~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Sunday, September 30, 2007

ALY & AJ

- Pure Bliss... ;

The family outing today was great fun..Amelia n aidil..they're so adorable..andy,he's sucha heavy ass..he literally sat on top of me in the car..made me whine so much on the way..my cousins are all so adorable..i simply love them..oh and kak nadia's tummy is getting rounder and cuter.haha..its a BOY!!!cant wait to see another baby in the family..its gonna be so much fun..gosh the meal we had was superbly delicious and fulfilling..after a long day of fasting..

i love family gathering..it brings so much joy..from the food to the talking to the great laughter..the atmosphere is an amazing feeling..nuthin beats it..and in the midst of enjoying all the lotsa talkin,mak ojik kept asking me about whether i have a BF..of all the qns..what the toot..haha..MAK OJIK,i do not have a bf..its so obvious right?is it?lol..whatever..but i know her son does have one..shooo..ANDY..ur so gonna be dead..

I love for the fact that my family bond so well with one another..i think so far,the one cousin whom i can trust and open up to is andy..he's sucha joker..and pls..andy and me are like brothers n sisters..theres no way we can ever be together..as in u know what i mean..i mean come on,he's my cousin for god's sakes..his family are like nice people..they're really lovely people..i've known them ever since i was born..

The geylang trip today was alright..did some shopping..i felt so hot..that i didnt realise,i actually grew this tiny pathetic pimple..god dammit!so ugly..yeah yeah typical me to whine right..and so today was nice fun..we were practically out the whole day..i didnt do any studying..but i did my homework earlier on..good enough..english drives me nuts,the hw that is..dammit!

I havent been blogging much..exams are near,concentration n focusing is a must..setting my priorities right..no more bullshittings in whatsoever not..only strictly studying..i gravitate POLY..must!!!!will!!!!soon!!!!yes!!!!!

Alright now,its late..tmrw gotta do more shopping,hence,i need the total rest..so,ciao people!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Sunday, September 23, 2007

It's been more than a week now since fasting started..so far so good...except for those tummy cramps iv been havin every afternoon..it kills but oh well..during these times of fasting month..it has brought great meaning to my life..for certain reasons..i just find more peace and serenity..like i learn how to deal things in a more relax way..no pressure.. feelin less tense..i love the feeling..i relate more to god these days..like i can speak to him..i know that sounds ridiculous but somehow i know and i can sense,He's always there guiding me to the right path..

Today,me,my dad and cousin and relatives..we visited our grandparents' graves..we cleaned up the areas..makin it more neat and pretty...thinkin back abt times we had with the losT ones make me feel sore inside..i just hope they're happy up above..rest in peace..haha and the trip today was great hilarious and fun..Andy,ur sucha joker..and can u believe it,he drove his dad's car today..my heart almost popped on the thought of him driving with me in it..gooshhh..and when he really sat at the front driver seat..i almost freaked..he really drove..a 16 year old nut ass drove a camri car!jeez...he's brave..hands down on him..wooooohoo...someday i will too!!

Alright O's is now officially in less than a month..and im here doin nuthin but blogging yet again,lol..hey..everyone deserves a break righht...hurrr...alright im'ma sign out nowww..
OUTZ!

LOVE,

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

IT'S ONLY LIFE!
IT'S ONLY LIFE!

BOOOOOOO!!!!!

TrYnA PeRK THinGS uP ABiT!

Taking things in a

more less complex way..

~!!!!!!!

Always,

HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

It's Only Life

Tears are forming in your eyes,

a storm is warning in the skies,

the end of the world it seems,

you bend down and you fall on your knees,

well get back on your feet,

yeah,don't look away,

don't run away,baby it's only life,

don't lose your faith,don't run away,it's only life.

you were always playing hard,

never could let down your guard,you can't win,

if you never give in,to that voice within,

saying pick up your chin, baby let go of it ,

yeah,don't look away, don't run away ,

baby, it's only life.don't lose your faith,

don't run away,baby it's only life.

take your hesitance, and your self defense,

leave them behind, it's only life,

don't be so afraid of facing every day,

just take your time, it's only life,

i'll be your stepping stone, don't be so alone,

just hold on tight,it's only life,

oh..don't look away, don't run away,

baby it's only life,don't lose your faith,

don't run away, baby, it's only life,

it's only life, it's only life,don't look away...

- Pure Bliss... ;

Just like my current display song right here in my blog.."IT'S ONLY LIFE"....here i am 2am in the wee cold morning,im blogging..it seems so hard for me to shut my eyes to sleep..i had a rough day today..but i figured its only life..i was so mad at myself for bein such a stupid ass..i couldnt even fix a darn circuit..people thinks its like godamn easy but i tried so hard to fix the electric circuit for the entire 45 mins given..i was struggling so bad that i just gave up in the end..

I looked around to see if everyone had finished..yes they did...and what was i still doing?struggling to get the circuit together..sheeshh...whats so hard abt that electricity circuit..its only a circuit..well let me tell u..i was given a tray of ameter,batteries,rheostat,resistor and whatnots..not fogetting the red/black wires....they were all in a big pile of mess..they look so mygod..messy..i dunnoe what to say..the guy next to me actually finished it in less than half an hr..u tell me how am i not suppose to feel deprived knowin that my other classmates are all done right before me..gosshhh..i felt so doomed..i didnt know what else to do but to just give it up!

The teacher kept walkin around and givin me those stares..feelin utterly annoyed,i simply shot back with a snobbish fucked up face..what else was i suppose to do?smile at her hoping for some merciful compassionate help?are u kidding me?sheeshhh....how retarded..seriously..at that point of time,i felt like im the most retarded and silly person in the whole entire chemistry lab..what more,the room felt so dead..so quiet and creepy..dammit..i hate that feeling..a feeling like i know im so gonna be trapped and drop dead in my very own gravehole..sooo sooo weird....further on,the fans were shut off to prevent it blowing the bunsen burner..hence,my whole body was soaked with my disgusting perspiration..my palms sweaty..knees heavy..practically my whole being was a dread..sadness!

All i could ever think at that moment of time,was to run away from the lab,what i thought was a total nightmare..i cudnt think straight,i lost focus the moment i knew i couldnt make it..the whole exam paper was practially a blank..for phys only that is..thank god theres no problem for my chemistry..or else,i dunnoe what else to do with my life..such nightmare!god god!help!

But oh well,its over and done now..prelims are officially over..i can rest for abit now..after this no more intentions of resting cuz time to get my butt up n study like fuck..yes like fuck..i know i can be quite vulgar at the moment but just bear with it,it will pass..weeehooo....im gonna crash now for the night,till another post..TC!laters! :)

Beat,

HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Friday, September 14, 2007

My Nature Of Randomness...This Is A Poem I Made Ages Ago For One Of My GirlFriends...The Words May Be Simple But It Means Alot To Me.Haha.Enjoy The Silliness Of This Poem.

-you are as sweet as the honey i mix in my tea

-you are as soft as the silk that wraps around my body

-you heart is as pure as a little baby who's just been born

-your gentleness is as gentle as a swift of wind blown through my hair

-your sparkled eyes are as sparkling as the star thats shown in the dark night

-your words of sayin are as wise as a preacher

-your mood is as chirpy as a happy bird can be

N most of all,your beautiful face is as beautiful as the heaven up above can ever find.

Be strong n may heaven glow a light of hope n peace to your life.

Always remember He is always there for you!

B.F.F One Love,

HannahBanana!

- Pure Bliss... ;

"Suddenly I See"

Her face is a map of the world

Is a map of the world

You can see she's a beautiful girl

She's a beautiful girl

And everything around her is a silver pool of light

The people who surround her feel the benefit of it

It makes you calm

She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see

(Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world

Like walking the world

You can hear she's a beautiful girl

She's a beautiful girl

She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white

Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember

What you heard

She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most

And she's looking at me

I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine

Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower

A big strong tower

She got the power to be

The power to give

The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

This is what I wanna be

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)

Why the hell it means so much to me

- Pure Bliss... ;

Monday, September 10, 2007

The Tag Game.
Sabrina Sulaiman apparently tagged me..

1. (the person who tagged you is) - Sabrina Sulaiman

2. (your relationship with him/her is) - my good friend

3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - nice,retarded,sweet,joyous n physically adorable!!

4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - she beat me!!!! :(

5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - DIAM UH KAU!haha..i dun mind anyway..crazy..

6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - yucks..even if im a guy..i wudnt date herrrrr.lol

7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - eat lesser babe!

8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) - will not mind..haha..im cool luh..i doubt it will happen thou..im too lovable...hehe

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - she ate MY WAFFLE!!!

10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - have a nice talk with her

11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - ACTION!

12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - sucha byatch!arrogant!

13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is) - strongwilled,determined,confident

14. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - hot headed

15. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - me ofcourse,who else then?hurrrr...

1)Chels
2)Syafiq
3)Jolyn
4)Ain
5)Tab
6)Vigs
7)Sheila
8)Ferza
9)Khairiyah
10)Nadrah

(Who is no.6 having a relationship with?) - no one

(Is no.9 a male or female?) - female

(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) - noooo...she's taken,they're both girls

(What is no.2 studying?) - what i study,he's studying it..

(What kind of music does no.8 like?) - i have no idea..?rock?metal?i wudnt know

(Will you woo no.3?) - yes i willllllllll.....ofcourse..she does it too

(How about no.7?) - nahh...im straight..totally

(Is no.4 single?) - yessss

(What’s the surname of no.5?) - SUBRAMANIAM!!

(What’s the hobby of no.4?) - oggle on boys..haha

(Where is no.2 studying at?) - sch n home i guess

(Say something casual about no.1) - she is my BESTFRIEND..always there for me

(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) - huh?!?!what sortta silly qn is that??hmmm..

(Where does no.9 live?) - sembawang

(What colour does no.4 like?) - hmmmm..black?white?

(Does no.7 like no.2?) - noo..

(Does no.1 have any pets?) - yess..suzie the baby doggie

(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) - guess she IS!

-----People who are tagged!

CHELS

JOLYN

ZUBAIDAH

FERZA

RIYAH

NADRAH

SHEILA

CRISTY

- Pure Bliss... ;

Everybody knows im at the current moment single and unavailable...why am i unavailable?well simply this is because apparently too many guys have been tryin to intrude into my indeliberately miserable life..tell me..why is it miserable?is it because i do it on purpose?or is it just a coincident that my life have been such a dread all year round!why havent i gotten over certain intense things which has happened in my life lately n that im suppose to be sooo through it and moved on?its just been such a freakin heartache just thinkin abt it all over again..i mean why cant i just be HAPPY both inside out..i cant be happy for a second whenever i am happy?do u get it?NO..guess not..well try to!cuz im sick n tired of tryin to make people understand what iv gone through all these times..insane!

I've always been delirious abt so many things but nowadays when it comes to boys..i'll go all dull and blue..like im never interested or whatever..hideous feeling i know but i just cant help it..sucks dont it?sheeshhh....i guess im better off without..better than with?uhhhhhh..totally understandable,and reason because?im soooooo over heartbreak..i dun wanna let it repeat again,not through my eyes..never again..now i sound like MISS KELLY CLARKSON!gosshh...somebody slap me twice and say im gonna find mr.right someway someday..(not now thou!) i'm miss.independant!hurrrrhhh...right hannah right!

Ok so here's the thing...lately theres a few complications...supposed to be but im cool with it..i just need time to understand..why are they wasting their time??not that i mean to break their hearts..but excuse me..im so not your type..underline my words..IM NOT YOUR TYPE..god!why is it so hard..im not talkin abt any particular person..im sayin it in general..u like the girl and the girl dont give it back to u in return frm what u expect,feelings,then MOVE ON!as simple as ABC n D..i think every girl deserves the every respect from a guy..true enough??

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I need a breather...see i have a friend..he's a guy obviously..he's nice,not handsome,too much smoke in my face,not my kinda guy but totally nice n gentleman,mannered..sweet i must say BUT im just not into him..

NEXT,he is a friend of mine,good looking..tall i suppose..quite charming looking but no sense of humour..he doesnt understand nuts what i say half the time..he'll go yeah uhuh ok!wtf is that?!?!hello,little miss brainy is talkin to a charming dumb dumb??wtf?!?!uhhhh...dweeb much..sometimes i feel like im talkin to a boring dumb sucker bleep!no wonder his ex left him..sheeshh nightmare!!poor guy..burrrrghh...

NEXT,he is another friend of mine..not that cute,not really my kinda guy but funny,gentle and kind..haisss...see what i mean...?

The dude is either chinese,malay or a mix..i feel guilty for lookin at the physical being..but i have eyes..i look at looks too ya know..like every other girl.however i respect every single one of them as the way they really are..if u wanna say im superficial n yaduh yaduh yaduh then go ahead say it but im standing still on my perspectives and principals here.not bein disrespectful or anythin but seriously im open..

Oh and another bugger is my stupid ex..why cant he just freakin leave me alone?move over dimwit...who does he think he is?mr charmer?MR.oh-i-can-get-back-my-exfg-again?MR.oh-im-so-confident?well then fck u!irritant..errghh!irks me!

Last but not the least,he is an ex too..he is really different from all the rest iv dated..he speaks like he knows it all..he's at the same time weird..he's someone whom people dont think we'd be such a match..but is that a sin??he looks at me and thinks of me in a very different way..however,things didnt work out between us,the feeling wasnt right...but we're still talkin at least..thats a friend after a relationship..!hmmmmm...so so...urrghh..nvrm!

My point is..so far all the guys iv gotten to know n dated is so-not-me..i need someone who is secure abt what he does,what he says,what he feels..knows how to touch me in a way i can think or feel that UHAH he is the right one for me..if u know what i mean..but so far there is none..im sure there is gonna be one day..i'll just sit and NOT wait..NOT search but to obseeeeerve...hah!am i right or am i right?!haha..yeah so thats how exactly im thinkin..before sayin or thinkin abt whatever..i'll have to say this; i am not DESPERATE..this is just how i feel at the current moment..thinkin tat every guy coming my way is not meeting my criteria..hurhur..how miserable..but thats OOOKKKAYY..i can live with it until ic found one! :D

HAPPY N NOT WAITING JUST OBSERVING,

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Sunday, September 09, 2007

And soo....its been a week now since we last started the holidays..and now its finally gonna be over...haiisss...sad sad..spent my entire holidays watching movie..both at home n cinema..how boring..not forgetting studying...so lame huh!hahahaha...theres nuthin much to talk abt anyway..been feelin so lame lately..haha..lame..my my...

lately i've been having very terrible physical changes...from swollen fingers to swollen foot now..yes yes...hannah been such klutsy ass...but whatever..its not like i want it to happen right..sheesh..ok and soo i have swollen toe now..why?i freakin HIT THE BED FRAME!which apparently happens to be SOLID WOOD..fuck!it hurts like hell...i thought i broke my tiny toe bones...damn!this is just my luck...tmrw is sch day and im goin to sch with a pair of slippers..sheeshh..how bad can this turn out..sucks man....hurhur!!! :(

Now my toe is as BLUE as the sky can be..blue black luhhh...hurhur.....and its not straight in place..its slunting to the side..omg!!!!!im so gonna look like a handicap dweeb...ahhaaaaaaa...but whatever..thank god its only my tiny toe n not my fingers..or i'd be bonkers by now..exams are around the corner n i cant possibly afford to have slunted fingers or worst,broken fingers..hoho..sucks much!!!

I'm so gonna study FNN soon...tmrw's exam..n i havent even started revision!!weeeeee...slacker alert!but whatever..laters!

SWOLLEN,

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

I seriously cannot believe i just happened to find an old classmate from HUAMIN PRIMARY..he's none other than Rafiq..he was my classmate of 3A3!!!!my partner in class..i swear to god,we used to sit next to each other!!!..i still remember..omg....i wish this happens more with my other old friends..i wish to see them again.....gooshhh..its been many yearssss...donkey of years..amazing how i can get to know them again..besides sheila,i have none other old primary sch friends from huamin primary..they're all GONE leading their own lives..hurhur...sad...

Lets see..from primary 3 till now is about from 1999-2007; 8-9 years?GOSHHH...about close to a decade..mymy..time flies by so quickly..all grown up...hahaha i talk like as if im an old granny..fact is im really shocked..lol!!!great feeling....i know i sound twits but totally yeah..indeed i am..glad.. =)

- Pure Bliss... ;

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

~THE HANGOUT @

MAC`D~

- Pure Bliss... ;

Today was nuthin much.....somethin happened and hence,i was late..suppose to meet the rest at 2 but ended up meeting them at 3 plus plus..so sorry...i almost fell asleep at home..but with riyah around,i got to keep myself awake..hurhur..studied for awhile..and ate..studied..and ate..studied and ate...basically that was how i spent my time at MAC today..the two dudes went off to catch a movie and was left with me n riyah..studied quite much but after that,we felt restless..hence,we just talk abt some things..it was nice..

Riyah joked abt alot of things..i could relate to her..understand her problems and stuff like that..we simply crapped alot there..haha...funny funny....we left at abt 7 plus..went home and washed up..then crashed on my comfy couch..dinner was super healthy tonight..brown rice!!!!!hahaha..my favourite..and now finally im here notting down all the details..

I've nuthin much to say actually...had this major stomach cramp n headache btw..sheeshhh!!!

No worries,recovering thou! =)
gtg,laters!

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Monday, September 03, 2007

GOOFING @ TOYS 'R' US!

Hokaayyy....today was a long dayyyy...practically went around town..accompanied dearest syafiq to find his oh so beloved MP4 at suntect city convention hall,the place was total coolness!!...some IT SHOW or sumthin..we finally got the MP4..he's so lucky it wasnt sold out yet when we arrived to get it..so happy when he finally got it..goshh the place was super uber packed with many many IT freaks...syafiq was super loaded today luh..haha..i thought he was such an ASS for bringing me to such IT place when im freakin broke..hurhur!oh so sad..but oh well..chill hannah..theres another greener day for u!weeeeee....

After getting the MP4,we headed to some place to chill while waiting for ain n jolyn,then we felt really restless..thanks to the 2 girls..we decided to walk around..went to get a t-shirt with syafiq..his trademark..S!---stands for ofcourse his initial S-yafiq!lol..lame..but thats what makes him special to everyone..lol...he was so fickel at the shop..HANNAH WHICH ONE UH?WHITE OR BLACK?BLACK IS NICE,I LIKE THE BLACK ONE!!!but i said white is nicer,suits him...errgghhh...he's super fickle...lol!i sat there waited for him like a moron..he can shop like a girl u know!seriously....finally,he decided to get the WHITE one...UHHH THANK GOD..lol..my head was already spinning by then cuz the music in the shop was super blasting into my ears..which stupid idiot go n switch on music until the whole shopping centre could actually hear???????sucks!we got up to TOYS R US..weeee..my old time favourite place to go..when i was young,i always go there to shop for nuthin but TOYS..hehe..but now when we got there,we only played THERE N THEN..hurhur..sad..but i felt super happy n fun for a whole 15 mins..weeee...!!

The after that...we headed dhoby ghaut to meet the girls....hahaha...i didnt know plaza singapura is that big until jolyn didnt even know where HSBC bank is...hurhur...we finally met thou...we saw a concert..HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL that is..some dance competition goin on..so cool..but most of them didnt know nuts to dance..what bunch..hurrrh..anyhooss...and so we decided to head on to grab sumthin to eat..for a long time in years,i finally had BIG MAC..cuz i was so hungry that i could eat a COW...hehe..yeah...big mac was awesome..the girls were awesome..when we're done with eating..we were really biting boredem..hence,we were talkin bout the places we havent been to..i suddenly got this random idea of goin to VIVO..and so..we headed down to VIVO..while we were there..we didnt do anythin much except for the walkin up n down to n fro..just buying time..we went to the garden..which apparently happened to be my first time there..quite fun looking at the waters..coolness..children running around,bathing in the waters like their father's place..hahaha..we even disturbed the children..lol..we're evil..but jolyn is even more than that!

hahahahahah....ok now i know im evil..teehees...hmmm...what more to say...oh hmmm..ntuhin much after that..i had to go off cuz i had to meet my family back in the north..so everyone started to make a move,jolyn n ain alighted at ang mo kio thou..to grab jj's COOKIES at SUBWAY..so MANJA!hurhur..what a good gf jolyn is eyy?n then i was left alone in the train.....so EMO..lol..alighted at woodlands to have dinner with my beloveds..they're super noisy..i gotta admit..i feel like an ass goin around shopping with 3 bunch of guys - my dad n 2 brothers..they practically dragged me around causwaypoint..my elder bro acted like an 8 yr old kid,disturbed the freak out of me..hurhur..so sad to be the only daughter...its times like that when i miss my MUMMY!!!!MUMMY...WHY DO U HAVE TO WORK SO HARD,ur always not around... :(

Hahaha..i gotta booboo now..i mean sleep luhh..haha..tired u know!!laters!

Peace n Love,

HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Well well....finally at home again..the whole DAY!

meaning?

total boredem!

bored!

bored!

bored!

Is there any other word to describe my state now..??

NO!

BORED!

BORED!

BORED!

i'm gonna jump down now...lol!

maybe not!

haha.....suppose to study but too lazy and sleepy...

hurhurrrrr.....i wanna go out...!

maybe goin for a jog is a good ideA...yes!jog!

Laters!

-HANNAHBANANA

- Pure Bliss... ;