~**-PiEcE Of A BeAutIfuL MeMoRy-**~

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Well,can u tell if someone whom ur having a close communication system with is silently keeping a feeling,a strong feeling long to be known..but somehow pushing it back,scared being disappointed again,scared being in a devastating crushed situation once more..the feeling is indescribable,at the same time,its sensation to be thinkin abt how ur having that strange but yet adrenalin-rush kind of feeling is exciting..haha i know,like what the hell is hannah thinking,talkin gibberishly abt something no one barely understands half the words she's saying..truth is i have someone currently going back n fro in my mind..someone in the past,evolving back into the present,perhaps into the future too..but i wouldnt know if this is just temporary or for long..

See the thing with me is,i tend to be emotional,confused,painly annoying when it comes to the matters of the 'heart',a pessimist in this wise..so i guess this is partly why it is hard for me to easily fall 'in love'..righty..i'm just simply saying that its not easy for me,neither for 'him' (anywho)..i guess when i wanna be emotionally involved with someone,there has to be commitment n mutuality..something very special possessed between us two..perhaps all those while,when i had 'someone',i wasnt really lookin at it deep,not far-looking,not going anywhere i guess..nothing significant abt it,nothing to look forward to..i guess i wasnt really ready or serious abt anything other than my books..hmm perhaps i just dont know how to juggle things altogether at the same ultimate time..making everything fumblingly ridiculous,hilarious,and all the rest of the 'ous' anyone could find in the dictionary..

Its funny how after i analyse and theoretically put everything in words abt how i feel,in the midst and in all throughout this time,'he' constantly keeps sitting on my dazing mind..weird..but oh well..that shows how....uhh...wierd feelings can turn out to be sometimes..at times...alright maybe all the time i suppose..hmmm...feelings are meant to be kept?told?revealed?whatever..i cannot fathom what im blabbering about myself..so go figure what iv been blabbering abt..dont bother asking me,cuz i wont tell..weeee..laters!

Who's the 'he'?

Go figure..

Love,
HannahBanana

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