~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Friday, July 13, 2007

Lately i know i have been such a pain in the ass..im fighting against myself..not knowing what im fighting for...happiness?freedom?fairness?security?these things i long for but aside from those..there are other things..i just wanna live my life as normal as possible like any other girls..happy and perky..shopping like no one cares..i long for things to get back to usual..the past few days,i have been keeping to myself at home,not communicating nor seeing my other family members,just simply lock myself in my room..ranting through what seems like thin four walls.i have been mad towards my siblings,simply because they just do not understand me as a growing woman..

I guess they can never understand me in these lightyears..apart of me wants them to know me n understand me but apart of me just wants to shut myself from them..i felt angry with my elder brother cuz i thought he has been sucha moron..he just doesnt wanna give in to me..he wants his way and i want my way,hence the world seems like an intense war.i just cant take it what he has done to me..the slap didnt hurt me at all but what hurt me is the mental pain caused inside..i could forgive him eventually but all i need is a simple sorry,thats just simply so hard for him i guess..oh well!

What more,there are other thiings on top of that...school has been driving me intensely MAD..im growing mad by day..the teachers just want more n more out of us..today,i had to stay after school to finish up english assignment..the essay was horrible..ms wong made all of us stay back and we couldnt go back until its done..unsurprisingly,i was the last person to finish...this may seem such an excuse but my head was in a daze hence i was the only girl in the hall this afternoon hurrying up on my essay..darn..so stressful..my friends left me behind and didnt wait up for me..OH THEY'RE SUCH GOOD PALS!

But oh well..nevertheless,its my fault,i was so slow..i know but what to do right?i am indeed slow when it comes to writing materials..i did with quality alright even though it took me the whole hour!HEH!ms wong!she is such A...........................................> NICE TEACHER!!bleah!i understand why she's doing this..she simply wants us to succeed..thats all..i remember how she made me tear like crazy infront of her last year before N's but look at where i am today...all ready for O's!thanks BABE!haha..

As for now,i just wanna live my life...i know there'll be lotsa pressure and stress but i gotta perservere and work hard in order to achieve my dreams..now i am confuse..JC OR POLY?

uhh heck!i just do my best now...after O's once everything's A's...i can get anywhere i want.haha..alrighty...i gotta work on my A's now..LATERS!

LOVES,
HannahBanana

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