~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Thursday, October 18, 2007

There are times to be happy,super cheery,super fun..but there's just times when i feel like laying down and cry,pour out my sadness over myself,just simply be alone..in my room or in the shower with the water running,hoping it can wash away my heavy sorrows..i feel locked up somewere in a world of my own..sometimes life i feel is cruel and cold..because theres no freedom..to do or say and even think when feel like it..the truth is always concealed behind closed doors..while mistakes linger pretentiously and people are too quick to succumb whatever that comes their way,at a glance or just by observing..over-reacting and over-estimating..little did they know the unforseen circumstances over their lack of intelligence and understanding in their actions..i cant make them understand me can i?i cant make them to..its up to them to listen or not..they can push me as far away from them as possible but i know i've made a courageous attempt to stand up for myself and not make them look at me like a fool..

On top of that,I gravitate sensitivity as well but i dun see much coming from the people i love..what more seeking their understanding..iv been goin through shit lately..however,im trying as hard as possible not to let them see how i bleed inside when they say things which are not worth considering..in times like these,O'level examination and stuff..problems n etc,i seek mutual understanding,concern...but too bad..i only have my parents to run to and sometimes sadly they're not there..i can see crystal clear now that i can depend on no one but myself..yes happy times can be sweet with pals and favourite significant ones but in times of need only few can taste my bitterness..sad to say yes in life,we need to learn how to be dependent on ourselves..only then when everythin else all break down upon u,u know you're strong enough to stand alone in the storm on your own.

I especially feel that trust and respect is the key to all friendship..however,i feel that sometimes it just isn't there..thus,i seek for a point and try to fathom what went wrong..the feeling of not being trusted,the feeling of no longer cared,no longer wanna be heard,no longer wanna be inetrested in..it bites right down to the core..bleeds and sips through the veins,making it feel more sore..the feeling is just not right altogether..it hurts my soul!yes its unbearable..i feel like my thoughts have not been spared even for a bit..no matter how im feeling,i guess its alright,...right?cuz probably im immune to it already..keeping it to myself,thinking it wud soon go away?that's what i usually thought..haiss...oh why..just why..??Please,im already down on my knees...

I need to walk away from certain things in life..and yeah iv been sayin that upteenth times already..but sometimes i just couldnt seem to..so sad but its true..

Getting Nothin In Return

What Did I Do To Deserve The Pain Of This Slow Burn?

Sincerely,

Hannah

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