~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Just like my current display song right here in my blog.."IT'S ONLY LIFE"....here i am 2am in the wee cold morning,im blogging..it seems so hard for me to shut my eyes to sleep..i had a rough day today..but i figured its only life..i was so mad at myself for bein such a stupid ass..i couldnt even fix a darn circuit..people thinks its like godamn easy but i tried so hard to fix the electric circuit for the entire 45 mins given..i was struggling so bad that i just gave up in the end..

I looked around to see if everyone had finished..yes they did...and what was i still doing?struggling to get the circuit together..sheeshh...whats so hard abt that electricity circuit..its only a circuit..well let me tell u..i was given a tray of ameter,batteries,rheostat,resistor and whatnots..not fogetting the red/black wires....they were all in a big pile of mess..they look so mygod..messy..i dunnoe what to say..the guy next to me actually finished it in less than half an hr..u tell me how am i not suppose to feel deprived knowin that my other classmates are all done right before me..gosshhh..i felt so doomed..i didnt know what else to do but to just give it up!

The teacher kept walkin around and givin me those stares..feelin utterly annoyed,i simply shot back with a snobbish fucked up face..what else was i suppose to do?smile at her hoping for some merciful compassionate help?are u kidding me?sheeshhh....how retarded..seriously..at that point of time,i felt like im the most retarded and silly person in the whole entire chemistry lab..what more,the room felt so dead..so quiet and creepy..dammit..i hate that feeling..a feeling like i know im so gonna be trapped and drop dead in my very own gravehole..sooo sooo weird....further on,the fans were shut off to prevent it blowing the bunsen burner..hence,my whole body was soaked with my disgusting perspiration..my palms sweaty..knees heavy..practically my whole being was a dread..sadness!

All i could ever think at that moment of time,was to run away from the lab,what i thought was a total nightmare..i cudnt think straight,i lost focus the moment i knew i couldnt make it..the whole exam paper was practially a blank..for phys only that is..thank god theres no problem for my chemistry..or else,i dunnoe what else to do with my life..such nightmare!god god!help!

But oh well,its over and done now..prelims are officially over..i can rest for abit now..after this no more intentions of resting cuz time to get my butt up n study like fuck..yes like fuck..i know i can be quite vulgar at the moment but just bear with it,it will pass..weeehooo....im gonna crash now for the night,till another post..TC!laters! :)

Beat,

HannahBanana

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