~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Friday, November 30, 2007

CrushCrushCrush - Paramore

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah,
I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies

CrushCrushCrushCrush,
crush(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies

CrushCrushCrushCrush,
crush(Two, three, four!)
Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

- Pure Bliss... ;

My current mood?

Well let me tell u......

I fucking am despondent....

I hate waiting.

I hate this current feeling of mine.

No matter what i try to do,i'll keep thinkin of the unnecessary.

Hence,i decided to cook today...

Surprisingly,it worked for me...

Though,it wasnt as nice as mum's,i was glad..

Haisss.....i really want that job..

But they're not callin...so what the hell...

I'll just sit around and heck it...

I guess in the mean empty time,i'll just wait around..

Wait for?

Hmmmm...i dunnoe...

Wait for luck to befall on me

Yes,waiting can be excrutiating...

But what to do?

Patience is only i can consume..

"And Now I Let My Dreams Consume Me, But What Am I Dreaming Of?"

- Pure Bliss... ;

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Well,can u tell if someone whom ur having a close communication system with is silently keeping a feeling,a strong feeling long to be known..but somehow pushing it back,scared being disappointed again,scared being in a devastating crushed situation once more..the feeling is indescribable,at the same time,its sensation to be thinkin abt how ur having that strange but yet adrenalin-rush kind of feeling is exciting..haha i know,like what the hell is hannah thinking,talkin gibberishly abt something no one barely understands half the words she's saying..truth is i have someone currently going back n fro in my mind..someone in the past,evolving back into the present,perhaps into the future too..but i wouldnt know if this is just temporary or for long..

See the thing with me is,i tend to be emotional,confused,painly annoying when it comes to the matters of the 'heart',a pessimist in this wise..so i guess this is partly why it is hard for me to easily fall 'in love'..righty..i'm just simply saying that its not easy for me,neither for 'him' (anywho)..i guess when i wanna be emotionally involved with someone,there has to be commitment n mutuality..something very special possessed between us two..perhaps all those while,when i had 'someone',i wasnt really lookin at it deep,not far-looking,not going anywhere i guess..nothing significant abt it,nothing to look forward to..i guess i wasnt really ready or serious abt anything other than my books..hmm perhaps i just dont know how to juggle things altogether at the same ultimate time..making everything fumblingly ridiculous,hilarious,and all the rest of the 'ous' anyone could find in the dictionary..

Its funny how after i analyse and theoretically put everything in words abt how i feel,in the midst and in all throughout this time,'he' constantly keeps sitting on my dazing mind..weird..but oh well..that shows how....uhh...wierd feelings can turn out to be sometimes..at times...alright maybe all the time i suppose..hmmm...feelings are meant to be kept?told?revealed?whatever..i cannot fathom what im blabbering about myself..so go figure what iv been blabbering abt..dont bother asking me,cuz i wont tell..weeee..laters!

Who's the 'he'?

Go figure..

Love,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Hellluuuu....

i'm finally back from chalet..for 3 straight looooonnnnng days..when i say lonnnngggg..i mean looooonnnnnngggg....the reason?haha..well the chalet wasnt what i was expecting..i thought its gonna be whole lotta fun..as in very fun especially with classmates n all..but it turned out to be plainly boring..all we did was just some simple stuff like eat,sight see and ROC(relak-one-corner) a new word i learnt from wei bin..haha..funny..anyways yeah i did nuthin but that..couldnt swim cuz i didnt bring any swimming costume..stupid right..hurhur..we also played uno..a silly game but yeah i guess thats the most thing which filled up my time during the chalet..haha..fun game i should say but apparently none found it fun at all..haha..i shouldnt mention names now,should i?weeee...

On top of that,we also went to scary places at night..places which i hadnt been before..first night was Redhouse..n the second was OCH-old changi hospital..it was a freaky place but i didnt feel anything heavy or uneasy..just normal thou there were times they made it sound scary..haha..but i felt perfectly fine..were there really ghost?i really wonder ya know..credits to wei bin..he brought us to those places..if it wasnt for him,i dont think my chalet experience would be the least exciting..oh well!what to do right,most of them left early and not spontaneous or sporting enough to stay for full 3 days..sick asses..losers..sucker blurgh..etc etc..hurhur..they should know who they are...

Also,the bbq was quite disasterous..had to go shopping for the stuff and had to be bloody budget..i couldnt fork out much money cuz apparently my atm card was stalled,i dunnoe what happened,how come i forgot my password..wtf!but ATLEAST,i contributed thou not much..unlike some..but forget it..it wasnt their fault anyway..and its over so lets just simply let bygone be bygone..haha...sheesh..a whole lotta drama but in the end the bbq was nice..it rained in the midst of the bbq..crap right..tsk tsk tsk..so my umbrella was a true saviour..haha..thanks to me,the chicken was safe..hehe..and oh did i ever mention that bbq-ed marshmellow is NICE!!melts in the mouth..i love it but too bad i only managed to eat 3 pathetic pieces..sheeshh..that was first time u know!hurrr....thanks dude! :)

Since it was raining..we decided to go up and chill....n nothin beats uno especially when u win in 3 straight rows..haha..the feeling was marvellous!thanks again!wei bin,u should gain more luck cuz it seemed u didnt have any with me... :( i feel for u.

And then after that,abt 12,we were off to OCH..so much of a cab ride,we had to walk a while before flagging one..boohoo..and the taxi driver was female..she sounded like man luh..sheesh!and she sounded pretty cool thou she's old..she acts like total teenage..my gawd..cool stuff!!and then after walking up n down och,we decided to chill and along the way,we saw freakin bunch of faggots..haha the sight was simply interesting n attention seeking..they looked damn PRETTY luh..and when i say pretty,i mean pretty...they got sexy long slender legs ok..beats me!damn them gays!haha..some looked terribly ugly upclose and some looked pretty..sheesh and thats what i call changi road at 2 am in the morning!

After all that,we got back and after showering n stuff,i couldnt sleep cuz my tummy was kicking a fuss so i decided to stay up n read a book..haha..i know,chalet?book?oookkayyy..but yeah i kept reading all throughout chalet..so can imagine how boring the time i had there..so yeah thats abt it i guess..that morning,while waiting for everyone to wake n checkout,we played a short uno game,yet again...haha..this time i lost alot!fag!oh well..thats the closing of it all..and thats abt it..chalet overall=OK LUH!HURR...

2 nights passed by and i didnt sleep at all so otw back,i slept all the way and upon reaching home at noon,i chucked my bag and plonk myself in bed and snored all the way till the next morning..haha i was really beat..to the point that i was almost dead,truth was i had fever and flue so that explains..i was not used to these kinda not sleeping thing..

I guess this is the end of my chalet experience story,and if there happen to be any reunion again that involves classmates,i dont think i would ever wanna go again!serious..so,ppl,pls count me out next time...but i wonder if there will be any?hmmmm....let that be resolved on its own...

Love n kisses,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

OCH Trip - Not So Freaky Afterall

- Pure Bliss... ;

Hey,ready for some fun?

Me & Syafiq

Hello,guys!

Oh goshh..freak moment

I was in a total daze

I'm gonna miss them so much!

I was nervous!!

Awwww..the baby's so cute!

That's Suzy,the little puppy

Hey Syafiq!

Haha...Goofs!

Me & Chels

Me,Syafiq & Chels

The Cliques

So Proud To Be Graduants

- Pure Bliss... ;

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Our Little Performance

- Pure Bliss... ;

The Graduants

From left: Syafiq,me,Mdm Laila,Chels and Jolyn

The famous almost retired HOD beloved FNN teacher

I love my nails!HOT!

Yet again...

Thats my get-the-camera-away-from me look!hah!

Thats the BFF in formal

And the BFF sings their hearts out for LOVE

Mdm Lim,a long lost grandma of mine..haha

And that's the tyrant feminista AKA our English Teacher

- Pure Bliss... ;

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Alrighty alright..hello again people...

it was Graduation Day today..the high tea was quite awesome considering that i didnt even mess anything during our performance...it was seriously nerve wrecking..when they called out our names to present our piece..whoah..i felt really shaky...but but i managed to pull it off smoothly and chels was fabulouso with the piano..love yuh girl..phew..im glad everythin is over..everyone said we sang really well..we're really pleased when we heard that...thanks again!

I really thought that i would mess our piece..even chels thought that i would.however,i didnt okaayy..i even made my own speech..somehow i felt the speech really strongly..haha..i wanted to cry halfway but i held it down..hehe..smooth one!practically throughout the whole performance my heart was thumping against my chest so violently..i thought the audience could hear..haha..okay thats abit exagerating..but seriously..really a nerve wreck..my hand was shaking and hence i had to occasionally hold the microphone firmly so that my shakiness wouldnt be that obvious..haha..so yeah..the performance was heart-wrenching for me..the last few words which i delivered made me swell with tears but i held it back..i wouldnt wanna be a drama infront of the whole graduants..haha i seriousy love the performance..im glad..

i love the fact that me n chels actually did our first live piece together infront of our badge..credits to chels for the amazing piano-playing..i love everyone today..they looked extremely FAB im tellin u..and we took gazillion of pics..with the teachers and most of our friends..however,i was really upset when i learnt that everyone in 5N didnt come except for ME,Chelsea,Syafiq and Jolyn..HURRR what bunch of unsporting people,dont mean to be rude..but seriously thats how i really felt..n im sure so does the rest felt the same way,cuz the teachers kept asking..not sentimental at all in terms of sentiments wise cuz i was really expecting all my classmates and the rest of 5N to come...but hey,no hard feelings ey..im cool..and though this wasnt a PROM..which seriously what we expected for,high tea overall was a fab..i hope there'll be an allumni gathering next year or in years to come..haha..cool!

Finally,today was the official day for me to be entering Canberra for the last time ever..other than results day that is..hurhur...im so glad..no more nagging from teachers,no more arguments with the security guards or whatever shits!hahaha..its all good..im lovin life so much..

Oh and not to mention we'll be havin ur CLASS CHALET soon!!awesome stuff isnt it!!!weeeeeee...lets party all night long babeh!!haha..it'll be fun im sure..hopefully no nonsence would occur..anyway,today after graduation ended we headed chel's to collect stuff..chelsea was in a rush..so we had to quickly get out,she's off to tita's birthday thing..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TITA..i forgot to wish her..ho man..buuuuut its ok..i was a wreck when i saw her..im sure she wouldnt blame..haha..and then in the evening i hopped to the library to get some interesting books to read..and then met syafiq to cycle..WHOAH...hmmm...

Overall,the day was really really really TIRING!!!!!!like really!!!!my whole body is literally ACHING big time..and not forgetting my swelling fingers..what a doom..oh well..i just realised and reminded that IM NOT ALLOWED TO EAT PRAWNS..but who could blame me u see,i was very hungry and theres nuthin to eat with rice except for sambal prawns..u see..so..haha..i was courageous enough to spill my guts and ate 3 pieces of voluptuous prawns..thanks for the swelling of my fingers in the morning..hummmphh!!

Alrighty now gotta rest my body..ciao people!

Loves,
HannahBanana

Ps: Pictures will be up soon!

- Pure Bliss... ;

Friday, November 09, 2007

As We Go On,We Remember All The Times We Had Together

And As Our Lives Change From Whatever, We Will Still Be Friends Forever

As We Go On,We Remember All The Times We Had Together

And As Our Lives Change From Whatever, We Will Still Be Friends Forever

- Pure Bliss... ;

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Yeah people,O's is over and once again im left with nothin to do..its funny how i kept wishing so hard to be done with O's afew weeks ago..but now when the time to be free finally came stumbling down infront of me,im wasting it away with just simply lazing around at home...theres nuthin much to do..its such a BORE..sheeshh....theres so many things planned out before O's were over and now its just all said than done..hurrrrr...i guess ima figure what to do soon..mum n dad told me not to work..said they can still afford to support me..hah..but thats not the thing..i wanna have fun adventure..some experience out there..out on m own two feet instead on depending on my folks..haiss...i feel so sick being at home all day long..

Hmmm these days..iv been such an emotional brat..i keep thinking bout my friends back in school..we're super close..and now it comes to an end already..the thought of no more school irks me..totally,i wish im in school now..hahaha..i know im silly..but i just cant help it..i cant wait to get out and have FUN with my girl friends..im gonna have this chalet soon..i bet its gonna be a blast..and what more being away from home for complete 3 days..weeeeeeeeee......im so gonna go wild..hah!not to mention for the first time of my life..im gonna make history..history of my own..

Soon i gotta hit the gym..im so gonna turn into a pile of lard soon if i dont hit the gym..i'll look ridiculous..all those studying for O's had barely spared me time to go to the gym..its sickening cuz i kept munching on junks and indulging myself with crappy food..jeez i couldnt believe i actually did that..GYM GYM GYM...soon..soon..flat belly babey!

Anyhoos..about the job thingy..i dont think im gonna find any soon cuz i still wanna chill n enjoy life in the moment..folks are there for me so gotta love them for that..u know what i mean..haha..alrighty..hokay i gotta bounce for a movie or two now..catcha! ;)

Love,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Weeeeeeeeeehoooooooo..........life is certainly picking up right now..no more worries abt whatever things relating studies..im free..like so finally..iv been mugging my ass off all these while..for many months i put my brains on the plate..i squeeze every single energy off my body to work for O's but now...no more such thing..i am so so so so glad...phewww...now i can like sleep all day..wake up whatever time i want..fun fun fun..i hope it would last..i just want everything to be back to where it was suppose to be..like old times..no more sickening books..no more stress abt science or math or when to hand up english homework..they're all finally put to a halt!like finally...i am soooo happy...only god knows how happy i am immediately after the last paper today,i was smilling like a mad person..to know that O level is over..the feeling is tremendously satisfying..relieving..n amazing..

YEAH!so now..all im gonna do is sit back,relax and serenade the moment of joy...the moment of freedom,the moment of peace..oh how i love it!!!soon,there'll be a get together function,high tea..the graduation stuff..thou its very unlike prom..im still going cuz that will be the last time i'll be entering school other than the day we collect our result..so for a sentiment,i need to attend that...and i cant wait for this tiny secret of ours to burst..i really wanna tell my close friends so bad....ok luh maybe a bit..tiny winney bit..its somethin abt GOODBYE!!haha...sorry chelsea dear..i need to spill abit only..abit.hehe..not much..

Alright but i have no idea what to wear for the graduation day..awww man..fret not,theres a thing called shopping....sheesh...i can believe time flew past so fast....the last time i knew was takin N level but today it seems like everything happened in a blink of an eye..and then O level is now over for me..5 years in sch had been amazing..it was like a very long journey...but fun indeed..iv met many true friends..been ups n downs together..its all worth it!im so gonna miss my teachers and friends..bestfriends have been amazing..they're all so kind n gentle..been there when i need a hug or two..its just purely heart warming and today i cried cuz syafiq apparently made us all so sad n touched..he made this very beautiful video for me n chels..its abt our friendship..its just damn...so sad...im really gonna miss them alot..

And also,im gonna miss my classmates..they're already like my family..they're very dearly..especially people like Tabitha,Jolyn,Ain,Riyah,Syafiq,Azmi,Yazid,Cheng teck,Soon liang,Junjie,Afena and even Wei Bin..and the rest whom i am friends with in class..they're cool n nice people..i hope we'll remember one another..friends for life..haha that sounds cheezy but hey its true..i treasure friendships k!

Anyway,i hope anyone from my cohort sec 4/5 who is reading my post,will all turn up for the graduation day along with the high tea...im really sure it'll be a memorable one.. *wink*

Till then..

Love,
HannahBanana

- Pure Bliss... ;