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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

hey there..its me again!!

tomorrow is chels' birthday n i havent get her anythin..man!so sorry hun but im just simply busy n tired..anyhoos i'll think of something alright..well hey iv promised you we'll go out n makan right?hehee..ok thats done..everyone's been busy with muggings,exams next week n time is crucial just waiting to explode..lol!but really yeah!im stressed out myself,lots of things to catch up n revise on..i really hope n pray we'll all pull through this together..fasting month is here n so im seen rather weak n moody so dont ever mind me on that..cuz it cant be helped!lol!right now im tryin my hardest..i dont wanna let anyone down..im just prayin for the best,all iv been doing these days are study,fast,pray,sleep..the cycle goes round..thats life for now..cant wait for n's to be over n cant wait for hari raya which is coming in 4 weeks time..man thats long..ah wells!anyhoos i gtg now,study again what else..i'll c u again soon ok..tata!

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

hey..long time since i made my entry..life suck at times ya know..been mugging my way through..yeah what to do?exams are around the corner and i cant afford to waste time anymore before the start of N's!i just want this to be over with..in three weeks time,all the miseries will be over..oh yeah i cant speak too soon..O's are next year so another misery is on the waiting list..my life is complicating at times,i mean most Of the times..this week is a drag,first day of school in the morning i had a scolding from my english teacher ms wong..she was giving me a piece of her mind..said that i was lazy and effortless?wth?i did most of her work..its not fair when i got the scolding outside n the rest inside who didnt even bother to do her work didnt get a god damn scolding from her..can you imagine the hurt i felt..i cried while she was talkin to me outside the classroom..she mentioned that i have the potential to do well but the effort just isnt there..aaahh..and she repeatedly asked me,"what do you want nur farhannah(my longer name)?what do you want?an A1?A2?B3?B4?C5?C6?what?what do you want?" whoah at that point of time pressure level was critically high!i didnt know what to answer...and again she asked me one more time..finally i said an A1!and she said yes thats it!you should be achieving an A1!the madness ended there..i rushed off to the toilet to wipe off my tears n washed my apple face!sickening man!

also,when im in time of need..i felt no one is there to comfort me except my mum n dad..they're always there but my other friends?where are they?i feel lousy with them not being around me..causes such pain..the feeling of givin up hope..it scares me just the thought of failing..

cant people just understand me for once?i know i'll be very blurr when it comes to so what?big fck bout that?!i think monopoly sUcks!n ya'll understand that! long ridiculous unexplainable n dragful situation..yeah hannah the blurr queen yeah

the only friend i can come running to crying is chelsea..she's always there for me n gives me endless advices n wisdom..she makes me feel strong..n min ur always there to wipe away my tears a shoulder to cry on..zubaidah i know ur sad cuz iv been keepin myself silent all this while but thats becuz im annoyed everytime u ignore me in class n simply leave me..tabitha thanks for comforting me when im down i really appreciate that..syafiq u never fail to make me laugh n a simple word just make me smile..i'd tend to be rather left alone when i'm cranky but still i need ya'll..without you guys i dont think i can survive school..you guys are evrything..n i dont wanna lose this tied on friendship especially chels n syafiq..remember we made the "so mote it be"?that it'll remain in my diary for life..n remember the curse,that i shall not reveal in the blog..i feel blessed having such friends!

i need to do my english hw now..do remember to do it too alright..cyah!oh n chels..HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY FROM ME!I LOVE YOU HEAPS!BIG HUG!
zubaidah: forgive n forget!

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