"Keep Holding On"

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'

Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'

Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding onKeep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

- Pure Bliss... ;

Alrighty,i just wanna know whats the deal with people of different races,different backgrounds n also most highlighted different religions fallin in love?is it against the world that these things happen without us even knowin them?are the circumstances causing a great impact that eventually they'd go their separate ways and not bothering to understand why it happened.due to these differences,they'd rather go their separate ways than overcoming it n its sad to know,it happens alot these days..afew friends n relatives whom i know had the same confusion.one example is chelsea my bestfriend,she used to date a malay guy which i'd rather not mention.they were together so happilyfor awhile but then as time went,they realised that they're not of the same religion n of different backgrounds n stuff like that..they started thinkin of the future..they couldnt be together!haisss its saddening to know it actually happened.

However,it doesnt usually end that way..my aunt from the aussie she got married to an austalian who is a vietnamese,in the first place he wasnt a muslim but after afew years of hitching up,he eventually converted to our religion.i was surprised cuz it doesnt usually turn out that way..it wasnt easy for him thou.he had to go through many challenges along the way,firstly was from my grandma who rejected him from the start but as they went along,things got better as the differences no longer continued on,infact he was like so used to the family now that he's very much likable by my gramp.the good thing is that he fits in well n he knows how to suit himself with the family.how sweet they are now together. *smiles*

See now it isnt that bad..i still cannot fathom thou.hmmmm....though love is all it takes,we'll still needa think it through just to know that its the right thing.things to consider.this hits me because lately iv been seeing many couples around hand in hand but of diff races n religion.it just made me wonder will they end up being hitched or will they simply give it up after that..oh well its fate which will decide eyy..for now i'll keep on wonder.keep holding on n let the love grow.hey the new song iv put up by avril lavigne..is fab.it means sumthin.so happy listening.

toodles!love love!

- Pure Bliss... ;

Oh dear god,im down with flu!
oh well yeah i was caught in the rain yesterday so i guess these are the symptoms,means im gona fall with fever so0n!!!ahhhh life sucks sometimes..but oh well im still happy now..i dont know why..?hmmmm..perhaps perhaps..haha somethin funny happened today durin FNN!we were suppose to bake a cupcake..it turned out really terrible.me,xinda and tabitha..we were all in the same group.we were named accordingly;A,B and C. so yeah i was the B girl,the main purpose of this whole baking thing is to test out baking powder's functions,requires how much so n so.something like experimenting..n boy' im glad to say the experiment turned out really "WELL" hahahaha...!really well..hmmm yeah we were so unorganized durin the baking,cuz its all over the place and mdm lim wasnt too organized as well,she didnt take out the baking powder for us to add in.actually there wasnt much differences with or without it.oh well!

The funny thing is that the CAKE which was suppose to turn out as CAKE turned out somewhat different,i call it unique!it turned out hard n so we called it BREAD!hahaha even bread is softer..whoa!hahaha xinda threw his cupcake right down in the big bin,as for me i brought it along n tabitha did as well,thought i would give it a try since it looks kinda nice;apparently looks may be deceiving eyy,n so i tried it!it taste really awful,its like really powdery in the inside.i gave jeremy a small tiny winy piece of it..n he was like 'dont ever feed me again'! haha..im such a GREAT baker,aren't i?!cant be helped anyway..lol!alrighty hannah gotta work on it.coursework B is imp!

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- Pure Bliss... ;

Hello my fellow readers,
today its been a pretty long day for me.firstly after school i got soaked cuz we walked in the rain!and then after that went into a toilet,i got stuck there..couldnt turn the lock..i panicked!yeah typical me!haha...eventually i did unlock it!thank god..hahaha..that was close,PHEW!oh i got to know chels got back her old account!how fortunate!happy for u chels!*hugs* anyhoos i dont have much to talk abt today unless if i go down to details which im not sure if i want to!hah!alrighty i gotta grab dinner,cyah!mmuah!

*Every Step I Take, Every Move I Make, I'll Be Missin You*

- Pure Bliss... ;

Syafiq oh syafiq!
you're our dearest,our loveliest,our darling,
Our bestfriend.
you make us smile,laugh and even tear,
but we all know you're the one who casts away all our fears.

We're happy,we're sad,we're frustrated,we're angry,we cry,
we are all in this together
for good,for life,until the day we die!
our hearts are tied,like binded knits,
you do remember,
we have been in this journey together ever since we were a little kid.

The joy we had,
the fun we shared,
oh syafiq you know you made us all feel so glad.
there comes a time,
when everything else fails,
you'd let us know there's nothing we cannot possibly nail.

Now we say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you,
may all your wishes and dreams come true,
as you grow older,our friendship grows too.
so let's treasure this like bestfriends DO!!

~We ALL love you..chicky little devil!~

Happy 17th,syafiq! i hope you achieve all your ever amazing dreams,i also hope that you'll eventually meet your princess gorgeous(aheemm)!since you're a prince yourself!haha..ok dokes!you're gona grow up into a very charming person,i believe in that!chelsea n me..we both believe in that!so whatever it is,we'll help each other through in this thing called LIFE!!! Bff's forevaaa!!*hugs* oh n i hope you like our little gift card!i wrote a poem for you,i hope u love it!ohh well you should,its from HANNAH!duh!hahaha..there's sumthin comin up for you too so just hold on there alright..god bless you,my friend.

- Pure Bliss... ;

hahahahahahaha!
im a happy girl today..its just so fun..scho0l was alright!oh chelsea sprained her ankle..thats sad!she's still so stubborn wants to go to sch tmrw despite her injury!oh well i'll take go0d care of her..she went back home today midway,afena was so funny cuz she piggybacked chels all the way to the general office!hahaha..thats sweet of her!ohhh i was sad for chels case,blew kisses before she went off..haha

i wonder why these days its been so humid?!its like so bloody warm!so after scho0l i sped home n showered..felt relieved..so yeah i headed for jeremy's..its rainin n i was without umbrella..heh..how ironic the day was!one moment hot n the other so cold!with thunderstorms summore!wahhh pretty scared of it man,i freaked out like a child just now..sheesh!

oh yeah so got to jeremy's,hang for awhile..watched tv n stuff..i gotta highlight on this..HE BIT ME!argghhh..i can still see the mark luh..that guy!i will get u back one day..!muahaha!right!i had fun today with him..never had this kind of feeling for a verrryyyy long time..haha,thanks for that!the funny thing,i kept lookin at him..n i know he realised it but oh well..haha!sweets!apart from that,sumthin else happened!but i dare not mention it here..lets just keep it btwn me n him..hmmmmmmmm..

ok im beat now,gotta write some poems for syafiq!tmrw's his birthday!gotta bash him up!lol!ok whatever it is,i just wanna officially say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYAFIQ!you know WE ALL LOVE YA LOTS!may all your wishes n dreams come true!god bless!

- Pure Bliss... ;

why is it so hard to meet up with him???why???why???oh why..........i cant blame.heh..oh well here's my shortest post!later!

- Pure Bliss... ;

And soo...back on yesterday's post
you know why im stating those things?so..have you ever..??
its a metaphor,mine. the things that iv stated reflected so much about myself.
its something which iv been there done that,get what i mean?
its somethin so hard to explain.i dont know how to explain it myself.
its just somethin u might feel when everything just falls apart.
you just gotta feel it,see whats inside and n just feel,u dont have to uderstand if u cant.
im sure anyone of you has been through this.try to put it in your shoes.not literally ofcourse.
so what i do,i literally state it here in my blog just so u know im not that perfect.
we are all not that perfect actually.well you can be pretty,can be smart,can be whatever that is good for your own self but apart of you has somethin that is just not that good enough.
like for example;u can be pretty but u can be bimbotic too at the same time.

hokayy yeah..so everyone has their ups n downs right..yesterday i was feelin so ridiculous that i just gotta state somethin down.alrighty thats all.until the next post.

- Pure Bliss... ;

Have you ever felt so pushed?

Have you ever felt so used?

Have you ever felt so unappreciated?

Have you ever felt so neglected?

Have you ever felt so alone and u need someone but they're not there for you even though you're there for them when they need you to?

Have you ever felt so down all the way to the ground when the most things you expect to be turn out to be the least?

Have you ever felt so mad with someone that it backfires and the feeling just bounce back to you making you feel mad at yourself instead?

Have you ever yearn for something so much but you know you wont ever get it?

Have you ever thought so deeply that tears starts to roll down your cheeks like waterfalls?

Have you ever shed a tear for someone whom you love so much that in the end the love isnt returned?

Have you ever said the words which never meant essential by that someone?

Have you ever looked at the person in the eye whom you care and it just reflects pain?

Have you ever been promised but the promise was never kept?

Have you ever fell and bruised,expecting someone to pick u up again but he never came?

Have you ever chase a dream that is "happily ever after" but u doubt it will be?

Have you ever seen things in the shadow,shadow that will come alive,take your hand n hold?

Have you ever try to find the words but you just cannot speak?

Have you ever want somethin so bad that you just dont think it is good enough for you?

Have you ever felt so scared that you just need that someone to come rescue you and hold you tight?

Have you ever felt so confused with what is happening around you,you just wanna get out?

Have you ever been treated so harsh and insensitive and feel that life isnt as fair?

*This is my metaphor. I'll continue again,i gotta run!later!

- Pure Bliss... ;

oh deary,i missed school today..
i didnt purposely skip school!trust me..this mornin i was about to get ready for school suddenly my tummypain attacked again..i was like shit!here goes..my mum prevented me from goin to sch..she's afraid i might faint in school!haha..what drama..theres a thing called ambulance even if i did right?hahaa..oh well yeah i stayed home..good thing cuz i didnt have to attend excellence programme..teehee..i bet theres plenty of homework!poor me..

i wonder what happened in school today,they must have missed me?!haha..i wish!my classmates are super ignorant group of people,that they didnt even realise i wasnt in sch.but that wont bother me.anyhoos nuthin much happened today except for my stupid tummypain..its been killin me since last night.im still livin thou.thank god.

alrighty people thats it for now.god bless. *kisses*

- Pure Bliss... ;

Well hello!
again i skipped blogging..haha but oh well im blogging again anyways..yesterday,was a hell of a saturday..in the afternoon first place we went to was little india to have threading n removals done.it took us only a while n then after that,we decided to leave for starbucks.iv been dying for coffee for the last few weeks.at last!i had mocha frap,my all time favourite!wahhh!love loves!oh then chels had to go off cuz she has church..n then straight up i WALKED HOME!i cant be bothered to explain on that..hummmpph

i decided to go causeway in the evening to meet up my cousins to catch a movie,again i was stood up.they were freakin late..n so i had no choice but to walk around like doofus.i took the initiative to look up the movies that were coming up.i found out that there werent much great movies there cuz the go0d ones had been sold out!i was like freakin pissed n so i called my oh so0 late cousins,they suggested we bounce off to Town.yeah so i was picked up by them n drove all the way to cineleisure.i never knew there were millions there!go0d thing there was parking!upon arriving,we sped up to the ticketing booth!n guess what???all the tickets were sold out too,we so wanted to watch STOMPED THE YARD!but it was sold out!n so we left the car there n walked all the way to Lido!can u imagine how far was that!my legs were sore n cramp!n the best thing,while walkin,it was freakin raining..wahhhhh!that so great!but it paid off cuz there were tickets there.

though,the movie started rather late,decided to catch the midnight show..at the meantime,we grabbed some bites at long john n guess what?there werent any ice for the drinks!i was boiling mad!ended up askin some ice from MAC,i felt ridiculed,my go0dness!then we sat n talked about old times..it was fun fun..kak nadia is a great person to talk to.she's just like one of us even though she's married now to my cousin,rudy.haha sweets.and andy,my cousin!he was givin us ridiculous riddles all night.it drove me up the wall!my go0dness!in the car,he went on n on about riddles..oh man!but it was great,made the whole atmosphere even more alive even though it was 12 in the morning.lol!and so we watched stomped the yard,awesome movie man!chris brown died!sheesh!what a waste!he got shot!poor thing...anyhoos i love the dancing n stuff..one word,HOT!i learnt that behind the story,there lies a moral. i remember this quote = "intelligence plus character is the true meaning of education" YOU GOT THAT RIGHT!!haha..yeah..overall i love it i love it!

after that,we headed home!kak nadia sent me back.i reached at around 3 am i guess?yeah..everyone was asleep then..i crept slowly n as silently as possible,fret that i might wake anyone whos sleeping especially mama!thank god she knew where n who i was out with.or else...i dunnoe where my head will be flying off to.ahahaha..i crashed immediately after i showered.n taadaaa im up now!ahaha..

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Hey hey..guess what?theres a hacker on the lose!he's got no balls,moronic creature who has nothin better to do.solvin n issue without balls.instead goin around hacking other people's acc!what an idiot right?he messed with the wrong person...chelsea dear dont worry..that guy is already in deep shit!he's messin with a police officer's daughter,hello??!?!i bet he wasnt aware of that so lets give it a clap!ahah!*claps!he is a computer savy i gotta admit,but i assume he didnt use his brains when he came across to do it.seriously ill up there..my my!dear police,this psychotic hacker is not aware that there is a thing called LAW n theres a thing called CRIME.abusing usage of techonology is a nono,he's too smart n so he decided to go hacking around thinkin he might not get caught,oh well now he's on the lose..beware sucker,better watch your back!oh his name is what?RAY???!hah!what what sting ray isit?more like assray!god!what an idiot!alright enough said,i might blow on this again.update more so0n,later!

*Watch Your Back, Psycho*

- Pure Bliss... ;

My current playing favourite song is OVER IT by Katharin Mcphee. Its Perfect for heartbreaks but i aint in that situation anymore cuz im OVER IT.i just simply like it cuz its NICE n no hard feelings.heh.

- Pure Bliss... ;

whoot! its finally friday!i was thinkin of goin swimming today but lookin at the weather condition,i changed my mind!haha..i realise im havin a quite tanned skin now after last week friday's swim at jurong!

btw,iv gotten my result slip..i know its a wake up call..i did quite badly..i passed overall though..its downright bad!oh my..shit!my teachers have been askin me,what happened farhannah?n i was like shrugging..oh man..!teacher,i need help..if ur kind enough do guide me!!anyway lately,i had a chat with mrs yue..she's quite fun to talk personally.deep down i know she cares. she said there'll be a group work goin on in chem class n i found out that im goin into a group whereby there's someone whom i really despice!oh mann sorry to say this but i really cant stand her..she's like havin this total annoying attitude problem towards others..she's like one typical ahlien or ahso or whatever..the other day she picked a fight on me by calling friggin SIAO CHABOR (pardon my wrong spelling) !! i turned around n wanted to slap the shit out of her!but i couldnt cuz i didnt wanna cause any trouble n plus teachers were around!after that again she said somethin despicable; KAO PEI (again i dunnoe how to spell) btw what the hell is that suppose to mean? is it a bad language?oh my if it is pardon my language!i just cannot take it when people anyhow throw temper at me for no bloody reasons n start all those shit at me!its total madness!she's sick up there,she doesnt realise that..n she's goin around gossiping about me!n said things that aren't true about me to the teachers!i was like shit!she is nuts!

i seriously hate this kind of people luh..they dont even respect others n they expect others to respect them.to hell man!its a give n take situation!oh n it also takes two hands to clap..in order to prevent further argument,i didnt bother to pursue the matter!she's an irritant so whats the point!i cant knock some sense into her empty brains anyway..oh n i also hate to see her around,i just thank god that her hair is all covering her face!sheeesshh nightmare!that i wont even realise she's there!n plus why does she have to be so busy-body!urrrgghhh....queen of busy-body!!

sorry people for saying all these nonsensical stuff but i really need to get rid of it..its been bugging me pretty much..

*End Of Bitching*

- Pure Bliss... ;

notice im constantly changing my blog music.lol.oh well.routine.

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hey heyyy..
today?it went on not as fantastic..im just disappointed that i failed math n both my sciences!its terrible..mr raj,my physics teacher was like ranting his head out like one sick fella just got out of IMH!he kept tellin our class how stupid we are!and kept complementing the other sec 5 class...well yes i gotta admit the first class has always been the best n nothin else is!look i should have been there alright..i know my class is totally not anymore interested in O'levels!

BUT yo i care about my O'levels here HELLO!??i really do!its just so sickening the fact how i have to be apart of their messy shit..its like totally not fair..i just cant concentrate in class when the rest are like doofus,distracting the hell out of me..im not trying to blame anyone here alright,im just stating facts..more than half the time when the teachers are talking,i cant understand them..am i that dumb?i dont think so man!jeez!im just lack of focus.the whole time mr raj was givin me this eye like "im referring to you,you freak" oh mann i seriously freaked out n just sat there like a ding dong..i felt like tearing but i couldnt,my classmates will think im an attention-seeker!ee!knowing their potentially awful critisisms n remarks..what bunch of arseholes!i gotta endure them another 6-7 months?yeahh!i cant wait for O's to be over!its already driving me up the wall despite only being through these chaotic mess for close to 4 months.urrrhhhh im already so exhausted..i need a breather!i always say that..i seriously need it thou!

im so moody today,probably period's drawing close but i dont think so ya know..hah!i think its other matters..i just cant bother to explain n name them..oh i found out that jeremy's sick,poor him..hey rest well at home n dont go for work ok,you'll get sicker my dear..!!!!sheesh!call me when u're feeling better!i just hope ur fine..*smiles*

hokayy,i think i gotta get my nap now..im flushed..!!!LATER!
tc people!chelsea,thanks for listening to my rants n whines..thanks for givin me endless advice!!love yuh lots!!toddlies!


*Hannah Is Dozzing Off Right About Now*

- Pure Bliss... ;

Pardon me for the pop+techno song by britney..haha i just simply like the song..although i hate techno,but this song is awesome cuz its not entirely techno beat..so dont go around n call me techno freak uhh..heh!ciao!

- Pure Bliss... ;

well hello again readers,

today im quite flushed..first day of the term 2 in school..its alright..but first period with mrs yue was rather annoying,she's such an irritant ya know..uhhhh..other times she's alright but this morning,she really pissed everyone off by constantly nagging n nagging about how bad the whole class has done for the ca1 chem paper..including me that is..oh man..i know i know..i gotta catch up with my science..

alright,move on to other subjects now..ENGLISH..my most talented subject..haha..i was happy i passed the paper..i also pass geog and mother tongue..im glad..so far i passed 3 papers n failed 1..its shitty..but im alright..hah!the thing that made me happy today was when i found out that im one of the top students in english to be receiving an award during speech day i think?haha..i dunnoe oh well yeah im so happy about it..its cool!when ms wong told me abt that,i was like stunned?!she announced to the whole class..she even asked me to stand infront of the class..i felt so embarrassed..darn!after school we had excellence programme..its so tiring n dragging..but it ended eventually n we headed for comp lab to do coursework..again,i didnt do much cuz i had this terrible stomach cramp which i had to endure until i got back home,drank sumthin n ate sumthin to ease the pain..but still its painful,i dunnoe why luuhhh....MUMMYYYYY!

ok done with my nonsence..i shall end it here for tonight..until i post again,CYAH!

*Endless Thoughts N Breathless Speech *crap.

- Pure Bliss... ;

---A Poem For My Thoughts---

Old flames made me weep,
but i think iv moved on,
how sad to know the hurt is deep.
I've made a choice to live n breath again
but still how come the pain remains?


No matter how long it takes to cure my precious heart,
deep down i know i can make it through the cut.
however,things arent gonna be the same no more,
for the past has taught me ways which i have to live for.


And then there he came in,
giving me hope and courage to survive deep within.
Feeling psyched and with him i feel saved,
oh will i ever be brave?
Knowin how much he's shown the ways to take me high,
i know he's gonna stay and hinder the word goodbye!?

A friend he is,
i feel the bliss.
Oh please,heart please..
why do these 3 simple words just cant be released?

-Hannah

well now u've read the stretch..do u feel the vibe?this is me,heh..go figure out whats inside..
*smiles* till then..

- Pure Bliss... ;

Rules: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in their blog about ten weird things or little known facts as well as state this rule CLEARLY. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

I was tagged by Zubaidah.

Anyway,whats so weird about me huh?well these are the things that i find weird about myself.Lets discover some of it.

1. i always nag my throat out at my brothers when i see my room messed with stupid xbox cd games.
2. i love eating oat biscuits when im stressed.(lol,wayy weird)
3.i have the tendency of falling off my bed when im asleep. (OUCH!)
4. i like someone verryy much! :(
5. i got cheated by selfish morons 3 times. *smile hannah,smile*
6. i sing in the shower in the morning to perk my mood.its rather annoying considering everyone else is still asleep at that hour.teehee.
7. im called anorexic!!!!!!!!
8. i speak to myself when im feelin confused.
9. im obsessed about mr.spongebobsquarepants
10. i cry like a baby when im feelin stressed abt somethings.

The people im gona tag:
1. chelsea anne rodrigues
2. cristy amanda rodrigues
3. zhimin
3. jeremy
4. mandy
5. laimun
6. yvonne

- Pure Bliss... ;

well hello again..i can say today is very tiring?!had to wake up so early in the mornin just to go for sickening CIP which i dread cuz its like our holidays n they're askin us to drag our asses all the way to do some community service,HELLO!..its ridiculous!cant they do it some other time other than durin the holidays?oh man..yeah so me and all my friends decided to spread into groups to diff parts of singapore to collect donations.. me,chels and syafiq decided to go all the way to harbour front..we stood there like doofuses for whole 2 hrs i think?was it?i think so yeah after that we decided to go off cuz it was hot n tiring..lol!yeapp..the people around were quite ignorant..so no point continuing eyy!

so we move on back to yesterday..haha..me chels n syafiq went SWIMMING at Jurong swimming complex!!!!great fun with goin down the slides n stuff..very fun indeed..haha..many things that happened make me smile everytime i think abt yesterday's swimming outing..i almost drowned a couple of times..haha i felt so stupid cuz knowin that i cant swim well,i swam all the way to the middle of the pool..n its like damn deep..lucky chels was there to bring me to the sides..damn!haha..hannah hannah!you need swimming lessons!lol..oh yeah n then we went to the wave pool whereby theres tiny waves coming in every hour..we were there like monkeys in water jumping n diving up n down..there was once when chels decided to swim through syafiq's legs in the water..when it finally came my turn,i couldnt cuz i couldnt seem to swim downwards in the water for some silly reasons..i almost hit syafiq n thats when i decided to go back up fearing that i could have been drowned right there n then in the water due to some reasons why ah..(syafiq,chels: u know why ah!!!!!!!so thats our secret;shooooo,shucks!) haha..then we sat on the big float,imagine 3 ordinary people sitting on top of one pathetic float..haha we capsized afew times in the water!lol!so funny!oh n i also got some burns due to the hotness..theres lines on my back!damn i didnt put on sunblock lotion on my back!

oh well..anyway yesterday was great funnn!i wish i can turn back time to yesterday...haha!so then after that we went for dinner at Lot 1 n headed back home..its exhausting..but we felt so much fun..got home quite late thou considering i have a curfew!lol..jeremy:i know it was LATE..n i have curfew i knowwwww...haha!oh well it doesnt hurt once in awhile gettin home abit late yea?TEEHEE...*wink!

alrighty i guess thats all i can think of to write for now,until then..CYAH!

- Pure Bliss... ;

its close to 1 am in the mornin now,wonderin why the heck hannah is still up?well thats cuz im restless..iv been hoggin on the comp ever since dinner..im stuck here with endless qns in my mind..oh man..this holidays have been pretty hectic.been tryin to finish up all the sickening piles of homework given..from english to math to geog to mt!jeez!why cant all these teachers give us a hell of a break?!we're not machines neither are we robots to do these stuff 24/7?even them need a break from workin all day!on top of that there were classes to attend to which apparently i didnt turn up for some..cuz i didnt have the effort to..duh!

iv been rather downward moody today..i couldnt eat the whole day,i didnt go out either..locked up in my room just to finish up some math sums..like i said im restless,i couldnt possibly sleep the whole day n what?rot?lol!other than that,i spoke to my MUM..about how sickening life is when ur heartbroken..for the first time in history of record,i told her at the back of the kitchen that iv been cheated on 3 times?lol..she freaked out!she nearly fainted!lol no kidding!uh..yeah so she asked why n what happened n stuff..i told her maybe im just cursed or sumthin..lol i used to think that way..like,why me?why do i end up being the rebound..gawsshh its so heartbreakin n every muscle in me still feels the hurt..

i use to think i had the answer to everythin but now i know that life wasnt always goin my way..i also believe that the things that happened will always come back around?i have learnt,it is a great deed to forgive somebody whos done sumthin wrong to u?even how many time it is?im slowly tryin to adapt in being a forgiving person..only that way u'll know that soon u'll let go of the things which used to be so hard of letting go..its painful holding it back yet at the same time i cant seem to let it go n let good things come by to replace the hurt..i also have this temper which im slowly tryin to overcome by smilling always..thats works alot on me...

*remember chels?Smile when the sun dont shine..yeah!somehow smile is only rather deceiving cuz we'd smile when we're angry makin us look like retards,kinda..thats the deal we have when we're boilin mad.oh well,deep down i know im not ok.like we're givin others the signal that we're FINE thou we're not!get what im sayin..ok nvrm!FEEL n dun have to understand!i know these past few days iv been ranting quite alot on the blog..oh well..a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do..

*My Rants Will End Right Here*

- Pure Bliss... ;

-----This is a lyric which moves me-----

I know that when you look at me
Theres so much that you just dont see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
A girl whos scared sometimes
Who isnt always strong
*Cant you see the hurt in me?

I feel so all alone
I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Wont you hold me in your arms
And keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
*Tell me, will you stay or will you run away?

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
Theres nobody there, no one cares for me
Whats the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with

Tell me what does it mean?
I need you here
I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
*If you only knew how much...

*I Just Want You To Know...*

- Pure Bliss... ;

hey there fellow people,
hmmmm today,went by alright..am done with geography..one down!so im feelin much better.thanks again jeremy. *smiles*

ya know,i seriously dont know what to think or feel right now. i i i..im speechless,no words to describe my uncertainty..theres things in life which are better off not spoken or expressed.but i want to,i just dont know how thou..haha its stressful eyy..i bet half of ya'll readin this dont got no idea what im typing?its alright no need to understand anyway..feel it feel it!haha..

ummmm..what about?hmmm relationship?the thought of that jerk me off quite abit,im just afraid to be in one again ya know..im just afraid,things might be off-track again like what used to happen in the past relationships..my heart has grown fragile n cold?i can be senseless n aimless sometimes,im easily bruised n that im too afraid..afraid that i might even hurt someone else instead..hurting is not my game..i hate to see others around me hurt,simply breaks me inside..somehow apart of me tells me to go ahead?i just dont know what else is holding me back..fear?

well past experiences are causing me to feel this way now..am i wrong to feel this way?tell me!like i cannot get over some of the mistakes iv done?n i dont know how to forgive whats done?oh boy'...i just feel wrong..whats a girl like me have to do in order to overcome her weaknesses?one of my weakneses is forgiving n forgetting..i want to but im not able to..*sigh*

i just need some time..it wont take long but im sure in that point of given time,im gona come up with a conclusion n i hope nuthin's gona go wrong after that..alright thats all for now,i cant think of any other things to say.i gotta do some soul searching perhaps by then i'll wake up my mind.

ps: i just hope u'd understand n im sure u know im referring to YOU,goodnight! *wink

*Feel,Let Time Reveals It All*

- Pure Bliss... ;

hah!and so we meet again!hello my fellow readers!
firstly i would like to say,im pretty exhausted..had sch today..did my coursework and stuff and the most irritating part of it all was finding out that my coursework discette was full of virus!i dont know where on earth it came from but i bet its from my first computer...it terribly sucks to the core!my goodness!thank god theres anti virus in school's computer!and thank god nuthin happen to my coursework files!if it does again,i dont know how im gona survive..hah!thanks chels for putting backups n stuff..i appreciate..love yuh for that

oh and today i met jeremy..haha you know whats the first thing he said to me when we met? "you're TALL" and i was like HUH??haha..funny dude..and so we went sp and grab some bites instead of lunch cuz my dear jeremy is so indecisive,doesnt know where n what to eat..haha!i asked him,he asked me,i asked again,he asked me back!aiyyaahh it wouldnt enddddd..ahhahaha!hey jeremy,u were dared to bite me..well apparently it didnt happen!hah!

chels!u got constipation!hows it?oh man i can feel the pain..sucks terribly..nvrm,eat well..fibres fibres fibres!fruits n vegs!haha oh come on we're nutritionist,im sure u know that damn well!no need for me to go on..n hey rest well..get well soon!n we can all go swimming!yeaaayyy!lol!oh i wanna go rock-climbing also..i wonder when..anyhoos i just gotta say,whatever u do..u gotta live each day to the fullest!thats what i remember..haha!ok thats all for the time being..i gotta fly!!

*My Will To Jot Down All The Tiny Detailed-Essence OF Life*

- Pure Bliss... ;

Us Us Us!

Full length shot!


ready to go back!


my best cousin!


we're there for one another!


Bleah!


he simply love to take pictures even when im half sleeping!?!


Andy!!ur crazy!!!


Andy,Me & Ira


ice-creaaammmm!!


aaaahh i miss the banana split in malaysia!!


lovely cousinssss


the precious moments we spent altogether


haha!our spastic moment!


this crazy guy bit me!he actually got all my other cousins
to catch hold of me n bit me on my arm!!!sicko!

- Pure Bliss... ;

oh man..yesterday was tiring,in the car for a total of 4 hours i think?all the way to what seems an unreachable destination..the journey was effing long..mymy!when we finally reached,we got lost cuz the driver kept searching for my uncle's house there..oh man...its frustrating i tell uu!i realised we were circling the same area abt half an hour,only to find out that the house is right infront!i think the driver was blinded by the sunlight!oh boy!the wedding?its quite horrible personally..cuz i didnt like the food!the rest of my family enjoyed it thou!n the worst thing that could happen was that one of the ladies there requested me to sit at the bride n groom's vip table!like wth!im not the vip here..it felt so awkward!i didnt like it..cuz the table was like facing everyone there,n while eating,i could feel eyes watchin on me..mymy!afraid that i was eating messily,i stopped eating n watched everyone else eat..hahaha!silly i know..but i couldnt help it..after we left the wedding,we went to MERRYBROWN!syiokersss!!food glorious food!finally i had a decent meal!thank god!hahaa..so then we went shopping..haha!mum bought me a spongebob pillow!ahhhhh..its so cuuttteee!i love it,thanks mum!n the things there are freakin cheap..mymy!we didnt overnight there..instead dad decided to leave at night..we reached singapore quite late..hmmmm..i got lots of chewing gum!i wanted bubble gum thou..but mum didnt freakin allow cuz there was once i blew bubblegum n got it stuck to my hair..ahaha!thats so funny!i had to cut my hair in the end cuz its so hard for me to pull the bubblegum off!lol!anyhoos i'll upload some pictures of us in malaysia,once i get hold of it..cool?later!!

*Happy Moments Should Be Captured, By Camera* lol wink!

- Pure Bliss... ;

its sad today,we said our farewell to our dear vice principal..again another principal's leavin us!oh my whats happenin to the school!?!?first mr puvan left,then mrs jacintha lim!oh man..now left with the two weird principals..thank god this is my last year in canberra!durin assembly today,i almost cried cuz its sad to know our vp is gona leave us for further studies or whatever..hummmpphh..it somehow touched me upon seeing her cryin,we all knew she was holding back her tears and tried to compose herself when she was delivering her speech to the school..its sadd..my my..and then theres this group of malay boys who sang her a song on stage,i found them abit silly cuz first of all they dont know how to sing n they dont know how to play guitar..oh man!hahaha oh well afterall its the thought that counts..haha sweet!gawsshh u know what i need right now?a good long napp!!haha iv been sleepin late the past few nights or morning rather,n now its time to lay back n sleeeeppp until the cows come home!lol..no kidding!haha!ok gotta gooo,nappy nap!later!

*yawn yawn yawn*

- Pure Bliss... ;

haha im so glad common test is all over!oh my its so exhausting!iv been mugging my ass off..i was pissed with myself today cuz i felt stupid for doin sucha silly mistake in fnn test!how do u spell oesuphugus?eosophugus?oh my..i couldnt remember!oh man!ahhhhh..pissed pissed!but ahh well..oh i found out i flunked my chem papEr!well done hannah!well done!well at least i tried ok!i dont understand chem..heh..hmmmm,its such an interestin day today,in the morning i was told that i looked very gloomy,i kept myself quiet the whole morning all the way to fnn lesson in comp lab,i was in no mood to do anythin..haha but after reccess i was fine,really!haha!eyyy chelsss stop teasing me or i'll poke u again!bleah!and these past few days iv been called anorexic!wth?!ok i shall stop all this "not eating habit" ok!i dont wanna be anorexic!i ate during reccess ok people,i had one big nowl of noodles!good enough?*grins* i'll prove that im not one of those ugly-skinny looking girls..oh my god!im not one of them,am i?yucks!i'll eat eat eat..*smiles*

- Pure Bliss... ;

My god!
before i start off with anythin,let me just say...this isnt my best day! first up in the mornin i had geog test,i was very sleepy cuz i slept real late last night just to study up on geog notes..after it all ended,headed back to class as per normal..during reccess,u wanna know what happened?right after i stepped out of class..syafiq told me chelsea had a big fight with dominic!she was slapped in the FACE!i was so schocked n angry!i couldnt control my anger..i stormed all the way to the toilet to look for chels..when i went into the toilet,i saw her crying angrily..i mean what in the world was that guy thinkin?!no balls for slapping a poor girl!come slap me,see what will happen to you!i swear if u dont get a good tight slap back from me and a good karate kick(i learnt karate ok),you'll consider yourself verrrrrrrryyyyyy lucky!i was about to go to the canteen and bit the hell out of that guy..but then all my friends stopped me cuz they didnt wanna make matters worst!man,he's SAFE!after that..the whole reccess time,we were at class..and then when reccess was abt to end,i saw DEMONIC, i mean dominic..i wanted to confront him but then again chels stopped me..how the matter was solved?afeena confronted dominic nicely!surprisingly HE said SORRY to chels!thank god!or elssseeeee...man,i dont know what to say..the whole story is that, they fought because of some mistake that didnt wanna be admitted..dominic didnt wanna hand in his work,chels got angry..slapped him across n then got slapped back by him and then the whole 5N2 was havin earthquake n storm!yeappp that bad!sounds scarey..boy' chelsea is damn scarreyyy when she's mad..u dont wanna be messin with her..her personality is like the weather..changes constantly..but still,she's NICE!though looks may be deceiving eyy..

apart from that, today i feel rather...hmmm,dreamy n sleepy!lol!i slept in class after test when i was suppose to study for FNN..i couldnt help it alright. i didnt sleep well and i had like only 5 1/2 hrs of sleep last night..soo tiring..n now i need to study up FNN!my goodness..i need rest..im startin to get dark circles..oh man!panda?nooooooo...!oh today is the second day without talkin to mr.jeremy..i wonder whats he doin now?campfire or sumthin?lol..oh well..a week is gona be long for me,hmmmphh! *bored face*..im goin KL soon..another wedding,my uncle's! i hope to go shopping there!whooot!i cant wait!but then again..i dont wish to be stayin there for long..cuz theres gona be school on monday..classes after classes!this sucks to the core..but ah well!hey i gotta bounce now..study FNN,last paper!i need to survive that!persevere!tahan!hahaha!

*I'm Thinkin Of Someone At This Very Minute*

- Pure Bliss... ;

today, wasnt a good day!started off my morning with tired pair of eyes.i didnt feel like goin to school but the thought of my tests immediately awakened my mind.math was the first paper and right after was physics which i dread!never have i ever felt this way for physics.did i lost all the words on my to school?or was it that im just pure sleepy?the night before,i slept real late,i think it was close to 1am in the mornin that i started to pack my stuff and got ready for bed!its not my best day today,got babbled by ms wong,my eng teacher..she literally went up to my table durin test n started babbling bout my progress..she went on n on.."where are u going?jc?poly?or worst ITE?oh man if so,congratulations" she handed out her hand to shake my hand!can u believe her?i just kept myself silent,didnt know what else to say..my words were stuck in my throat..felt so darn sad..she went on again.."without science n math,ur nowhere!u cant go poly!so how?im gona speak to your parents n inform your form teacher abt this!u cant do this farhannah!" ahhhhh at that point of time tiny crystals already fallen on my cheeks..couldnt help it..yuh im a crybaby!oh man its so depressing..i rushed off to toilet immdiately after the tests was over with chelsea following behind me..ofcourse they were wonderin what was wrong with me!i dunnoe everytime i feel sad or feel like cryin..i'll rush to the toilet cubical?its cuz its secluded n no one's there!hmmmmm so i skipped MT cuz we only had it for 15 mins then it was breaktime..god my eyes were red..everyone started askin me why..naturally they got to know it before i even told them..n then they were like "ms wong,fck her!she's nuts n nonsence" actually ms wong is partly right..maybe she's just concern n what jeremy said,she's tryna indirectly encourage me to do well..oh well yeah!i gotta work harder!just give me time ms wong!i'm gona prove it to you..*smiles*

nnnn today after school..i was alright..haha met jeremy..he looks like a teacher!mymy!MR.HO!hahaha..hey u dont have to be sorry ya know..i didnt expect anythin from u today..*smiles* really!haha..slight pinch of sadness thou..u'll be goin away..a WEEK! haha..its looonnnggg..dont u think?oh well i guess it'll past in no time eyy?HAVE FUN there..n keep thinkin of me?ahahaha..no luh..kidding!probably after u get back,we can like catch up with things yeah?haha..i hope!*wink* okkayy i gotta study chemistry soon..thats it for now,later!

~My Rant N Sweets At 8.04Pm~

- Pure Bliss... ;

I think I could like you
I already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight
Feel somethin happenin
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside
Do you feel somethin happenin?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl
Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you
Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch, know how to touch a girl?

You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

- Pure Bliss... ;

Aha!i'm finally here posting again....hello my lovelies!hey nice anot my blog?thanks to my darling chels..took us hours to figure this blog!we didnt study ya know..haha!hmmmm what shall i talk abt now? i've been quite happy these past weeks,probably because of the things that has been happening around me?im happy with school,just annoyed with some people..oh NNNN i got to know a new person..haha im so glad...nice n charming *Smiles*. aside that,everything else are fine,school?oh it is alright..just gotta catch up more in class cuz iv been quite playful ever since school started in january..afeeenaaaaaaaa u gotta learn how to be quiet at times ok?lol..or else i cannot concentrate in class! oh today i had two tests,SS n ENG!they're fine..i didnt expect it to be quite easy..in a sense that i can finish all qns..usually my SS,i wont be able to finish all the qns!haha...hmmmmm what else that im missing out?i just cant wait for the week to be over cuz its like the entire stretch this week,its tests tests tests..meaning mug mug mug!damn it...haha..i gotta study later!anyhoos,i'll catch up soon alright,cyah!

*My Spilled Thoughts On 5th March*

- Pure Bliss... ;