucks much!!!

I'm so gonna study FNN soon...tmrw's exam..n i havent even started revision!!weeeeee...slacker alert!but whatever..laters!

SWOLLEN,

HANNAHBANANA

old mATE

2007-09-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

I seriously cannot believe i just happened to find an old classmate from HUAMIN PRIMARY..he's none other than Rafiq..he was my classmate of 3A3!!!!my partner in class..i swear to god,we used to sit next to each other!!!..i still remember..omg....i wish this happens more with my other old friends..i wish to see them again.....gooshhh..its been many yearssss...donkey of years..amazing how i can get to know them again..besides sheila,i have none other old primary sch friends from huamin primary..they're all GONE leading their own lives..hurhur...sad...

Lets see..from primary 3 till now is about from 1999-2007; 8-9 years?GOSHHH...about close to a decade..mymy..time flies by so quickly..all grown up...hahaha i talk like as if im an old granny..fact is im really shocked..lol!!!great feeling....i know i sound twits but totally yeah..indeed i am..glad.. =)

HANGOUT PIC

2007-09-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

~THE HANGOUT @

MAC`D~

study mug mug

2007-09-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

Today was nuthin much.....somethin happened and hence,i was late..suppose to meet the rest at 2 but ended up meeting them at 3 plus plus..so sorry...i almost fell asleep at home..but with riyah around,i got to keep myself awake..hurhur..studied for awhile..and ate..studied..and ate..studied and ate...basically that was how i spent my time at MAC today..the two dudes went off to catch a movie and was left with me n riyah..studied quite much but after that,we felt restless..hence,we just talk abt some things..it was nice..

Riyah joked abt alot of things..i could relate to her..understand her problems and stuff like that..we simply crapped alot there..haha...funny funny....we left at abt 7 plus..went home and washed up..then crashed on my comfy couch..dinner was super healthy tonight..brown rice!!!!!hahaha..my favourite..and now finally im here notting down all the details..

I've nuthin much to say actually...had this major stomach cramp n headache btw..sheeshhh!!!

No worries,recovering thou! =)
gtg,laters!

HANNAHBANANA

out for a breather

2007-09-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

GOOFING @ TOYS 'R' US!

Hokaayyy....today was a long dayyyy...practically went around town..accompanied dearest syafiq to find his oh so beloved MP4 at suntect city convention hall,the place was total coolness!!...some IT SHOW or sumthin..we finally got the MP4..he's so lucky it wasnt sold out yet when we arrived to get it..so happy when he finally got it..goshh the place was super uber packed with many many IT freaks...syafiq was super loaded today luh..haha..i thought he was such an ASS for bringing me to such IT place when im freakin broke..hurhur!oh so sad..but oh well..chill hannah..theres another greener day for u!weeeeee....

After getting the MP4,we headed to some place to chill while waiting for ain n jolyn,then we felt really restless..thanks to the 2 girls..we decided to walk around..went to get a t-shirt with syafiq..his trademark..S!---stands for ofcourse his initial S-yafiq!lol..lame..but thats what makes him special to everyone..lol...he was so fickel at the shop..HANNAH WHICH ONE UH?WHITE OR BLACK?BLACK IS NICE,I LIKE THE BLACK ONE!!!but i said white is nicer,suits him...errgghhh...he's super fickle...lol!i sat there waited for him like a moron..he can shop like a girl u know!seriously....finally,he decided to get the WHITE one...UHHH THANK GOD..lol..my head was already spinning by then cuz the music in the shop was super blasting into my ears..which stupid idiot go n switch on music until the whole shopping centre could actually hear???????sucks!we got up to TOYS R US..weeee..my old time favourite place to go..when i was young,i always go there to shop for nuthin but TOYS..hehe..but now when we got there,we only played THERE N THEN..hurhur..sad..but i felt super happy n fun for a whole 15 mins..weeee...!!

The after that...we headed dhoby ghaut to meet the girls....hahaha...i didnt know plaza singapura is that big until jolyn didnt even know where HSBC bank is...hurhur...we finally met thou...we saw a concert..HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL that is..some dance competition goin on..so cool..but most of them didnt know nuts to dance..what bunch..hurrrh..anyhooss...and so we decided to head on to grab sumthin to eat..for a long time in years,i finally had BIG MAC..cuz i was so hungry that i could eat a COW...hehe..yeah...big mac was awesome..the girls were awesome..when we're done with eating..we were really biting boredem..hence,we were talkin bout the places we havent been to..i suddenly got this random idea of goin to VIVO..and so..we headed down to VIVO..while we were there..we didnt do anythin much except for the walkin up n down to n fro..just buying time..we went to the garden..which apparently happened to be my first time there..quite fun looking at the waters..coolness..children running around,bathing in the waters like their father's place..hahaha..we even disturbed the children..lol..we're evil..but jolyn is even more than that!

hahahahahah....ok now i know im evil..teehees...hmmm...what more to say...oh hmmm..ntuhin much after that..i had to go off cuz i had to meet my family back in the north..so everyone started to make a move,jolyn n ain alighted at ang mo kio thou..to grab jj's COOKIES at SUBWAY..so MANJA!hurhur..what a good gf jolyn is eyy?n then i was left alone in the train.....so EMO..lol..alighted at woodlands to have dinner with my beloveds..they're super noisy..i gotta admit..i feel like an ass goin around shopping with 3 bunch of guys - my dad n 2 brothers..they practically dragged me around causwaypoint..my elder bro acted like an 8 yr old kid,disturbed the freak out of me..hurhur..so sad to be the only daughter...its times like that when i miss my MUMMY!!!!MUMMY...WHY DO U HAVE TO WORK SO HARD,ur always not around... :(

Hahaha..i gotta booboo now..i mean sleep luhh..haha..tired u know!!laters!

Peace n Love,

HANNAHBANANA

boreddd

2007-09-01T17:39:00.001+08:00

Well well....finally at home again..the whole DAY!

meaning?

total boredem!

bored!

bored!

bored!

Is there any other word to describe my state now..??

NO!

BORED!

BORED!

BORED!

i'm gonna jump down now...lol!

maybe not!

haha.....suppose to study but too lazy and sleepy...

hurhurrrrr.....i wanna go out...!

maybe goin for a jog is a good ideA...yes!jog!

Laters!

-HANNAHBANANA

another typical tired day

2007-08-31T12:49:00.000+08:00

I am really exhausted..exams after exams...this whole stretching week,nothin but mugging n exams..didnt have much time to blog..today is friday,which means HOLIDAYS ARE HEREEEE!weeeeeeeeeeeeee.....but but..i will still need to study for the week's after's papers..darn so tiring..how i wish everything is over by now..O'S are superbly eating me up..my energy is running out...i need to work very very hard..i wanna pass my math n science really badly...iv started growing love for both phys n chem..lets just hope that the love iv grown will translate into hard work and my A's will be on the way as well..weeehooo...

Oh righttt...today after math exam,we had teacher's day celebration...it was alright,performances werent that fantastic but so far it was typically alright..i find them amusing..haha..really!!i laughed my ass off throughout cuz it was pretty entertaining watching them do their stuff on stage..on top of that,heaps of graduates came back...they were looking extremely different and apparently changed alot!!haha...some looked extremely hideous..mymy!oh well..saw lots of old people..old buds..old flings..LOL!did i just say OLD flings?nooooooo...not flings..they're people of my past though..i couldnt be bothered much..cuz to me they dont really matter anymore..MOVED ON..weeeeeeee.......

I saw zubaidah...she's still not changed..haha glad to see that...hahaha she hugged me like never seen me for ages!hahaha...woman woman!she called me her lesbian partner!!!crazy woman!!hahahahha....hope to meet her again..oh i wrote some words of love for the teachers..i hope they'd appreciate it the very least..teehee..sorry teachers,i have no presents or gifts..maybe soon!

I've nuthin more to say except to say that im extremely tired..due to exams n mugging..totally worn out,im gonna sleep till the cows come home,now!!!sooooooo...adeusss...sayonara!

Sleepily,

HANNAHBANANA

exams

2007-08-28T15:27:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh.........EXAMS,EXAMS!i think i did pretty well for my ss yesterday but my handwriting was fckin atrocious..like extremely...i scribbled all the way through like nobody's business...i think it was quite average,wasnt that difficult but im not sure if i can score the paper well..

Today...had english exam..omg...lucky i didnt screw everything up...i couldnt complete my essay!people!my ESSAY u know......i thought i was writing shit...literally shit!!omg...i hope i didnt write anything more nonsense than what i thought i did...jeeeeeeezzzzzz....like fck!!now im really scared that ms wong is gonna scream at me...omg!!!pray hard she wouldnt!!

She literally stood next to me during the paper n watched me write..like for god's sake miss wong...let me have my peace during the exam...i know ur being concern n at the same time apparently KPO but pls...i feel really stressful when u do that...jeez!!!!ur seriously an intimidator!ur the only person in sch who intimidates me like that much hokayyy!

I've studying hard these days...sometimes to come to think of it,i should've started all this long ago before the mid years even started..how dumb can i get right!but oh well..iv finally realised now that i have to start working hard until O levels is over..however,i'm not too LATE for all that now right,am i?tell me it is not?!haisss.....i really wanna pass well..really well..i pray!!!

Gotta nap n then go back to sch for night class..so tiring..tmrw is chem paper 3!omg!!

Scared & Nervous,

HANNAHBANANA

studyy!!!

2007-08-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today was alright..studied my ass off..was left behind by my parents,all alone at home..so decided to join the rest of the gang to study ss at burger king..they're super high n noisy..mymy..but i still love them all the same..so bonded..i was so focused..but kept on being interrupted..haha..people people..

I was feeling happy..for no reason..perhaps becuz im just simply happy these days..even thou exams have been makin me so stressful..at the same time im keeping myself less tensed n try to be as happy as possible..good eyy..??hehe..

I finally realise that life can be less complex without any bull craps..tryna be more chill n relax..take things as it is n be easy about everything..be serious but at the same time be more sensible and take it in a calmer way..it works for me..

I gotta study ss now,tmrw exam!!!weeeeeeee........laters!

Stay Calm,

HANNAHBANANA

Apology

2007-08-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

Lately,i realise things between me n my fellow closed ones havent been smooth..i know we havent been talkin things out..i know partly i am wrong..however,i didnt see all this coming..neither have i ever thought it would turn out this critical..most of my friends should know by now that i treasure friendship more than i treasure anythin else..without them,i dont think i can lead my everyday life sanely..i know sometimes i do or say things without even thinkin..i can be oblivious to so many things around me..hence,i tend to do stupid mistakes which may or may not hurt the ones around me whom i really care for..i regret doin what im not suppose to so thus i always try my best to make up or just simply hoping an apology would at least do some good..iv always thought that our friendship that we've built has brought such significant meaning to my life..

I make mistakes,i know i do..and whenever people say that im wrong,that iv caused sumthin,i never hesitate to admit that i am wrong..seriously..but sometimes,i dont even know what iv done wrong?until uv told me,then only i'd understand why...i can usually sense it whenever things are not right,i'll remain quiet for awhile and when finally i cant take it,i'll eventually say it out..sometimes the hurt i feel inside stops me from doing so..hence,probably u might think i dont giva thing abt it..like im ignorant..fact is im not.iv learnt to take things easily these days..i try to be cool about whatever..with that,i find life to be less complex n less tense..

Yes,im impatient,yes im hotheaded..but after all that..i still understand whats happening..i will wake up from it n try as much as possible to solve whats been bothering..i hate for things to go on n on without giving a damn thing abt it..its like it gets really annoying n frustrating,cant bare to see it deteriorate..aside that,it really bugs me like crazy whenever i ask sumthin n the person dont wanna say a darn thing especially when i ask the same question over n over again..in the end,i'll lose all my energy n just back off..i see no point in askin the same old dusty question..i dont take it as a waste of time,its more of using up my effort..also,having someone next to you but feeling as if its a shadow..it also makes me feel like as though im invisible,like im not there..like there u are wanting n hoping to say sumthin,yearning that we could at least share a conversation,there u are not wanting to face me..it seriously hurts..like a spear stabbed deep through...

I myself have feelings too..im also human who does sumthin wrong every now n them..i have eyes but sometimes i cannot see the truth,cannot realise that i am doing sumthin which bothers u terribly..until u tell me whatsup then only,i can actually know?yeah so..sometimes i cannot think on my own..yes i am blur i know,i gotta admit..i dont pretend i am but i REALLY am..u should know by now..so gotta TELL ME..cuz its then i'd really know whats happening..

I've cried a river..but no one knows?no one wants to know?do they?no matter,would it eventually solve the problems?i doubt so...but if we talk it out..im sure it will..even though no apology is required at all..i still think it is essential..hence,i already said countless sorry..but still its not required..i pray that things will turn over n start anew..i believe that things can work out..im not saying its gonna be easy but i will try as much as i can..i love u guys whole heartedly..i cant bear to see our long-time friendship gets ruined just by some miscommunication and misunderstanding..i dont think it is that worth it..

One last: I'm sorry

and i dearly treasure u guys..u know who u are.

SINCERELY,

HANNAHBANANA

rain

2007-08-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

I just got back from sch..had chem night class then had math self study..the class was boring but at the same time it was quite fun considering we were slacking throughout..went to the toilet halfway through the class and ended up standing outside just to waste away time..haha..so funny luh people!me n ain didnt have any idea wth mrs yue was teaching,hence..we ended up chatting..i know thats so BAD!sheeshhh....class ended at 7pm n we headed to the nearby shop for some snacks..we were so junky..i felt like a junk for awhile..lol!the whole bag was practically JUNKS!alriight now..forget it....

Then off to sch again to study math,cheng teck SAYANG...lol..he called me that okayy..so weird guy..he requested to play catching..hahaha..but i didnt want to cuz too lazy to run luh..while studying..terrible lightning after lightning..we knew its gonna fckin rain like hell..it sure did..rained cats n elephants..lol!!ms wong wanted to give us a lift but we refused..so weird to be in a teacher's car..haha..thanks but no thanks ms wong..Weeeeee....

Today's usual curriculum class was quite alright..studied alot of chem...darn..funny that i actually paid alot of attention in chem class today...cool huh?!haha..anyways...talkin bout chem,yesterdays science clases were funny...the teacher asked "WHAT GOES THROUGH A TUNGSTEN IN THE LIGHT BULB?" i blurted freakin dumbly.. "GAS!" oh fuck..i felt like a dimwit for a full minute..the whole class practically laughed their asses off..goddamit!the answer was suppose to be freakin ELECTRICITY!!!!NICE GIONG HANNAH!hahaha...i acted like a total bimbo yesterday man..tsk tsk!but whatever!

Super tired today...been feelin lethargic practically like EVERYDAY now..sheesh...i envy those classmates of mine who always dont turn up for class...their PARENTS actually allow them not to go sch huh?!so cool uh...i have to be in sch rain or shine,sick or in health...heh..

Anyways im gonna turn in soon...super tired...gotta go...BYE LOVES!

HANNAHBANANA!

yet another pictures

2007-08-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

MORE PICS!!

ittsss ovvverrrrr!

2007-08-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

Alriiighhttyyy....i am really happy to sayyyy that ENGLISH ORAL IS OVER!!!so,WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!hahaha...im so glad and relieved..im feelin better now that its over...well at least partly..hahaha..so happpyyy...

My nerves were tensed and my whole body almost shook..i felt really nervous and everything..my heart thumped like crazy...my mind went really wild..didnt know what to do,thank god my friends were there to say everything WAS GONNA be fine..PHEW!!thanks chels for the warm hug n encouragement..did help alittle..wahaha..iv been so anxious and scared..couldnt sleep the whole night..was up till 2am..then i realised its late,as sure as hell i was gonna be sleepy..true enough i was..yawning the whole day..i felt stressed..literally..

Finally when we got into the examination hall..the pressure was felt..my palms were sweaty..sheeshhh...terrible feeling but fortunately its all over now..upon reaching the examiners' tables,i felt like as though my feet went numb,knees wobbly and etc..haha silly right?i know but i couldnt help it ya know.....i did my very best..i thought i did pretty well..i assume everything back then during the oral,it went fine and i really hope i scored well...pray hard for that!!things that bothered me about the examiners were;one of them was actually quite ignorant and seemingly impatient ..the other one caught my attention n distracted me abit by showing her cleavage...MY GOD..i almost fell off my freakin chair..hahaha...so funny..i bet the boys were loving it!sheeshhhhh...what a nightmare especially during an examination...pervss...pfffftt!

I just got back from school...i gotta be in sch again later for math class..so tiring but then what to do riighttt...gotta work work work HARD now...play play play HARD later...hahaha..i sound so retarded..crazy hannah...oh well..i have to leave now for class..catcha soon with more updates!

LATERS!

HANNAH BANANA

other pics

2007-08-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

Those Other Pictures

Left Behind..

sick confused

2007-08-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

I have been stress lately about exams and all..scared that i cannot make it...like feelin insecure about my studies n everything..the teachers are constantly giving discouraging remarks..how to succeed like that??haisss......its alright luh...i just pray very hard that i can make this through...hopefully! *pray*

Today was quite okay considering it was raining...and very chilly...i was fasting today..and funny was;i didnt feel hungry at all...perhaps because i didnt have the mood and appetite..i was so busy doing my work..engrossed..i just didnt feel like thinkin or doin anythin else but to concentrate on my work...iv been so pressurized with my life currently..dunnoe what to do..like feelin LOST..very scared,full of axiety..sheeshhh...what's happening..??

My friends' been tellin me to take a chill pill,relax abit but i dunnoe why..been so uptight and tense...even the slightest thing could make me go crazy..like for example; syafiq just now pissed me off alittle..but im not holding anything back...just at that moment of time...being rather sensitive n didnt know what i was thinkin...IM SORRY SYAFIQ..im insane i know!forgive me!

On top of that....i have been having mixed feelings lately..i do not know whether i should cast these crazy feelings away..one after another keep reminding me of the past i had with this apparent SOMEONE...everytime i see him..i dunnoe whether is it LOVE?LIKE?HATE?ASHAMED?WRONGED?i seriously have no idea..its really ridiculous;how many people keep tellin me he still has the same feeling towards me..i try my best to cast those thoughts away but its inevitable..hurhur...i just wanna get OVER...for the first time in a veryyyy long time,today i had this few seconds of eye contact with him...OMG,i tell u...it was so nerve recking..for a split second...i felt like my contact lense was gonna fall out of my eyes...haha..funny funny me!i turned around to look around randomly and there HE was staring straight back at me..omg..!i felt so silly....to smile or not to?hurrrrrr..maybe talk?

I just have mixed feelings..i hope he can get over people like me...i just cannot see myself being in another relationship right now cuz i cannot even handle myself,so how can i handle someone else who has high hopes in me..and if i fail to execute sumthing;i'd end up hurting someone..yet again...so why the chore!i really feel crushed whenever i hurt someone,unintentionally that is..the feeling sucks to the core..if the person feel crushed,i'm tripled of what he's feeling but its just utter fate i have to say..hence,i need to recover fully before even commiting myself again..seriously..i'm really bad at this thing called RELATIONSHIP...or am i??hmmmmphh..

**TOTAL KLUTZ**

Tomorrow is O'level english oral exam,and so im gonna bounce now to get myself ready and prepared..i need to be calm,cool,collected...sooooooooooooo SAYONARA!!

-CONFUSED HANNAH oouuuutsss!!-

LALA

2007-08-19T21:15:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeeee.....i just got back from a study outing with my beloved classmates..its tiring but FUN FUN..went to town for awhile in the afternoon to get my white earpiece at TAKA,the one i've been eyeing for the longest time..wahaha..its damn EXPENSIVE....i almost dropped..but thank god i didnt when i saw the cashier guy at the counter..me n ain thought he was HOT...lol...not being cheeky n all but gotta shout this out...he's seriously HOT..ok done with that..lets move on..hehe..then we headed to the basement of ngee ann city..we got to the food area whereby theres lots of food to choose from..we decided not to buy the doughnut cuz ain freakin saw a sign that says the oil used is of PORK origin...sheeshh...ridiculous...after that we head on to buy BROWNIESSS.....my favourite...n I GOT my favourite flavour peppermint chocolate brownie..

~SHOCKIERS!~

Then we sat down somewhere to wait for the two dudes..Ct n Jj..good they werent late..straight away we headed up towards far east to get soon liang's CHICKEN!!he really love chicken luhh..he took the bloody damn effort to search for the shop that sells his favourite chicken..walked all the way from ngee ann city to far east..to find dunnoe wat chicken also..after that,we decided to meet riyah at northpoint..another long train ride...it was raining hence,everyone felt sleepy and chilly..my girlfriends,ain n jolyn were super cool,they kept me awake by talkin alot of crap along the way in the train..haha!

Hurrrrrrr..........met riyah at LJS and then had early dinner there...oh man...ain dear,i feel sorry for u cuz u didnt satisfy ur crave for pineapple cheese cake...my goodness..wanna complain anot?im complain queen....WANNA?hahaha...anytime also can..WEeeee....!the next time we go there and still no pineapple cheese,WE SUE!hahahaha....okay?deal!

Also,while we were there,i tried tellin jolyn somethin which i know im not supposed to..but i cant help it...eventually i did tell her about it..she wasnt shock at all!were u jolyn??tell me!i told her i was very SILLY..but seriously i am..its crazy..hurhur..now the same old feeling reborn again...oh goshh..heh..

We studied for awhile after dinner..i studied chemistry...n understood abit of CATION N ANION..fuckin complicating...sheeshh...but oh well..gotta still try..blablablablablabla............anywaysss,i love my contact lenses..they're amazing..its nice wearing them...cuz i feel lighter...but abit troublesome..cuz i need to periodically wet it by dripping few drops of that liquid thing,i dunnoe whats it called..lol...but i know its really troublesome especially when i have mascara on..sheeshh..smudges everything..my eyes' art would be ruined..but oh well..alittle dapping will do magic...weeee...im not bein difficult at all!

Hokkayyyy....after those studying......n blablabla..we headed home..too tired i guess..tmrw is school dayyyyyyyyyy.........ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........so lazyyyyyyyyyy..........tuesday is O'LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL EXAM....im so nervous...scared...terrified...horrified....what more??hurhurhur....somebody hold me.......im so freakin scared...!!

Anyhoooss...i will sign out now before i do more whinning...CIAO!

--HANNAHBANANA OUT--

jojo lyric

2007-08-19T02:22:00.000+08:00

"Do Whatcha Gotta Do"

It's been a minute since you left me

Out here on my own

And I'd never felt this empty

Since I been alone

And the silence is louder than any fight we've ever had before

You don't even know

The time for night to turn to morning

Never took this long

And there's nothing to take from me

Cause you're already gone

Bein hurt for a while's how I'll get over you

So keep callin me names, babe

Tell everyone I'm crazy

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

If it's easier to hate me

Then go on have your way babe

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

I can't remember to forget you

Whenever there's another

I accidently just compare you

But they don't measure up

Every mile that I steer

Every song that I hear is a memory of you

Please leave me alone

And no matter what

Please don't regret all the times you

Pretend you don't see me

It's pathetic I try to despise you

Just like you do with me

Love just don't disappear especially when it's true

So keep callin me names, babe

Tell everyone I'm crazy

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

If it's easier to hate me

Then go on have your way babe

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

Sometimes it takes you feel you've died to know you really are alive in here

And I'd trade my soul Just to wake up from

This nightmare they all say is my life now

Baby I don't wanna make it all harder for you

But I love you like crazy if you gotta hate me

Then do what you gotta do

So keep callin me names, babe

Tell everyone I'm crazy

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

If it's easier to hate me

Then go on have your way babe

Do whatcha gotta do

To forget bout me and you

what a day

2007-08-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

Alrightyy...again...im gonna say this..again..although iv been sayin it over and over again this whole week!I AM SERIOUSLY TIRED...sleep has been such a lack..no time for napping anymore unlike previous months...ASP everyday..teachers drivin us up the ROOF..ok ROOF ok,NOT WALL!i repeat...ROOF!its so tiring..been feelin so lethargic..prelims are coming like in a week's time now...n im still not fully prepared..so scarey..how time fly by so quickly..screwed!i just wanna say that..i am really WORRIED..for my O's..i just dont know..im afraid..really!

Today...in the morning..i was almost late but but wasnt!on time..!!ahha,again iv forgotten to wear my TIE..freak!im sucha an old futt,cannot even remember anythin!...and then mrs yue had to ruin my friday morning..the moment we saw her at the parade square...i knew she's gonna screw us inside out..lol!she called us one by one to meet her right after assembly..alrighty fine..and so we met her straight after..with her stoned,annoyed and pissed face..she asked why wasnt i there at the lab..YES!apparently,hannah didnt turn up for chem prac!darn...well dont blame me for that..i wasnt aware of it..rumours had it;there wasnt any..and so i didnt turn up!!

I felt even more sich when she announced that we had to FREAKIN SERVE DETENTION...for 2 bloody pathetic long hours!whoah..then on,i started to throw a fit!i couldnt stand it..its so unreasonable..dammit..!!!but oh well..and on top of that,we still had to do the make-up chem prac after school today...tell me how dumb that was?!mrs yue mrs yue...we also have other classes to attend..id rather attend classes than serving detention..we barely even have TIME!gooshhh........how sick can that be man...im so exhausted..tired..weak..!!!!!!!!!

Aside that,we had math mock exam today...TOTAL SLACK...i did the paper but wasnt good enough...i didnt study...darn..but i managed to do most qns..i hope i wont fail it..hah!tmrw is gonna be math paper 2...8am in the morning..and why the hell am i still up at 12.30am blogging when im suppose to be sleeping considering i have to wake up at 6.30am tmrw!!!!sheeshhhhh....!!!i'm so gonna be dead beat tmrw..

After prac and mock exam..we didnt go for detention...mr james wasnt around hence i guess its a sweet escape..lol!oh yes...during prac..i burnt my finger...so stupid of me to be touching a hot test tube right after it was being heated!!HANNAH;one word!STUPID!

hahahaha...yes i can be one sometimes...but oh well...thats one of my bimbotic moments..and then after that i kept comparing both my index fingers..the burnt one and the other's not..hahaha..no big difference but i still was whinning abt it cuz it freakin hurt luuhhhhh...mrs yue had to interrup me!!sheeshhh...okok!!i get it...u meant to say;SERVE YOU RIGHT,HANNAH!right???coolness...THANKS TEACHER!!!!uhhhhhhhhss...alrightyy..whatever..pass on..

At around 6 today..met ain..accompanied me to collect my contact lenses..hahaha..when we reached..i sat down felt so nervous abt this whole putting on contact lense and stuff...FIRST TIME OK!huahuahua...it took me whole 15 mins to put one pathetic lense in..hahaha..ain was laughin at me throughout..i coudnt take it...so painfullll!!!!!!!!HELPPPP!!!i thought!!!but then after that...i felt so great...cuz i felt as if everything around looked crystal clear...it was a fantastic feeling...i loved it..but my eyes hurt abit...hurhurhur...i bared with it though...

Straight up to mac for dinner..and studied...talked about some girl things..ain is sucha good listener...thats why i love herrr....we did some math qns and then talked and talked...lol!at night,jolyn n jj came...they're so sweet luhhhh..haiss...hahaha!sometimes when i look at them,it brings me back sweet memories of someone,but oh well..destiny has brought us apart now,however i still yearn for him to come back..i envy them..in a good way ofcourse..they look so sweet n adorable together...ahahaha..jj is so demure..jolyn is soo...ummmm..hmmm what uh?thick skinned?lol!!!!hahaha..no luh,perhaps lovely...i reallly hope they can last for as long as time can last..yeapp...sooo....jolyn,just please be patient..cuz patience is a virtue..alrighty babe!loves!!

After we all met at mac,we decided to make a move..so sleepy already..hurhur...and so after some talking along the way back,we parted cuz im livin at the other end and they're living on other end...hence the part!hokkkayyy...im gonna end story telling now cuz im freakingly dead dead dead BEAT!!!!.....boring uh my day?like so draggy ey?huahuahua...just bare with it luh..i know its damn too boring but oh well,dont like reading..just kindly press the red X button!!hehehehe...not trying to be rude uhh...im bein polite here..

And sooooooo i'mmmmmmm goiiiinnnnggggg offffffff...dont miss me now...hehe..i kinda miss someone right now THOUGH but he has no god damn idea abt it cuz probably too busy with proj..?oh well..tata!

TIRED AND SLEEPY,

HANNAHBANANA SIGNING OFF

one love

2007-08-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

__Birthday PICS__

[My Place]

PICSSS

2007-08-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

__THAT'S WHY I LOVE YOU__

bestfriends forever

2007-08-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

Oh well,today has been such a long and draggy day..nuthin was really that great except for the crapping,bitching and joking in class with the two crazy girls;ain&jolyn..we were so seriously noisy the whole time...for the second time this year i was LATE!huahuahua...i did it deliberately..cuz i didnt wanna get to mrs yue's class on time..she is that sickening..no one can stand her..im sorry to say this but it makes me feel this way because she just teaches us in a way that we can barely even understand..so u see now..even 5N2's agree with that..hurhurhurhurhur!!

Alrighty...lets move on...as some of my close friends are worried sick abt the miscommunications between me and chels..i just wanna assure u BABES that we're COOL!i guess this is a period of time whereby we're just simply so tired and frustration level is high,hence probably the lack of communication..i was just confused about the things that's been happening these few days..i was sad,frustrated,angry,upset,disappointed in many different areas..life hasnt been giving me a good time but as far as im feeling,i still put myself in a position whereby im lookin on a brighter field..i keep tellin myself time and again,THIS IS GONNA BE OVER SOON..things happen u see..so i just pray that the terrible things thats been happening will finally be put to a halt..

---A word or Two---

Chelsea Babe:

I want u to know that im here for you,as your bestfriend,as your confidant,a companion...i'll always be There for you no matter how things turn out to be..i wanna reassure u that im a person u can trust,and someone u can just lay out your pain on so that i can try as hard as possible to mend it and make it lighter for you..even for a bit.the burden we have...we'll share and carry it together throughout..im not a stranger..and neither do i treat u as one..we've been stickin on together for a couple of years now..not one thing that we do not share,did we?..so now im askin u to not leave me out whenever u feel sad or whatsover not..the moment u keep yourself silent and feelin dead,thats when i wanna be there and share your pain with you..yes we can be mad and frustrated at a certain point of times but at the end of the day when things cool off,u know u can talk and spill your heart out to me and knowing u have a bestfriend u can turn to..the one u can count on..that's ME.we'll cry the tears together,we'll rant everything out..but we know that we'll laugh it out again in the end..that's why im here for you chelsea darl!you're a great person,and theres no one in this world anythin like you..that's why i LOVE You,bestfriend..there's nuthin in this world we cannot pull through..we're gonna stick together!

THROUGH THICK & THIN

~BESTFRIENDS FOREVER!~

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

party n life

2007-08-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

Lets go back in time....Sundayyy...i had a birthday party...it went out pretty well...i was pretty worn off FOR ME thou...however i still kept putting a smile for every single one of my guests..they're so lovely..i was really glad they spared some time to come for my birthday party..i feel really warm and delighted so to all of those who came...i really appreciate it and big THANK YOU people...my classmates and friends who came..i adore u guys cuz u people made the party lively and i enjoyed the company throughout...people like syafiq,vigs,tab,ain,jolyn,riyah,sabrina,soon liang,cheng teck,junjie all...i seriously feel delighted when u guys turned up at the party..so THANKS!

On top of that,im glad u guys loved the chocolate fudge cake..its yummy i know...no deny on that..hahaha..hehehe..okay..i received a couple of thoughtful presents..haha i love them...so cute and gorgeous..i received lots of chocolates which are my favourite apparently..duh!hahaha..but one present that made me laugh was the night gown...hahahha...was so cute...i shall not mention who gave it to me..lol...certainly not from any GUY!if it is,thats so SICK i tell u...hahaha...i received lotsa many other things,cant be bothered to name them...oh yes...one very sentimental present i received was from my DADDY!he gave me a signature pen..CROSS pen...i was like WHOAHHH thats not some cheapskate pen man....n thats HOT!im never gonna bring it to sch cuz if it gets lost,im so doomed..considering that im such a careless dweeb..lol...

Alrighty...lets move on to MONDAY...the big day for every O'level student who took their MT paper..must be wondering what did i get for the paper??LOL!HMMMM.....urrrrrrr.....what???weeeheee.....i got an A2 baby!!!wahahahahaha....im so lovin life...BUT BUT i still wasnt really satisfied knowin that i was so close to havin an A1!!!sheeshhh....how luh...but oh well..its over now..i can concentrate more on my other subjects...WEEEEEEEEEEE......so glad...FNN is over and now MT is over as well...so close to the END..but yet it feels like its still so far ahead...nvrm...gotta getcha getcha head up high,hannah!!!!after O's,i can sleep all the way!LOL!

KIDDING!!!!!

Hahahaha...im feelin super lunatic...i need to study soon luh thats why...so friggin sien..i mean boring...sheesh...school has been pretty hectic...oral is drawing pretty pretty near so hence,im very anxious and nervous...wonder how am i gonna do well in it...hurhur!!god help me!!!guide me through this tough period of life.........................!

*And i lift my hands and PRAY*

Good news....i finally took out my very guts to get a pair of contact lenses..like sheesh...i was sucha dweeb..at first i changed my mind but then i figured why not try sumthin new as theres always everything for the first time,lol.......finally...friday im gonna collect my contact lenses..WEEEEEEEEEE....i pray i wont screw and destroy or ruin them...hurhur...alrighty now,i gotta bounce...study luh peeps!!huhu!!

LOVE&PEACE

HANNAHBANANA

PICTURES!

2007-08-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

SOME LOVELY

GF - PICTURES

GAZE AT!

what women do

2007-08-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

A long n tiring day i had!

Whoahooo...i am proud to sayyyy...I'M A WOMAN!!hahahahaha...indeed i am...reason because..today for the first time in donkeys of years...i stepped foot in a WET MARKET!!and i had to wake up at 7 am ok...i slept at 1 am the night before!!can u imagine my face?gooshhh...so tired..woke up n showered..while waiting for mum to be ready..i watched tv and when i got to the best part of the show,thats when my mum yelled my name to get going!jeez...cant you be any LOUDER in the morning,mum?!you're soooo a MORNING person...and im soooooo aN AFTERNOON/NIGHT person!hoohayyy...and so we got to the market just in time.

OMG,what a crowd..the first stop was the vegetable section..mymy...my mum really knows how to shop i tell u...yes indeed...she knows how to shop..and when she shops..im the human AKA trolley..no dammit we didnt have any trolley..I AM THE TROLLEY...jezz..hahaha..ok atleast vegetables werent that heavy...the next disaster was the MEAT!goodness...its so heavy that i felt like i was carrying A COW!!!u know lucky my mum was smart enough not to drag me around the market with me carrying all the heavy stuff she bought..she set me aside guarding all the stuff while she went away to buy somemore stuff..smart uh...i was like one GUNDU standing there waiting for her to be done..cool stuff..

Anyway,wondering why were we shopping at the market..cuz she'll be cooking tmrw for the party..and so i was a VICTIM..poor me...but but...i found it as an experience..uhhh a somewhat WET experience...WET MARKET luh!!aiyai aiyai!in the market,i was sweating more than the apek did..lol..it was super warm..but i didnt complain ok..i just kept on putting on a smile..a smile which made some butcher smile back at me!!can u believe it...OMG!that was so not COOL!

UH UH!!

Immediately when my mum got back to the spot where i was left at..she asked, "MACDONALD'S?"

i was like, "HELL YEAH!"

hahahhaha...at that really moment...i thought that was the most amazing thing that my mum could ever said to me...sheesh!

love u for that,mum!

Alrighty..finally when we got home..i did alot of housechores..i felt like i was the chamber maid for the day you know..going room after room..cleanin up their typical mess..the worst mess was my room..so much dust!!!oh yes...before i forget this...i wanna say..i finally hung up the big PHOTO FRAME my friends presented to me FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!looks so beautiful on my wall...so proud of it..weeehee...hahaha..how it got hung up?oh yes..thanks to my lovely DADDY!poor him...had to drill a hole through the wall..it took him 5 short minutes thou..superb superb!!well done dad!

HAH!next i had to PEEL POTATOES!!!awesome one..i sat my butt down on the clean kitchen floor and started peeling...for whole 3 meaningful hours..why is it meaningful???hah..cuz i freakin PEELEd POTATOES OK!!!!u tell me which girl these days actually sit her ass down to peel potatoes??who?hands up!LOL~

Hmmmm....in total today...i had a tiring day but cool fun..I'M SO BEAT thou now!

I gotta turn in early tonight..tmrw is a big day for me and my family..so CIAO people..
Have a good night..peace!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

birthday pictures

2007-08-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

my birthday

2007-08-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

HAHHHHHH....fiinally i can reveal the surprise they had for me...THEY COOKED FOR ME!chelsea did actually...Her baked potatoes were a HIT!and the satay that syafiq's dad presented for me!!whoah...so full man..can u imagine all those waiting...they made me wait like waiting for the sky to turn grey..it was like almost 8:30pm last night..i was still at home..and then i got a call from chels..askin me to come down cuz kal and her's pickin me up...and gooshh her house is like opposite mine..

kal drove like all around SEMBAWANG ok!i was like wondering wats happening..are these people crazy or what..to think that i actually believed them...they were actually in fact BUYING time..so that things would go as planned..and when we finally arrived,i was demanded to stay in the car and not move,kal auto locked the damn car...SMART UH KAL?!?!hurhur...yuh so..when chels arrived again..she BLINDFOLDED me!!!can u believe it..and i hit the wall as i was walkin,THANKS CHELS!!i love u for that man..

Finally when i reach the destination..guess what?i heard alot of whisperings..they were all there i could sense it..i smelled food but i still couldnt see...so then i was unblindfolded..to my freakin shocking surprise..i saw a candle light dinner infront of me...OMG its so super sweet i tell u...tears started swelling in my eyes..i couldnt contain my emotions..i was so happy and at the same time i felt so ovewhelmed...words could not describe the way i was feeling..its just amazing and thoughtful..

There were gorgeous food..theres tuna,potatoes,satay,salad,chocolate pie..the sauce was especially fantastic..boy' i wish i can rewind back time so that i can taste the food again...haha...after the eating and long talks..we took gazillions of pictures...haha..i loved the night..fantastic..oh we also counted down to midnight..and they sang me a birthday song as we were packing up...i was SO SUPER TOUCHED!i cried yes i cried!immediately after they sang me the song,people started callin me..msges after msges to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!so SWEET!

Awww...they are so sweet luh...i love my bunch of friends...even the people whom i do not expect to wish me also did wish me!!!how sweet right...I just wanna say that i really appreciate everything that they have done for me..i really feel thankful from the bottom of my heart...especially these lovable n wonderful people; CHELSEA,SYAFIQ,TABITHA,AIN,JOLYN,KAL..

Thanks for the unforgettable night u guys have laid out for me..its really unexpected..i also received presents which actually cannot be bought elsewhere..which is a framed up pictures of me and my bestfriends..presented by CHELS N SYAFIQ DEAREST..THEY ARE INDEED MY BESTFRIENDS!!thanks to kal too,for the amazing chocolates..i ate it like nobody's business this morning!hahah..and i couldnt thank u guys more..its that amazing...thanks very much people..really really big THANK YOU once again!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

time pass so slowly when ur anticipated

2007-08-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

I'm currently WAITING for time to pass..

its almost 8 now,

but every moment seems to be moving by like super SLOW!

chelsea is still preparing,

and im here all ready to bounce but wat am i doing?

still waiting...

hence,im here BLOGGING...dunnoe what im doing also..

its like im waiting for the sky to turn green or yellow...

whatever...

im talkin bullcrap right now...

oh heck!

YAYYYYY!!!

tmrw is my birthday...

so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

I'M SO EXCITED AND I JUST CANT HIDE IT!!

i know im acting like a retard but its ok

it will pass soon,

as soon as i get my butt out of the house any minute now,

im so gonna find out whatever they all

have been planning for me.

tonight WILL BE the night!

GOD!!!??

Can u like;fast-forward the time?

im dying here..my brain is like clueless!!

boy' im hungry!!

i guess all this waiting has made

me so hungry that i cannot even realise it!

ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

time now is 7:50pm!!

10 more minutes to 8pm!!

so can i go now?

NOOOOOO!!!

hurhurhurhur!!

OH yeah,todays celebration in school,

we took loads of pictures..

as in crazy pictures!!!

the day was filled with FUN n JOY!

watched the teachers-students soccer match!

LIKE super fun and awesome...

MR KHARTI!

YOU ROCK OUR SOCKS!!!!

u GOOOOOO....

Dang,i didnt know u could play soccer really well..

i think he can be the

MAN OF THE MATCH!!

wuahahahhaha....so cool luh!

so proud of my form teacher;mr kharti!

even though he's as cute as a big round bear,

he still looks HOT on the field!

OMG,i hope he doesnt read my blog!

hahaha...

ANYWAYS,im still

WAITING!!!!

why am i waiting!!?why am i waiting!!?

ok,i think i better log off now..

i gotta do my hair,jeez i forgot abt it!!

now im gonna be late..okok!

people,talk later again...

Signing awayyyyy,

HANNAH BANANA

Weeeeee!

2007-08-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

Weeeeeeeee!!haha...hows my new blog??its actually not new,its just the new skin!green!!!!!pheww,took me hours to finish enhancing this blog,preview n preview over n over again..until i got it right...like my new skin?no?yes?leave some remarks..much appreciated!oh time flies..its already 7th of aug!!!!!!tmrw is the eve of my birthday!i can like hardly wait any longer...you know people have been secretly whispering and hiding things from me..i know i shouldnt know but i cant help but to know luhhhhhhhh!!!!i feel so deprived!!!they have something planned up their sleeves..so that makes me wonder like hell!!i hope everything is gonna turn out fine!!

oh pls darlings,i hate to be sabo'ed!soo pls...i dont wanna get wet,smudged,wacked or whatever crazy things that u guys are havin in your mind..i will freak!anyhooss...i just cant wait for tmrw's celebration in school..we're sooo gonna take lotsa pictures...ohhhhh me and my other babes are gonna put on temporary tattoo on our faces!!!fun stuff!!u know the ones with singapore flag and logos on and all..lol!!!!!im so excited...so so psyched!!!

And today,i ate like alot!recess ate 1 whole big meal,then i remembered i brought van houton chocolate..n then we had CHEESECAKE!!!khairiyah's mum is so kind..she made us the cheesecake!!!darn it tasted awesome luh im tellin u!so creamy n oohh lala!melts in the mouth!!home-made cheesecake is the best!!i want somemore!!!!i ate like 2 pieces already!!lol!

Once again, thanks khairiyah, you're my babe!!love love!!

Alright im off now to go for night class...gotta study also right??!!!O's here we come!!!!

Cyah...

Love,
HannahBanana

card for riyah with LOVE

2007-08-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

AWWWW aint that sweet!

And look!!!!!i composed those mesagges!!!
WEEEEEE!also,thanks to jolyn!for the printing work!
WE rock together!!

what a day

2007-08-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

Alrighty,first of all,i loved the start of the day..it was super funny..!!woke up today to get to school!ITS MONDAY!so blue blue!!alrighty...and so we got to school,presented khairiyah with THE gift we got for her last night!it was her birthday yesterday right..we had for her huggy huggy strawberry shortcake!!sooo cute i tell u!unfortunately i didnt manage to snap a pic of it,only the wrapped one though!lol!but its ok!and we made her a special card!its damn hilarious i tell u!its cute thou..i made a beautiful poem for her as well...ahhaha so sweet of me eyy...i especially like the whole pinqian thing..cant remember who came out with that idea uh????i shall figure that..

Anyways,today was fun all the way till reccess!!riyah brought lunchbox!the nasi goreng was nice,but i had a had time digesting it...yes so,we went against the school rule..eating in class!WTH!unfortunately,things happened all at the wrong place and at the wrong time,haissss!!but wth right..had to serve DETENTION!like for the first time in like what 4 years in canberra!?!?!hannah hannah!!but anyways,i couldnt accept for the fact that we had to serve some stupid detention..lol!i felt so angry!i couldnt think of anything else but to break down!tears of anger!

My friends were there to console,thank god!or else..lol!i dunnoe..oh u know..everyone in class today seems to be leaving me out from their circle..they were like literally asking me to sit down n dont be sucha KPO..wahaha...wth right!im sooon to find out...even chels n syafiq!!

Eh people!WHATS HAPPENING LUH??!

Pls SPILL!!!

Oh yeah anyway,newsbreak: my mum got me so upset when she said she's cancelling OFF my party..said that she has to work on my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argghhh!!!!

BUT

no worries..its all good..i have backup u see..lol!i'll be out partying with my GIRLFRIENDS instead!!!ALL NIGHT!!

totally handled!!!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

i love love,dearly love my girlfriends!!they're like gems,gems that cannot be found elsewhere!!

And i also gotta admit,as the months go by,5N1 seems to be drawing closer with one another..the bond is there..thats what i like..i like the 5N1 NOW!!stay that way people!and we're gonna be watching RUSH HOUR 3 together as a class on friday,so cool!so exciting!anyway gotta scram now..loves!

Happy Hannah bouncing OUT!

our day

2007-08-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Aww so lovely!ain,me n jolyn!

another OH SO SWEET!

this is the gift!

so pretty!thanks to jolyn's mum!

Ok so basically this is what we did today;

STUDY AND SHOP!

khairiyah's birthday is today so we decided to get her sumthin special!

lol! everyone was so sweet due to their contribution!

5N1 RULES!

Thanks to jolyn,ain,soon liang,cheng teck and jun jie.

oh thanks to soon liang today for teaching me CHEM!

even thou i only understood like half the time he was teaching!
HAH!but i still got it!

IM TURNING 17!!!!!!!!wooohooo!

2007-08-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

Finally,the weekend is herreeeeeeeeeee people!

ehhh but wth,i still have to continue studying,prelims coming!!!

i cant slack anymore but i still am..ahaha...

school this week had been hectic!

lotsa things happen but i cant be bothered to explain.

oh well.

Anyway,guess what guess what???

Guess luh!!!

hahahahaha!

my BIG day is coming!

still dunnoe what it is?????

come on!

Its my birthday!!!!

teehee.....

At first i wasnt excited abt this whole birthday thing.

until my mum announced to me

that she's having some birthday celebration.

i was like OMG!!!

for the first time in like donkey n monkey of years!

i havent been excited about my birthday

i gotta admit!

but now i am!haha!

Anyways,yuh mini birthday party coming up.

its not at all grand but i still like the idea of it.

my mum is so lovely..

lol,im sucha brat.

i told her to cook all my favourite food.

i told her i want one big square chocolate fudge cake!

i told her i want as many presents from her.

hehehe...she almost fainted!

But HEY!!

you only turn "17" ONCE!

like ONCE in this whole life!

so why waste it!!

treasure it!

BLEAH!

Hereby,

Im cordially inviting my closed ones only!

you know who you are.

Peace,people!

Love,

Hannah Banana