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Friday, March 16, 2007

its close to 1 am in the mornin now,wonderin why the heck hannah is still up?well thats cuz im restless..iv been hoggin on the comp ever since dinner..im stuck here with endless qns in my mind..oh man..this holidays have been pretty hectic.been tryin to finish up all the sickening piles of homework given..from english to math to geog to mt!jeez!why cant all these teachers give us a hell of a break?!we're not machines neither are we robots to do these stuff 24/7?even them need a break from workin all day!on top of that there were classes to attend to which apparently i didnt turn up for some..cuz i didnt have the effort to..duh!

iv been rather downward moody today..i couldnt eat the whole day,i didnt go out either..locked up in my room just to finish up some math sums..like i said im restless,i couldnt possibly sleep the whole day n what?rot?lol!other than that,i spoke to my MUM..about how sickening life is when ur heartbroken..for the first time in history of record,i told her at the back of the kitchen that iv been cheated on 3 times?lol..she freaked out!she nearly fainted!lol no kidding!uh..yeah so she asked why n what happened n stuff..i told her maybe im just cursed or sumthin..lol i used to think that way..like,why me?why do i end up being the rebound..gawsshh its so heartbreakin n every muscle in me still feels the hurt..

i use to think i had the answer to everythin but now i know that life wasnt always goin my way..i also believe that the things that happened will always come back around?i have learnt,it is a great deed to forgive somebody whos done sumthin wrong to u?even how many time it is?im slowly tryin to adapt in being a forgiving person..only that way u'll know that soon u'll let go of the things which used to be so hard of letting go..its painful holding it back yet at the same time i cant seem to let it go n let good things come by to replace the hurt..i also have this temper which im slowly tryin to overcome by smilling always..thats works alot on me...

*remember chels?Smile when the sun dont shine..yeah!somehow smile is only rather deceiving cuz we'd smile when we're angry makin us look like retards,kinda..thats the deal we have when we're boilin mad.oh well,deep down i know im not ok.like we're givin others the signal that we're FINE thou we're not!get what im sayin..ok nvrm!FEEL n dun have to understand!i know these past few days iv been ranting quite alot on the blog..oh well..a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do..

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